Hi, I'm Kind Of Picky Of FF In General, Smut Especially, But Your "Pulling Away" Is Just Beyond Perfect.
Hi, I'm kind of picky of FF in general, smut especially, but your "Pulling away" is just beyond perfect. Do you maybe have time and the enthusiasm to write something like that again? Not sure what other characters you'd write for (out of your master list) but another Joel would be great anyway. Thank you for your work!
A/n ahh thank you!! the feedback i've gotten on "Pulling Away" has been unbelievable,, and i very rarely usually write smut without being prompted to lol, i feel like it's too obvious that i'm a virgin who has had very few sexual experiences, even less if you don't count the ones i didn't fully consent to,, but that's neither here nor there, i'm doing better now i promise :)
also ik my masterlist is super limited compared to who i actually write for lol,, updating it is my absolute enemy but i'm working on it đ
also the build up in this fic is criminal!! that's my bad!
Summary: You, Ellie, and Joel have recently decided to permanently settle in Jackson. The promise of stability seems to lead to boundaries adjusting during a sleepless night after Joel appears in your bedroom.
smut warning, 18 plus !!
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It's existed in him as undeniably and permanently as the lines etched into the slightly calloused skin of the back of his palm. Control is something that Joel Miller knows, something he clings to the same way he keeps a gun in his hand when he needs to.
Control is what keeps him from reacting when your arm moves too carelessly and your elbow manages to push against his ribs. The side that you know is more yellow-purple than the soft tan it should be. If you weren't lying next to him, you would have assumed that the shift of your arm had no affect on him. But you're pressed closer to him than you've ever been, so you can feel the shift despite his intentions. It's subtle. A pinch in his breathing and a brief wave of tension in his spine.
"Sorry," your blurt out is instinctual, and you're not sure if it might be making things worse. You've never been this close to him and it burns so much you can practically feel it melting the thin ice holding the two of you above water.
Burns in a good way. A way that you've only ever felt through brief flutters that have come up more and more recently. Lingering touches patching up injuries, reassuring squeezes of hands that are always brief and never mentioned, the press of Joel's knee against yours as you sat at that table in Jackson, overwhelmed by the presence of so many strangers.
And now this. You, Joel, and Ellie had been given a place to stay. You used to dream about your own bed. A safe roof over your head and a clean blanket keeping you warm. Finally getting it left you restless. Being away from Joel and Ellie felt unnatural even if they were in the same building as you. There are so many strangers here, and even though they have no reason to strike you down, it's still weird.
You couldn't help the obsessive thoughts. It felt oddly compulsive, the urge to wrap the two of them up in warm blankets and bubble wrap and just watch them be okay. It's weird, but what can you say, Ellie and Joel are your people.
And then Joel wandered in after some talk with his brother. It had surprised you, considering the way he had avoided you earlier, but you'd never complain about having him close.
You're still not sure how it happened. How Joel started asking you about how you were settling and telling you that Ellie was just fine. He had gone in to check up on her and then lingered until she fell asleep. The thought of that domestic moment made your heart swell and you found yourself relaxing.
Somehow Joel ended up taking some of your covers. There's a draft, it's winter. You forced yourself to not focus on that in any other context. Refused to give it any other meaning. And then he moved closer, eventually laid his head on your pillow. You almost convinced yourself it was just a way to be a little comfortable while keeping up conversation. But then the talk eventually faded and you had to move to let him fit and you ended up like this. Safe and fragile.
This stray from what's normal is okay tonight. Everything is still weird, you three like awkward, feral cats compared to the people of Jackson.
"You're fine," he breathes, voice rough with sleep.
His acceptance is easy but it does nothing to make you less aware of your position. You're more on top of him than you need to be and your mind is suddenly scrambling, trying to remember every injury you've ever seen him receive.
Untangling yourself from the gentle cocoon you've created is an ache in your chest, but the thought of hurting him is worse. You move your leg close to the edge of the bed and start the careful process of retracting your arm.
Joel shifts with a slight sigh, his own hand following your own. He snags your wrist, pulling you back into place. "You're fine." Joel repeats his earlier words, so half thought out and mumbled together you think they might even be sleep idled.
"Careful," you try, fighting against the blood rushing to your face. "I don't want to hurt you."
Joel's hand moves down your forearm with a slowness that almost feels deliberate. You have to press your lips together to keep from exhaling too sharply. He turns his head and even in the dark you can feel the focus of his gaze.
He swallows once, lips parting for a moment before he speaks, "Hurts more the other way." It's vulnerable and not, undercut by something that feels so factual you briefly have to think about whether or not that's physically possible. "It's good pressure."
Your eyebrows draw together at the realization that he's not entirely joking. The audacity. He's always referencing his age and the soreness that's going to have to catch him at one point or another but now there's not a single concern for his joints or potential hip damage. You've always had a feeling that at least a part of that rant has to be bullshit, or at least some kind of exaggeration.
You scoff but make no move to pull away as Joel settles. "I don't believe you." Normally you wouldn't state anything so transparently. Any flash of softness is glass and barely tangible. Trying to grasp it by speaking about in the open makes it vanish. Like waking too suddenly from an incomplete dream. But you don't feel at risk, something about the dark and the warmth and his hand on your forearm. "You're so full of shit--what happened to old man knees and arthritis and hip joint iss-"
"You're making up those last two."
There's silence for a brief moment and then laughter. A stupid burst of giggles that has you forgetting the little bit of normal left. Your forehead briefly falls down, your face pressing against his shoulder as you try to keep it down. He laughs with you after a second, a reluctant, almost annoyed display of amusement.
You're still recovering, breathing a little heavier than usual and coming back enough to realize that this level of closeness may be pushing it. You lift your head just as Joel's hand finds a place between your shoulders. First a fist and then his fingers patiently relaxing. You don't think you've ever been this still in your life.
"I can't keep track of all your old man ailments," it's a whisper that's more against his skin than not.
He lets out a breath, "You needed me to help you onto a horse today."
You halfheartedly glare even though you're too pressed into him for him to be able to see you. "I could do it by myself now." Likely a lie, considering it had only taken a second with Joel's help and the concept of casual horse riding still feels foreign. "I just hadn't ridden one before."
His hand shifts up your back, an unbelieving hum escaping him. Has Joel always been this warm? And somehow both so evidently sturdy but still comfortable? Safe? You don't know what possesses you, maybe it's the urge to not feel so divided from him in any way, but you turn head slightly to make it easier to speak: "You're not actually that old."
He pauses at that, fingertips freezing against the fabric of your pajama shirt. "Older than you."
