I Deserve To Die. - Tumblr Posts

Same with me but with every girl I’ve ever let trick me into thinking I matter. Last one not only lied cheated and replaced me, but still spent a year abusing me and telling me I don’t matter and don’t deserve respect until my replacement even came and said I don’t deserve to be loved and the only reason I existed was to bring them together. Both were sure to remind me that I don’t deserve anything permanent and that I am a disposable tool, not even a person. I’ve just accepted it now, there’s no point in fighting it or pretending I matter or deserve to be loved. I’m the worst thing that can possibly happen to someone according to all of them.

I no longer am gonna believe a guy when they say they love me and will always be there for me. Too many times now when I’m starting to believe that maybe I’m not alone, maybe someone really does care about me, they pull the rug out from under me and I end up feeling more and more used.

I think that I only get told that stuff because they wanna see what they can get out of me until they realize I just am as messed up as I say. I’m too much and they leave. 😣

The mood dropped immediately when I saw the grade

I failed...again

No matter how much I try, I can't do anything right

Actually I stopped trying because it will be the same

I stopped trying

And I thought I stopped caring but I was wrong

I'm lying in my bed, crying my eyes out

I'm worthless

Useless

Stupid

I deserve to die

I have to die

I want to die