EVERYONE PAUSE! I Just Realised I Have A Post In My Drafts That Is Completed And I Never Posted It?!??!?

EVERYONE PAUSE! I just realised I have a post in my drafts that is completed and I never posted it?!??!?

I’ll post it tmr or something, idk if it’s gonna be what people will want to read… I think there was a reason I didn’t post it at the time but I am feeling like posting it now so oh well. TMR!

crying screaming kicking my feet throwing up bc what do you mean I wake up and find out jeonghan and jun are going 😣😣😣😣😣😣😭😭😭🙂‍↔️😭🙂‍↔️😭🙂‍↔️😕 like I knew jeonghan bc obv he has to do military but JUN TOOOO??? it’s a great opportunity for him and obv a good thing BUT SVT </3

the only good thing I got out of this was oh hey there’s gonna be a 12th mini album 😁

star crossed lovers

ex!jeno, lovers to friends to strangers.

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you couldn’t be friends anymore. not when you loved each other.

you fell to the ground with a huff, the bike landing just below your feet. you sit yourself up quickly, hands digging into the dirty grass to try and see if you were in pain. you stood up briefly, immediately taking a seat a bit further away from your bike.

you knees continued to bleed a little bit more as the seconds passed by. you looked up from where you had sat on the edge of the road to see that jeno had a panicked look on his face. he jumped off his bike, leaving it to fall over on the grass as he ran over to you.

“you could’ve died!” he yelled, coming down beside you and immediately checking your wounds.

“it wasn’t that bad-“ you tried to argue, but he interrupted you. “you almost broke your neck, I saw!”

you sighed, leaning your head back and eyes closing. jeno grabbed a tissue out of his pocket, carefully trying to clean the bloody wound on your knees. you winced at the pain, but refused to look at the boy next to you.

it was late at night, the stars were shining as the summer heat continued to blast. you wanted to go bike riding despite how late it was, and when you told your groupchat, jeno insisted on joining you.

your own boyfriend wasn’t there for you as much as jeno was. you found that, somehow, it was always him by your side.

jeno was your ex. back in highschool, the two of you dated for two years. at the time, it seemed like you two were meant to be. but as time went on, things changed and you two were no longer compatible. and yet here you were, in the present, with him still by your side.

sure, you two always had arguments. sure, he was always first to get mad at you. sure, you two say you hate each other one moment and then the next day you don’t mind each other. sure, the whole friend group think you two should stop hanging out so much. sure, you both were in seperate relationships. and yet here you are.

sitting on the side of the road, bikes ditched (or crashed) on the grass, jeno caring to your wounds as you open your eyes and stare at the stars.

why was he always there for you despite everything.

“jeno..” you sit up straight and look at him. he drops the tissue on the ground, not looking at you as he continues to check your wound. he eventually does look at you. “what is it?”

“do you love me?”

it felt like the world went silent as you anticipated your answer. he stared into your eyes, not once looking away. as the wind picked up, you grew hotter and wished you could just run back home and get away from both this situation and the heat.

he opened his mouth, speaking in a slow and gentle manner, “no, I do not.”

you nodded your head and looked away. the roads were quiet, much like the neighbourhood in general. most house lights were off at this time off night, everyone choosing to sleep unlike the restless young adults sitting on the side of the street.

“why’d you ask?” he said, also looking away from you. eye contact felt too intimate all of a sudden.

“because… sometimes it feels like we are dating again.” you say, starting off slow. “and I’m not saying I like you, I love my boyfriend you know. but sometimes…”

“I know what you mean.” he says, easing the tension. “we don’t love each other but… we do..”

“maybe the universe failed to get us together so it just keeps trying.” you said, adding a little laugh at the end to try and lighten this heavy topic.

he smiled, turning his head to look at you. you felt his stare on your face, and you loved every moment of it. things like this had you questioning everything. why were you so eager to still love him.