You let out a sigh, feeling like there's a hint of something else tucked into his words that you're too tired to explore. "So?" He lets out another flat breath, a sound you don't quite understand but makes you want to compensate, "You can get old, though, when it's your time."
He shifts in a way that feels like a combination of stifling a laugh and a display of a touch of reluctant curiosity. "You givin' me permission?"
"Not like that," you shake your head against his arm, "I just--I don't know--I think it'd be good if you got to be old with arthritis and bad hip joints and whatever else happens. It'd mean you were still alive."
You don't realize what you're saying until the words slip out. The blankness of your statement is too honest and you blame the fact that you're actually starting to feel like you could benefit from the sleep you've been putting off. It's instinctual to turn into him in a vain attempt to get closer even though you're already hanging onto him in a way that feels ridiculous. Your fingers curl in to him a little more, clutching at the surprisingly soft fabric of his shirt.
It's a subtle change, but you're not surprised that Joel notices. You are, however, not expecting him to understand. The hand on your back draws up even further, pushing you against him more firmly. Maybe Joel did have a point. Good pressure.
"Don't go thinkin' about it."
For once, you want to listen to him without putting up a fight just to see that line between his forehead reappear. But you can't. It's not that easy. Even here, as safe as it's ever going to get, there's still a chance of loss. And even if the world was perfect and Joel could guarantee that there would never be a dangerous patrol or anything threatening him again, there are still other things that worry you. There's no reason for you all to stay together.
When your only response is to halfheartedly nod so that he can feel the motion, Joel lets out a partial sigh. The movement of his chest is more noticeable than the sound. His hand travels down the expanse of your back, something you only recognize because of the warmth his touch leaves in its wake. You're only half there until his fingers brush against a small expanse of exposed skin where your sleep shirt had ridden up. Nothing insanely suggestive, nothing that should be considered too intimate. It's likely an accident, too. It's too dark for it to be intentional.
Knowing this is not enough to keep your body from tensing. Joel's fingers move upwards with no warning, slipping between the only layer dividing you. The cotton of the T-shirt is trapping him and the heat of his touch as his hand settles on your hip.
"You here?" His question is low, like he's trying to compensate for the hint of worry leaching into his tone. "With me?" The second part of the question is an afterthought, said so quickly and earnestly it feels like an impulse.
You're melting, and you don't mind it all. In fact, you're starting to think you might prefer it. "For now, at least."
It's half joke, half something else. A punch that some cynical, over worrying part of your brain needs to throw. You hope he won't see past the shell of humor, but feel the uphill battle in his silence. In the eventual drag of his thumb across the curve of your hip. The gesture is a contradiction in itself--small and cautious yet so natural. What should feel foreign is so familiar it coats it all in a layer of intimacy that's difficult to just sit with.
An odd sense of almost panic that makes it impossible to think settles in you. Something in you feels like it's burning, a slow fire that's patiently spreading. You don't know if you want him closer or farther or something in between.
The mix of unknown emotions is enough to distract you from your derailing train of thought. Maybe that's the point. Some strategy on Joel's end to force a mental reset. If it is, it's working. You wouldn't say you're breathing any better or more calmly, you're just more aware of the way air enters your lungs and filters right back out. The world seems to be reduced to that. Just your breathing. And Joel.
The little of him you can make out in the dark and the feel of him everywhere without him feeling close enough. He's steady, secure in his firmness like he's some immovable force. Joel is also starting to feel like a natural heater, radiating just enough warmth to make everything comfortable.
What is wrong with you today? These thoughts might be more dangerous than the other ones. They're definitely close to being more overwhelming. All of this has to be in your head, the result of all the feelings you've been attempting quell all day culminating and a touch of something else. The thoughts about Joel that you've been fighting against since you first met him finally winning.
Every time you've forced yourself to stare at your hands after the edge of Joel's shirt rode up as he reached for something or moved a certain way. Every stray thought that rooted itself in your mind like an invasive species while you patched him up after a rough day. Every painfully overwhelming moment where you let yourself get distracted by his hands for reasons you could never justify. Those same hands are on you right now.
Okay--you need to get it together. Stop playing at something that's definitely all in your head. Your eyes drift up, searching for Joel's expression in an attempt to convince yourself to be normal. To remind yourself what's at risk if you don't get what you've been begging yourself not to let be actual romantic feelings in check.
He's already looking at you, eyes focused and jaw so tense you can tell from your position. Joel presses his lips together. The hand that's on you shifts upwards. Nothing drastic, but the heat of his pinky is now melting into the skin above your ribs.
You have to bite your tongue to keep from letting a shaky breath escape you. It's too much and nowhere near enough. It's another contradiction that throws you through a loop. You need him closer and the desire twists at you even further. There's a level of hesitant care in all levels of him. In his touch, in the way he's watching you. Like he just can't help it.
It's so overwhelming you have to do something. So you do the only thing you can think of. You reach out to him. Your hand finds his upper forearm.
The motion seems to shift things. Joel lets out a breath, but it's not the easygoing sound it was earlier. It's strained. "Y'should get some sleep."
You're not all that tired anymore, but his tone and your own confusion makes you want to listen. At least he hasn't done anything to imply that he's leaving.
A part of you wants to leave it at what it is. There's no reason to risk his presence by pushing. You don't know what that last moment was about, but Joel's earlier gruffness from today seems to be coming back. "You okay?" The question feels awkward hanging there on its own. "You've been moody."
The hand still under your shirt adjusts with him. "Moody?"
"Mhm." His fingers ghost up your spine, making it twice as hard to organize your thoughts. "More earlier than now, when..." God, you can barely remember with the way he's tracing patterns onto your skin. "When we were with that group?"
Joel's lips briefly pull into a frown. "I know that Jackson people are a little different than us, but trusting them all so soon--" He cuts himself off briefly. "Just don't think it's a good idea for you to accept it all so--"
He pauses as you shift against him as you move to sit up. Joel watches the separation with sharp caution. He doesn't ease until you settle again, your chin resting against his stomach. "Seriously?" It's a lighthearted enough disagreement. "I'm not overly trusting anything. I feel like a crazy person half the time because I feel like I should be staring down anyone that talks to Ellie or you for a second too long."
The confession eases Joel much more than it should. It's proof that he's been searching for...proof that he's needed. That you're still here. Still his and Ellie's above anything else.
But it's been an unsure couple of days. You're good with people, likable in a natural way. You know how to make people feel easy. It's not your fault that you're the natural communicator in the trio, and it's a good thing that at least one of you is inclined towards that sort of thing. It's just been harder than he thought, to watch people always talk to you, even if it's just a way of communicating something to all three of you. Especially when you smile or laugh as another way to ease them.
