I Just Woke Up, Man... But No, Tumblr Chose To Get Personal Today. Well, At Least I'm Fully Awake Now.

I just woke up, man... but no, Tumblr chose to get personal today. 😅 Well, at least I'm fully awake now.

ND culture is spending your whole childhood being told you're "too sensitive" and "need to toughen up." Then realizing as an adult that it was basically just "traumatize the ND kid until they stop melting down." Bonus points if the adults in your life still feel justified in how they treated you because you "turned out OK" despite needing years of therapy.

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is it weird or normal to have a shutdown instead of a meltdown? like i’m talking about them overlapping and shutdown taking over meltdown kind of thing.

for example, i’m in a highly distressing situation, either in class, the store, on a trip or anywhere else where there is lots of sensory input, changes, new things and people.

rather than starting to pace, hit my head, scream, punch things and cry my brain goes into shutdown and reboots to avoid a meltdown, and i go into non-verbal autopilot mode until the reboot is done and it feels like i’m starting on a clean slate. zero viruses detected.

so is that normal? i don’t like meltdowns because i can get violent, so shutdowns prevent that, so is it like a coping mechanism or something?

also is referring to my brain as a computer system strange? media and the society overall seems to view autistics as robots and many autistics don’t feel like it’s accurate and rather offensive. but my brain has always operated like that.

Shutdowns vs meltdowns are completely normal and individual. Many (not all) Autistics will also switch from physical meltdowns to more internalised ones (shutdowns) as we get older.

We may not even have meltdowns or shutdowns until life circumstances pitch us enough difficulties to cause one. And some never have them at all.

And yes, I think of my brain like a computer system, too! So all normal!!

He had buzz cut before he woke up, too... I wonder if Quaritch requested that. 🤔

There was no fucking reason to make his avatar THAT attractive. 😤

Happy pride! Have some cryptids 👻🏳️‍🌈 

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I'm close to 30, and I'm in some heavy-ass denial. It doesn't help that I don't trust that greased-up, Frankenstein-wannabe breath-talker. 🤬

Do I have any late 20’s/early 30’s mutuals willing to reassure me that I’m NOT bat shit crazy for being this upset over a character death?

(My husband is trying to be supportive but I can tell he thinks I’m bonkers)

I definitely don't want to see Spider harmed, he's a sweet kid and deserved far better than what he's been getting, both in and out of universe, and he did nothing wrong.

That said, the Sully's aren't gonna see it that way.

Granted, you're right about Spider, he didn't betray anyone, and he saved the life of someone that showed he cared... during a hostage situation, sure, but it's more than the kid usually gets, and even without that, he likely would've saved the jerk anyway, because SPIDER IS NOTHING LIKE HIS FATHER. (well, maybe the same capably crazy energy, but that's it)

BUT, the Sully's have been dealing with this psycho Colonel's bullshit for too long already, they've lost so many of their community and family, the whole famn damily done with this man, and they thought they were rid of him... only for Spider to save him.

I still say he's not wrong for it, but the Sully's are equally not wrong to be mad about it, though they would be wrong for trying to kill him for it (I'm looking at you, Neytiri).

Since everyone assumes the worst if and when the Sullys find out Quaritch is alive because of our boy Spider. Let's think this through.

He didn't betray them. They betrayed him and left him to Quaritch. He had every right to save someone who saved him from torture.

If anything this is a chance for the Sullys to reward his loyalty and love because he could have chosen to go with him but he didn't.

Quit wanting Lo'ak to kill his best friend. Quit wanting Netyri to kill a boy who just wanted to be apart of their family and endured torture for them.

I swear there is something deeply wrong with this fandom.