“i love my girlfriend.” he says, looking away. “I want to marry her one day. but…” he pauses, as if contemplating if he should continue speaking. you two had never spoke about these feelings that so clearly there. despite everything, to everyone it was clear you two had something still there. “I hate to say this, but a part of me will always love you.”

you agreed instantly, and it eased his heart. at least the feeling was reciprocal. but the feeling of love means nothing when neither of you want to love each other.

“we should.. stop seeing each other.” you say. you did not want to be that girlfriend that can be trusted. you knew your boyfriend surely had his worries, and you are sure jeno’s girlfriend had her own worries. and the sad fact was, that they were most likely right.

this wasn’t a normal friendship.

“I know…” he trials off, resting his hands on the grass behind him and leaning back. “but I like being your friend.”

“i do too but clearly this isn’t working.”

you look at him with stern eyes. “we can’t be friends after tonight.”

he rolled his eyes, “fine. should I delete your number too?”

“yeah, you should.”

“what about the group chat? our whole friend group will fall apart.”

“we have seperate group chats, just use those. it’s not like I really talk to your friends and you rarely talk to mine.”

you stand up, feeling the sharp pain in your knee still burning.

“let’s not make excuses. we can’t see each other anymore.”

“we are really ending our friendship on some random persons lawn?” he asked, raising an eyebrow at you as if he wasn’t sure you were serious.

“yes.” unfortunately for him, you were.

he laughs, but he didn’t seem too happy anymore. it was like he didn’t know how to feel anymore, because his face was contorting being a smile and pure sadness.

“I’ll see you one day in the future.” he says, standing up himself and walking over to where he threw his bike down.

“I hope not.” you say, half jokingly. he got onto his bite and moved onto the road.

he turned around to look at you one more time for that evening.

“we always meet again. if not this life, maybe the next one.”

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7 and seungkwan!!!

boo seungkwan — caught in a kiss.

the laughter and chatter of your friend group echoed through the house as everyone gathered for a game of hide and seek. the game was in full swing, with each person trying to find the best hiding spots while chan was doing the countdown.

“come on, think fast!” seungkwan called, catching up to you as you reached a small closet.

without much time to think, you flung open the closet door and slipped inside, hoping seungkwan wouldn’t see. to your surprise, he followed you in, and the two of you ended up in the cramped space together.

the closet was small, barely big enough for two people to stand side by side. you stood so close that you could feel seungkwan’s warmth radiating against you.

the two of you exchanged nervous glances, the reality of the close quarters setting in. seungkwan’s face was only inches from yours, and you could see every detail of his expression. there was a charged silence between you, the proximity making it impossible to ignore the tension.

seungkwan shifted slightly, his hand brushing against yours. the movement was almost imperceptible, but it was enough to make your heart race. he looked into your eyes, and you could see the conflict there—a mixture of curiosity and desire.

without a word, seungkwan leaned in, his lips gently pressing against yours. the kiss was hesitant at first, but as you responded, it deepened, becoming more urgent and passionate. the closeness of the space made every touch, every movement feel amplified.

just as you were beginning to lose yourself in the kiss, the closet door creaked open, and chan’s voice rang out, breaking the moment. “found you!”

you and seungkwan pulled apart quickly, faces flushed with surprise and embarrassment. chan stood in the doorway, his eyes wide with a mix of shock and amusement.

“oh, wow. i didn’t expect to walk in on this,” chan said, his grin widening. “you two have been caught red-handed.”

seungkwan quickly started an argument with chan, “chan, it’s not what it looks like…”

“sure it isn’t,” chan teased, still grinning. “i’m definitely telling everyone about this.”

as chan turned to leave, still chuckling to himself, you and seungkwan exchanged a look. the kiss had been unexpected, and the situation was undeniably awkward, but there was a new, unspoken connection between you two now.

“well,” seungkwan said with a sheepish smile, “that was one way to make hide and seek more interesting.”

you laughed softly, feeling a warmth in your chest that had nothing to do with the embarrassment. “surely memorable.”

with a shared, knowing look, you both stepped out of the closet, ready to face the rest of the evening and erase the old tension between you.

made a few changes and then realised now I have to change everything… damn