It's even worse when it happens to be other men. You don't see it, the way their eyes linger or their tendency to lean in just a little too close. Don't know the way your polite smiles and words draw them in. There isn't exactly a plethora of new women appearing daily, so your novelty is only an amplifier to all your good traits.
Tommy's been giving him shit about it. How long did you have to close the deal on that when you were her only option?
It was an almost brotherly form of teasing, but it still rubbed Joel the wrong way because of how true it is. He can't justify the bitter, protective vile that leaves his chest feeling too tight when he sees how well you fit. How easy it'd be for you to end up with one of the guys from here, closer to your age and a lifetime less of baggage.
Joel hates the breathlessness of it, hates that he has time to think about these kinds of things now. The resentment is too much, bubbles up and comes out in the form of something mean, "Doesn't always look that way."
It's not an overly done insult, and somehow that's worth. Joel's faint accusation is personal and it lands the way he knew it would. You sit up so quickly, Joel can't even try to stop you. "What the fuck does that mean?"
The bed is small, clearly meant for one. Sitting up didn't exactly accomplish what Joel has to assume was your goal--to create distance. You're still tangled together, only it's different now. You're practically sitting on his lap. His mind, which should be focusing on the fact that he's upset you, that he's pushing you in the exact direction he doesn't want you to go in, can only think of your sleep shorts.
Maria promised to get you some pajama pants as soon as some came in, but that hasn't happened yet. Winter makes clothing a little scarce, so you've been managing in a pair of elastic shorts. Thin, elastic shorts.
"Just that it looks like you've been getting comfortable. Trusting others, spending time with Ben."
Your lips pull into a firm pout. "I'm not going out of my way to trust shit. Yeah, I talk to a lot of people, but that's just because I rather that than have them talk to you or Ellie first. It--it feels safer that way."
There's such a genuineness in that, Joel almost feels bad, almost feels the need to back step. But your indignation at the implication that you're trying to leave is too alleviating. Until you try to crawl towards the edge of the bed. Away from him.
Joel props himself up on his elbow and reaches for you. His hand finding your forearm feels like giving something up. A silent, too raw plea for you not to go. He knows it isn't quite that in so many words, but you understand. You always do in your talent for feeling the way he bends for you when he can.
For a moment, that's it. Just his hand on your arm, still perched on the edge of the bed, still flighty. One move and you might be gone. It'd be so easy.
Joel's never really considered himself a pissing on his territory type of person or one to be found of dependents, but he'd be lying if he didn't say Jackson didn't worry him. He's not an idiot, he knows he's been rough to travel with and that he's taken time to get to here, but you've always stayed close. Some of that must have been influenced by survival.
Not that Joel wants you to stick around because you have no other choice. He'd never use that against you, it's just something that he wonders about from time to time. A fear that this might be how he finds out that's the only reason the two of you have been together for so long.
He's been thinking about loss more lately. After the decision he made, after what almost happened to Ellie. Losing Sarah left him stagnant for 20 years and some days that grief still flares up and makes breathing feel impossible. It's a wound that will never fully heal, and maybe that's for the best. Hurt means not forgetting, but Joel knows he doesn't have anymore of that left in him.
What if he did just fuck everything up? Not just for him, but for Ellie as well. He sees the way she looks at you, like you're everything. He's peered into your mornings together, the world that is your little routine and your inside jokes. If he messed all of that up because he only knows how to be an asshole when any type of feeling comes up...
Joel knows action better than he knows words. Caring is easier an action, and so is apology. His hand releases your forearm, trailing down your arm and settling on your exposed thigh. When you don't push him away or try to move, Joel feels like he can fully inhale again.
"You know my priorities, right?" Your voice sounds more hesitant than before. Nervous. "It's you and Ellie. It's been you and Ellie and nothing's going to change that. It doesn't matter if we're here for two more days or two more decades."
A pinch of guilt rises in his chest. Normally that level of promise would make him feel the need to cut all ties. Safer that way. But Joel doesn't want to hold you at arm's length, not right now. Carefully, his hand moves forward, closer to your inner thigh than knee.
He should say something. Admit to his own insecurity or apologize. "I know," is all that comes out, even though it doesn't really matter, you have every right to walk away. Your eyes still soften, though, like he managed to come close to saying what you needed to hear. "I shouldn't have said that."
His hand moves up even further and this time you have to react, your breath catching itself on your throat. The noise fucking gets to him. Gets to him in a way nothing has in a minute.
"You're kind of an asshole, sometimes," it's breathed out in a way that feels like you're accepting his apology, "And it's only going to get worse as you settle into your old age."
There it is. The joke was forced through the uneven timbre of your breathing, but it's there. All you, all forgiveness in the way the corner of your mouth turns upwards.
Joel's thumb drags across the soft skin of your inner thigh, "So now I'm already there?"
You blink, unsure on how to react to anything with his hand tenderly working the skin of your inner thigh. Everything in you is only capable of focusing on the feeling, of chasing it. "Getting there." Joel's thumb and pointer finger briefly pinch at your skin in a way that has to be intentional, right? His touch is approaching the end of your shorts.
The closer he gets, the worse the distance feels. Your face feels like it's burning at the thought. This is Joel, not some random guy that things could be casual with. Or maybe he could be casual, but you--god, you're getting ahead of yourself. This isn't--it--
"Too old?" Joel stretches forward, sitting up a little more. "You lookin' for younger like Ben?"
There's something odd in his tone. A flat attempt at humor that misses because it's too straightforward. Ben. Again. This is the second time his name's come up tonight. Why? And that's not even the strangest part. His assumption is what sticks out the most.
"I'm not..." Fuck, his hands are killing you. "I'm not looking. Not actively and if I..." Okay, it's officially too much, he's turning you into a transparent puddle. His hand pauses and pulls back down, settling on your knee. Firmly. Unbudging in a silent demand to continue.
He traces circles onto your knee with his thumb. "You can say it," he encourages in a way that feels like he's patronizing you.
The words feel like too much. Some lines might have been crossed today, but nothing life changing. You two could still dismiss the whole thing, crawl beneath thin sheets, fall asleep, and wake up the next morning like nothing ever happened. But his hands on your thigh and the needy ache you're not sure you fully understand it left you with. And what it felt like to have him closer.
Joel's sitting up fully now, waiting. "If I was looking, it wouldn't be at Ben, it'd be..." His hand calmly trails back to its previous spot on your leg with each of your words. Fuck, you're struggling to think again. "At you."
At that, his fingers push upwards, touching directly between your legs. "Really?" He's quick to create a steady rhythm, pulsing his pointer and middle finger at a speed that makes it impossible to breath. Your eyes screw shut so tightly you see stars. "You're so wet, can feel it through those shorts of yours."
The way Joel's voice catches on itself makes a weak sound slip out. You'd be embarrassed by it if he gave you the chance to be, but before you can even think twice about it, Joel's free hand finds the back of his head. His fingers tangle into your hair and he pulls you forward so harshly you try to gasp. The sound doesn't make it out, Joel's mouth is on yours before it has a chance.
He holds you against him as he takes his time pulling on your bottom lip with his teeth and letting his tongue glide over the bites. Your mouth opens for him instinctually, asking for more.
Joel's taking his time and moving at a speed that has him everywhere all at once as his fingers continue to work you through the fabric that divides you. He releases you with no warning, the hand at the back of your head finding a new place right beneath your chin. His fingers pause, forcing out an instinctual whine.
He's panting near your ear in a way that makes you miss his touch even more. "So this is all for me, sweetheart?" His eyes flit from your face back down to your lips.
Even though the question is dripping with roughness, there still manages to be a hint of something else there. Something genuine. It doesn't matter, though, because all you have the willpower to do is nod. Joel turns his head, pressing a kiss to your temple that's so close to tender it leaves you spinning. He trails the barely there kisses down to your ear before whispering, "Then prove it."
The word's send a jolt through you. "Prove it?"
Joel tugs you closer, you listen clambering back to where you were before trying to leave. Joel rests his back against the wall and makes a point of extending one leg. You don't fully get it until he's helping you ease onto his thigh. The material of his sweats is nowhere near enough.
"Joel--"
"Sh," he hums, soothingly as he runs a hand up and down your back, "It's okay, sweetheart." The hand that's still on your hip squeezes firmly. "I've got you, y'know that." He helps pull you forward on his thigh and the pressure after so long without nothing hits you harder than you thought it would. "There you go," you push down harder, faster, "Just like that."
The longer you go, the more Joel encourages you, whispering sweet nothings and words of encouragement as the knot in your stomach continues to grow until your body feels it. You're seizing up, body ready to throw itself off of a ledge. Your thigh squeezes around his leg, which must be how Joel knows you're close, because before you can find release, his hand is leaving your back and moving onto your arm. In one, fluid motion that should be impossible, he flips you two.
Your back is on the mattress and Joel's above you, pinning you in place with his body. You can feel him, all of him, hard and struggling between the layers that divide you.
Your lips part, but you don't know what to say. You're still reeling from your stolen orgasm, and you're not sure if you want to curse him out for it or simply ask why and how. Bad back your ass the way he just turned the two of you over with no real effort.
Before a single sound can come out of you, Joel folds the edge of the T-shirt you sleep in, exposing your stomach. A fluttery kiss to newly exposed skin. Again and again until he has to push up even more of your shirt to continue. "This," his voice comes out lower, harder as he tugs at the fabric, "Off."
You sit up just enough to help him tug the shirt off as quickly as possible. The desperation makes it harder than it ever should be to take off a shirt, but the offensive piece of fabric eventually finds its way to the floor.
The bareness you feel is startling, even in this level of darkness. Joel doesn't give you a chance to let your mind wander or insecurity take root. His mouth is exploring the newly exposed skin immediately. It's a rabid mix of love bites and placating the irritated marks with soft passes of his tongue and genuine, devoted kisses.
It's then that you realize there's a reason he's taking his time. He's definitely hard, you can feel him pressing against your thigh, but that doesn't matter to him. He's taking his time because he can. Because he's enjoying it, getting off on having you writhing and desperate under him.
"Joel," your voice is so small it feels like it belongs to someone else.
He pauses, lifting his head just enough that the scruff of his facial hair scratches comfortingly against your skin. A reminder that he's still him. "Yeah, sweetheart?"
You carefully lift a hand, making sure your movements are easy to follow in the dark. Joel lets your fingers settle in his hair. "Need more-need you."
"I know, sweetheart." His voice is low and soft, impossible to not trust. "You can wait a little longer." His teeth drag against your skin again. "Can't you, baby?"
Fuck, he could ask you anything like that and you'd have to say yes. "Mm."
He takes it as the answer it's supposed to be. Joel goes back to it until his fingers finally snag around the elastic band of your shorts. In one swift motion, he tugs it and your underwear away, leaving you fully exposed. He gives no warning before moving his mouth to your thighs, slowly moving up until the only thing left is your center.
With no warning, Joel licks through your folds. You practically cry out. "I know, sweetheart," he mumbles, barely looking up, "You can take it."
After that, he picks up the pace. Just as you think you're going to get used to the overwhelming pleasure, Joel moves his hand down your waist to use his thumb against your clit. Fuck. You're panting, whining, begging.
Joel groans. "You're close, I can feel you." His fingers replace his mouth, "You gonna come?" Another whine, like your body has forgotten how to make any other sound. "Yeah?" He's picking up the pace, pushing his fingers into you in a way that hits you somewhere deep. "Come on my fingers, sweetheart, I've got you."
His pace reaches its peak and his thumb works at your clit until you're finally pushed over the edge. Joel reaches you before you can scream, muffling the sound of your orgasm by pressing his lips to yours.
You can taste yourself on his tongue as he works you through your high. Joel knows when to stop, when the pleasure comes close to bordering on painful, he moves his hand back up your waist and focuses on just kissing you.
After a few minutes, you regain control of your thoughts. The urge to pull him closer takes over once again. Without thinking, you're tugging at the hem of his shirt. You almost think twice about it, but decide that it's only fair. He's touched so much of you and seen even more. All while fully clothed.
You're not as good or tactful about it as he is, likely due to the gap in your experience, but Joel picks up on what you want. He pulls away cautiously, eyebrows furrowing together like he's debating before finally giving in.
He discards his shirt just as carelessly as he got rid of his own. Joel tries to reconnect the two of you together again before you can take full note of him. It's a tactic you find the strength to beat, turning your head just enough to indicate that you're pausing.
Joel allows that, stills against with no protest. The silent promise that it's your pace is comforting. You let your eyes rake over his chest in what you hope is subtle, but really doubt actually comes off that way. You can feel him tense under your gaze. You stretch out a hand carefully, touching him because you can. Your attention focuses on the details that you can make out despite the limited light. A few marks of varying sizes are visible across his skin.
Scars. You wonder how many of them there are and the stories behind each. What it'd feel like to touch and learn each of them until they're as familiar as the lines of your palms. Your hand drifts down, faintly touching a particularly long mark.
Joel's hand moves, catching your wrist before you can make it any further. You frown up at him. "I want--"
"I--" He cuts himself off, unsure on how to explain it. You deserve to know what a war it will be to get him to open up, but he doesn't want that to change things. "Not yet, okay?" He squeezes your hand in his. "I'm not an easy person to care about, to get close to, but I--I can try to--"
"I disagree." He frowns at being cut off, but lets you continue. "And you don't have to worry about forcing anything right now, whatever you have to give, that's what I want."
That's all it takes. Joel crashes his mouth to yours, holding you there for much longer than before. He shifts away just enough to be able to pull down his pants. He strokes himself briefly before lining himself up with your entrance.
Joel enters you with no warning, easing himself in until your hips are pressed together. You're a mess despite his soothing words. He pulls back and pushes back, again and again until all you're seeing is white, blinding pleasure. "Fuck!"
"You're squeezin' me so good, sweetheart," his groans are hot and heavy against the shell of your ear. "Oh, sweetheart," he's losing his tact, his movements becoming more and more desperate. "You gonna come with me?"
You nod, eyes screwing shut as Joel picks up the pace until you're a mess again. He clamps a hand over your mouth as your second orgasm hits you fast and hard. It takes all of Joel's strength to pull out before finishing.
He lets himself relax against you after, a mess of sweaty limbs as you both recover. After a minute, Joel sits up. "You leaving?"
Joel brushes back your hair out of your face gently. "No, sweetheart, just need to get something to clean you up, okay?" You're about to protest again, but Joel beats you to it, "You don't want to sleep like this." When your only reaction is to pout up to him and cling to his arm, Joel leans down and finds a shirt to offer you. "Ellie's an early riser that never learned how to knock. You want to deal with this in the morning while pretending you're not?"
That's a point that sticks. You could probably explain Joel being in here early in the morning or he could climb out of your bed at first sunlight to keep this from being weird for Ellie...but your current state? Yeah, that's undeniable. "Come back?"
Joel squeezes your hand, taking a moment to watch your small expression fondly. "Promise."
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Just wanted to say that I adore how Billy and Stu treat their Final Girl like she's the only good thing in their lives~ It's sad and sweet and I love how you write them!
this is so sweet đ so happy you're enjoying them!!
That last fic you did? DELICIOUS.
thank you love :)
have u watched 'daisy jones and the six' yet? i feel like you could write some amazing lil fics. (especially for eddie đ¤)
don't hate me but i haven't watched it yet!! i just talked to my sister tho and we're probably going to binge it this weekend but i can update you!
Sick Day
Set in the Final Girl universe, but it is a stand alone fic that can easily be read with no context :)
Summary: Billy and Stu donât get why theyâre so antsy about the latest addition to their friend group being absent from school. Sure, they talk about her more than they talk about anyone else, but not seeing her for one day isnât enough to justify panic, right? Guess that doesnât matter, because they find a way to justify checking in anyways.
a/n if you havenât read final girl and this makes you curious,, the main fic and extras can be found here:Â Final Girl SeriesÂ
fun fact, this is chronologically set at some point after âfirst impressionsâ but before the main series, if you havenât read either thatâs fine, itâll still make sense, i just like building âloreâ lolÂ
also if there are any typos iâm sorry, iâm stuck wearing a wrist brace for a little while, especially while writing
also this was really fun to write so i might do some more mini fics in the final girl universe in between full chapters, itâs more low stakes and is a good way for me to work on adding to their dynamics,, so if you have any ideas/requests for final girl universe specific stuff pls feel free to ask!Â
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It didnât take Billy long to realize that part of your appeal comes from the fact that youâre not as predictable as everyone else. Maybe itâs because youâre still new, but thatâs easy in Woodsboro, where lifelong friendships are practically assigned by the locker youâre given on your first d of middle school.
Youâre also a contradiction. Almost everything youâre feeling is visible on your face, but what youâre thinking isnât as easy to guess. It balances you out, keeping you from being unknown enough to be threatening but still letting you pop enough to keep you from blurring into the background.Â
Thatâs part of the reason he picked up on your routine so quickly. What he knows about you isnât as concrete as what he has on the people that are a part of his plan, but he knows enough. More than he intended to. He memorized your classes without meaning to and knows the time you get to school and the approximate time you leave. Itâs useful, he tells himself, youâre around Sidney and Tatum all the time and him and Stu are still working on fitting you into the plan.
Sure, theyâve decided that you fit as their potential final girl, but itâs rocky. You bring out something panicky in him and some days itâs too much to be around you and know you have the ability to affect him. Itâs not the same, not at all, but Billy canât help the way it reminds him of what his momâs distance used to make him feel. At risk. And Billy knows Stu, knows that he probably thinks about you twice as much as he brings you up and that thereâs such a thing as Stu liking someone too much.Â
When thereâs uncertainty, itâs easy to fall back on routine, and you stick to a relatively simple one. You get to school riding close to late more often than not, during your study hall you tend to study outside unless Randy doesnât use it as an excuse to leave early, then you bother him in the library (something Billy doesnât get), and you take a little longer at your locker at the end of the day. Billy also knows youâre not one to skip.Â
Youâre never not at school (which may or may not have lead to an increase in the regularity of Stu and Billyâs attendance). Youâre too hyper focused on your grades to not show up without a reason. So when Billy passes by your locker right before the home room bell rings and youâre not there itâs weird.
Billy knows you really must not be here when his eyes land on Stu, whoâs staring at your locker. Stu walks you to most of your classes and always walks you to homeroom.Â
âSheâs not here,â Billy summarizes flatly.Â
Stu turns his head, a little unsure. âOr she went to class without me.âÂ
The jab would be subtle to anyone else, but Billy knows what Stuâs getting at. âSheâd still be at her locker, sheâs always running late in the morning.â Billy focuses on hearing his words, tries to feel them. âWe can check her homeroom.âÂ
A casual enough suggestion. Still not overly concerned. Stu has to walk past your classroom to get to his anyways and Billy takes that route sometimes. With that justification, the two walk down the hall and peak through the doorâs long window as un-notably as possible. Youâre not in your usual spot, at the desk right behind Casey Becker, who you talk to from time to time (a potential future problem theyâre both aware of).
By lunch, itâs confirmed that you never showed up. Youâre not in the first period you have with Stu or the third period you have with Sidney and Billy. Tatum brings it up first. Whereâs Y/n? Sidney shrugged and mumbled about how you werenât in second period today. It only took a minute for the girls and Randy to brush over your absence with a simple she must be sick.Â
That got under Billyâs skin a little and he couldnât figure out why. Youâre almost weirdly into the whole school thing--everyone here could likely list your top 3 colleges--and stubborn. Even if youâre only absent because youâre sick, you must be pretty knocked out to not be here. But why should he care about you being really sick or your friends being relatively dismissive?Â
âIsnât she a little...Annie Wilkes about school?â Stuâs question comes out casually enough.
Randy looks up, âSheâs not that bad.â
Stu blinks, forcing himself to stay in the moment. Randy was quick to defend you even though Stuâs seen him call you worse to your face. Maybe that back and forth is a sad attempt at flirting. âEasy, no oneâs saying anything bad about your girlfriend.âÂ
âSheâs not my girlfriend.âÂ
âKnock it off, Stu, theyâre basically related,â Billy forces the words out as casually as he can manage.
Sidney picks up on the joke, mumbling some comment about how they do sort of act like siblings, which gets Tatum off on some tangent about her brother. The conversation doesnât circle back to the person thatâs missing.
In the english class you share with Billy and Stu, the teacher hands back an old essay and gives out a homework packet. The two of them exchange a look. Thatâs a good enough excuse to stop by your house...if they...wanted to, which they donât because itâs not like your absence is that relevant.
Billy talks to the teacher after class anyways, saying that he could make sure you get the graded essay and homework. Youâre friendly enough that heâs sure heâll be able to get it to you before you come to class and itâs never a bad idea to have options. Stu doesnât say anything when Billy gets the papers and neatly places them in a folder.Â
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Thereâs all this energy and thereâs no real outlet for it. Stu doesnât know what it is, he canât tell what he wants to do with it or whatâd make it feel better. Heâs felt versions of it all day, having it drop and morph into an off-brand version of that dark, craving feeling he gets at the thought of feeling a knife plunge into someone and rise back up to an antsy-ness thatâd better fit a kid in line for a ride at a theme park.
The energy reaches its peak on the front steps of your porch, but the feeling doesnât settle on a particular charge. It remains focused on the more positive side of the spectrum, but itâs undercut by some of the urgency of the other urge.Â
He had been the first one to bring it up after school, when Billy and him were finally alone. It had started relatively detached, things are still weird when they mention you outside of certain contexts. Theyâre so used to being open about other things that the fact that theyâre both almost shy about something--someone--is twisting. Itâs a feeling theyâre still learning to take in larger doses.Â
They had spent a little too long trying to find an angle to justify a pop in to themselves. Itâs one thing to think about you, to talk about you, to like you even. But itâs something else entirely to openly care. To worry about why youâre missing school or if youâre sick.Â
Eventually, want won and Billy finally said something that stuck. She canât be a final girl if sheâs dying, and we need her to trust us, to like us.Â
This is stupid. A flaring feeling in Billyâs chest has been yelling at him to stop since the idea first formed his mind. Itâs a distorted echo of his fatherâs voice.Â
Billy swallows once, forcing himself to finally knock. The only thing more pathetic than what heâs doing is lingering, coming here and then turning back.Â
The seconds pass and with each of them, they both feel worse about their decision. And then they hear the lock click and the front door opens and they see you.Â
You look more tired than usual and the blanket thatâs practically swallowing you whole makes you seem smaller, more vulnerable even though youâre more covered than usual. You squint at the sunlight in a way that makes them think youâve spent the day in intentionally dimly lit spaces. It takes you a second, but once you finally register them, itâs visible. Youâre grinning, practically beaming.Â
Billy feels the reaction in his chest. It strains uneasily beneath his ribs, not much unlike what he imagines a heart palpitation could feel like. He briefly thinks he might be able to hold the discomfort against you, but even that thought mostly fades.Â
Stuâs flooded with the strange desire to wrap you up in bundles of blankets the way that his mom used to when he was younger. The few times it happened, it was weirdly comforting. He canât remember the last time she took the time to make sure he was warm until his fever broke, but he knows his dad put a stop to it at an early age. Too needy, too dependent.
âHi?â Itâs partially a question, and your voice hints at raspiness.Â
Snapping back into reality, Billy answers, âYou werenât at school.â Your eyebrows draw together and Billy realizes that that wasnât the easy reaction he thought itâd be. Itâs too open and implies concern.Â
âYeah, I kinda have a cold-fever-something. Itâs a bug my mom brought home from work. I thought she was being dramatic, but it totally knocked me out.â You lean against your front door. If you sense either of their conflicts, you give no indication of it. âKarma, I guess.âÂ
Stu lets out a laugh at that. âKarma? You were that mean?âÂ
Your lips pull into an almost-smile. âThe universe seemed to think so.âÂ
âYou think the universe gave you a punishment cold, but your momâs the dramatic one?â Stuâs biting down a grin, all concerns about showing up melting.Â
You glare halfheartedly, âYou canât be not-on-my-side when Iâm sick. Thatâs like...against friend...rules.â Your eyebrows draw together. âThat was--that was really lame, forget I said that.âÂ
The reaction is so warm and youâre doing your best even though youâre clearly still not feeling well and Billy feels an awful swell of whatâs likely fondness. âNot sure I want to.âÂ
Rolling your eyes, you relax even more of your weight against the doorframe. The shift is small, but Billy canât help but note it. Are you just being casual or are you that tired? âYouâre both here to cause problems.âÂ
âWeâre here to be nice.â The look on your face says you might be a little out of it but you havenât lost IQ points. âWe got our essays back and some homework. Billy picked up yours and I drove him to school, and because one day felt way too long to go without seeing you...â
Your laugh is punctuated by a brief cough you burry into your elbow. Itâs not like youâre coughing up a lung, but it is a little concerning. âYou guys grabbed my stuff?âÂ
The genuine surprise in your voice sticks out. âYeah,â Billy slides his backpack off of his shoulders and starts unzipping it, âOne of those friend rules.âÂ
Billy finds his folder as you roll your eyes. âFunny.âÂ
âItâs what Iâm known for,â he keeps his voice flat, and the sarcasm feels a little off, but you smile and that makes it a little easier.
He hands you the papers, his fingertips brushing against yours. âI see why.âÂ
âI never get that many gold stars.â Stu leans forward, re-reading some of the notes scribbled on next to your grade. âMaybe you should invite me over, tutor me...â
Your nose wrinkles. âShut up.â By now theyâve learned that thatâs the closest youâll come to retreating.
Stu exaggerates a frown, âWhat? Bringing you your stuff doesnât get us invited in?âÂ
The redirect is a bit of a stretch, but youâre used to the jumps and youâre tired enough to not read much into it. Not as much as Billy does, whoâs a little surprised because he and Stu never talked about what theyâd do after. He decides that itâs harmless enough.Â
Turning your head a little, it almost feels like a part of you forgot there was anything to be invited into. âI donât want to get you guys sick.âÂ
Itâs such a you response. Always considerate, polite. Billy looks past you and into the house. Thereâs no noise indicating that anyoneâs in there, but that doesnât necessarily mean youâre alone. Though the one time he came over to work on a project, he briefly met your mother and was given the impression that she likes making her presence alone. Thereâs also your motherâs boyfriend, who wasnât around when Billy came over but based on your comments, heâs not sure being alone with him isnât worse than being alone.Â
âAre you okay?â The question comes out of Billy a little unexpectedly. âYou donât look too...âÂ
You glare. âThanks.â
âNot like--â Billy cuts himself off with a sigh. Your eyebrows pinch together briefly. âYou look too sick to be alone. At least say your momâs here.âÂ
Billy takes in the details of your reaction even though he already has a good idea on what you lying looks like. Harmless, white lies often used to seem more okay with things than you actually are. He sees something similar in the way your chin tilts upwards slightly. âIâm fine.âÂ
Thatâs all the confirmation Billy needs. Youâre definitely alone. The lack of lie and attempt at dismissal is oddly endearing, especially while youâre like this, leaning against the front door and squeezing your blanket a little tighter. Wait--are you colder? Itâs warm out today and thereâs not even a breeze.Â
A half thought embeds itself beneath Billyâs skin. He gives in, extending an arm slowly. Youâre just as confused until Billyâs turning his hand so that the back of his palm is facing you. âIâm--Billy, itâs--âÂ
The cutoff of your words is sudden, your lips still partially parted, some other jumble of words dying in the back of your throat as Billyâs hand meets your forehead. You donât move away. Itâs been a few seconds, definitely long enough for Billy to have deduced whether or not you have a fever. How did his mom use to do this?Â
He takes his time dropping his arm back to his side. Billy doesnât have too many references to what a fever feels like on someone else, but you did feel warm. âYou have a fever.âÂ
You press your lips together briefly in a forced pout. âYouâre worse than my mom.â The blanket is slipping off of your shoulders, you tug it back up. âIâll take some Tylenol, find a jar of vapor rub.â Angling your head to glance behind you again, youâre returning to that awkward uncertainty.Â
The small dismissal digs at them both. Itâs bad enough that they let themselves get to this point over one absence and here you are, alone and unwell and completely okay with sending them away. âYou sure youâre good here?âÂ
This time youâre considering it. The proof of the deliberation is there in your silence. More often than not it takes you two or three offers to accept anything you think is an inconvenience. Youâre nice to a point of fault. âIâm okay, because no one dies of fever, but if hanging out for a little and seeing absolutely nothing happen to me makes you guys feel better, thatâd be cool. But you need to be careful.â
Stu grins, âI thought no one dies of a fever.âÂ
You take a step back, offering some space for them to pass, âI hope you get this, I think you could use a karma cold.âÂ
âNow I see why you have one,â Stu mumbles, pretending to be more annoyed than he feels as he steps into your house as you turn your head to stick your tongue out at him.Â
Billy follows, lingering in your doorway before shutting your front door. Youâre approaching the kitchen, turning your head to look Billy in the eye, âWhat do you think? Stu deserve one?âÂ
He briefly pretends to debate, âWorse.âÂ
You laugh at the irritated sound Stu lets out at the back of his throat. âDo you guys want anything?â They swear theyâre fine as you pour yourself a glass of water and use it to down two tylonel tablets. âIf my mom gets back from work and thinks I havenât offered you guys anything to eat or drink, Iâm not hearing the end of it.âÂ
âWeâll defend you.â Stu rests his weight against the kitchen counter, noting the bottle of cough syrup still out. âYou need this?âÂ
You shake your head immediately. âI took some earlier and still feel foggy. I slept most of today.âÂ
Stu runs his thumb over the white cap, watching it spin without coming off. He considers pushing. Billy changes the subject before Stu has fully made up his mind, âYou would be the type to have the most boring sick day.âÂ
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â Youâre offended, and itâs oddly soft. âI didnât just sleep.âÂ
Billyâs amused enough to press, âWhat else did you do?âÂ
âI think I know...â Thereâs a smugness in Stuâs voice that instantly floods you with embarrassment. Oh no. Heâs found them. You snap your head up in time to see Stu holding up some of the tapes you left stacked on the counter. âBeverly Hills 90210, the first four seasons.âÂ
Billy looks right past you and focuses on Stu. âOnly four?âÂ
âUh--â Youâre caught. âFiveâs on right now...and I donât have a copy of six.â Theyâre both too quiet, fighting the urge to burst into laughter. âDonât judge. Trashy teen soaps are popular for a reason.âÂ
âWhat about artistic integrity?âÂ
You dismiss Billyâs question with a scoff thatâs a hint too raspy. âCheap writing in Hollywood isnât my fault.âÂ
Instead of returning with another joke (maybe some comment about what Randy would say if he ever found out), Billy pushes himself off of the wall he was leaning against and approaches your refrigerator.Â
Billy knows heâs at least heard of the usual home remedies, but he canât quite place them. Wonât place them because the only person that ever worried about these kinds of things isnât someone Billyâs willing to think about right now.Â
Starve a fever or maybe thatâs colds. Thereâs also...electrolytes? And hydration. Thatâs probably the best idea. Why does it matter? That thought bothers him, digs under his skin and settles at a wrong angle. Heâs seen you. Youâre alive, unscathed, and relatively fine. Itâs not like any of the bad thoughts were proven right--you werenât skipping for some other person or leaving.
But youâre uncomfortable. And alone. And vulnerable. Billy hates it. Hates that his awareness of your feelings is lodging itself in his mind and that he canât really help and that it matters. Heâs not sure he remembers the last time anyone besides Stuâs feelings actually mattered. Maybe Sidneyâs did once, awhile ago, but that--that didnât feel nearly as urgent as this.
âYou okay?â Your voice snaps him back to the moment, to the glass of water he was getting. âYouâre kind of staring at that glass like it knows something it shouldnât.âÂ
You drop your voice a little, chin tilting down as you try to be funny. The humor is real enough that Billy doesnât feel overly pushed, but he does note the thinly veiled genuineness in your words. Thatâs another thing about you. You say things and you mean them. Even if itâs completely casual, even if itâs a sentiment youâll forget about immediately until it comes up again. You mean it.Â
Billy sets the freshly filled glass on the counter, âDrink more water, your voice sounds like it could be used by a horror movie villain.âÂ
You frown like Billyâs offended you beyond repair. Just as he thinks you might protest, you pick up the glass and down a fair amount in a few gulps. âHappy?âÂ
âOh, heâs thrilled,â Stu hums, âThatâs what he looks like when heâs happy.âÂ
âI think I believe you.â Billy waits until your attention is fully on Stu before letting himself give in and smile a little.Â
Stu takes a step towards you, âIâd never lie to you, baby.â He ignores the slight face you make at the nickname. Being sick must make you more irritable because youâve let much more creative nicknames slide. Stu cups your face between his hands before you can protest. You donât move or try to shake him off. He takes a second to exaggeratedly feel your skin. âYouâre as hot as you look and thatâs saying something.âÂ
âIâm wearing Christmas pajama pants that I got in 8th grade and I spent half the morning on the bathroom floor. No one could find this look attractive.â Stu half shrugs, protests already building, but you snap back to reality before he can get them out. âAnd if Iâm that hot,â you step back, using your hands to pry him off of you, âYou shouldnât be touching me.â
He takes a step towards you. âMy immune systemâs strong.â Stu briefly flexes an arm, âYou think all this could be supported by a weak one?âÂ
You half smile, giving Stu the opportunity he needs to place his hands on the soft blanket still on your shoulderâs. Again, heâs pleasantly surprised when you donât brush him off. âYouâre gonna get sick.â
Stu rubs a hand up and down your left shoulder, hoping the gesture comes off as light and comforting. âIâll be fine.âÂ
Nothing about Stu has given you the indication that heâd be a tolerable sick person. Also, a small part of you is worried a cold like this could really take him out. He rarely dresses warm enough and youâve seen the amount of energy drinks heâs willing to consume on one day. Youâre also not sure youâve ever seen him eat anything with significant nutritional value. âEvery day I find out youâve managed to keep yourself alive, Iâm pleasantly surprised.âÂ
He squeezes your shoulder. âYouâre cranky when youâre sick.âÂ
âAt least she said pleasantly.âÂ
Stu looks past you to throw a dirty look in Billyâs direction. âAw, heâs jealous of what we have.âÂ
Okay--you might be drowsy but you know where the play fighting over you goes. It starts off lighthearted enough, but if youâre not careful it can end kind of sour. One second everyoneâs joking and the next Stuâs actually pushing you to pick a side on something that should be harmless but feels heavy. Sometimes Billy gets a little more involved than you think he wants to seem and it never feels fully about you. Itâs like half of what they say means something else to them.Â
âOkay, no fighting over me,â you shrug Stu off as best you can without losing your blanket, âI belong to this blanket and the couch.âÂ
You grab your cup of water off the counter and start walking to the living room without checking if theyâre following. You hear their footsteps, but pay little mind to that as you settle on the couch and set your glass on the coffee table.Â
Billy sits down next to you. âCouch and not your room?âÂ
Reluctantly sighing, you drop your head back, letting your neck rest at an awkward angle. "I live here now.âÂ
He canât tell how much of that is a joke. Are you feeling that sick? âRight.âÂ
Your attention briefly flickers to the TV, the cliche teen drama thatâs still playing being enough to suck you back in even though youâve missed some context. To him it just looks like overly pretty-ed people overreacting. The scene ends and you return to the present enough to shrug off your blanket and settle the fabric more comfortably on your lap. âYou guys can change the tape if you want.âÂ
A small mercy. Billy stands and begins looking at the tapes stacked on a shelf near the TV. Itâs a fair collection, but the movies he saw in your room the time he came over to work on a project were better. He picks the first title that feels decent enough for background that doesnât seem like too much just in case youâre prone to nausea.Â
Youâre patiently waiting for the tapes to switch out. Stuâs being quiet, which would have clued you in on a better rested, less sick day. You donât realize heâs planning anything until you feel the side of your blanket being tugged on. âStu.â
He scoots closer, âItâs cold.âÂ
Stu stretches his legs, weaseling himself under your blanket. You weakly try to push him out âThereâs another blanket over there.â He ignores you, adjusting so that your legs overlap. âYouâre going to get sick.âÂ
âYour pants are soft,â itâs said so softly, like a kid getting clothes fresh from the laundry. Youâre not sure you have it in you to ruin his good mood. He stretches a foot past your knee and a few inches up your thigh before relaxing back into place. âFuzzy.â
Despite what youâre wearing, you can feel the comfortable warmth radiating off of him, turning the space beneath the blanket into a space heater. âYouâre like a radiator.âÂ
âIâll keep you warm an--âÂ
âDonât ruin it.â
He frowns, mumbling something about you being âno funâ before sinking further into the couch. You pull more of the blanket onto you and Stuâs hit with the realization that you might not be warm enough. âYou want another blanket?âÂ
Youâre clearly surprised by the question. âUh--no, I think Iâm--âÂ
Stu pushes himself so that his legs are almost off your lap in order to reach the fabric draped over an armchair. He moves back into place and makes a point of draping the blanket over you. âWarmer?âÂ
âYeah,â the admission is hesitant.
That is so like you, needing a little push to accept what you need. âTold ya.âÂ
He must be right because you donât say anything else. Silence is usually your way of being reluctantly wrong. Stu takes his victory as an excuse to move a little closer.Â
Billy sits back down, settling a little closer to the side of the couch. Heâs not exactly jealous of how open Stu is. Distance is a good thing, a smart thing. But he does--
A weight on his shoulder. It takes less than a second for realization to wash over him. Youâre relaxed, head resting on his upper arm. The room feels a little snugger but itâs not an uncomfortable change.Â
The opening credits of the movie are rolling off screen and your eyes are focused on that. âNot to make this weird or lame,â you pause, sniffling slightly as you breathe, âBut you guys are kind of nice, sometimes.âÂ
That has to be a sign of you being tired. Billy fights down a smile. âSometimes?â
Stu turns his leg to tap your knee, âI think we deserve a little more than that.âÂ
You move your hand under the blanket to halfheartedly flick his leg. After that, your hand relaxes and rests there. âFine. Most of the time.âÂ
ahh!! thanks for adding me to this <3
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â° weakness - @cevansgoatee
Ⱐsave a horse, ride a cowboy - @mandoalorian
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