My 5 Year Plan Is To Get Back My Joy

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

I do not Condone drug use, when I post or seem to be promoting doing drugs, it is simply a joke. I must make light of this serious issue. If I can't laugh about my personal issues then it will only lead to more and more suffering. I do not want someone to think I am pushing it onto anyone. I practice this in real life. I really want everyone to live a sober life. Never. Ever. Touch. Hard. Drugs. I promise you will be so much happier.

I have friends who I won't see again until I reach Heaven. This is so personal, I just want to see them again. I'll forever think about the ones whos sober date is on their headstone. I pray for a sober life for myself, there's no excuses on why I can't do that for myself.

what do you mean you dont analyze every second of every song you listen to

Serious note... Take from me... Please don't think drugs are the solution, only more serious problems will arise from using..

I want to cry for the kids, the teenagers who just started using... Why ? Who gave that shit to you? I promise you. I promise with my whole heart and soul... Your life will be ruined... You're digging your own grave.... Your life will be drastically shortened...

I know it's hypocritical, I sound idiotic saying this because I'm on here joking about drugs and laughing about this issue. I already explained why.

I just never want anyone to be in the same situations Ive been in

If I could prevent that by telling people what the fuck happened and what's going to happen to me, I hope it sticks with atleast one person. I hope someone understands my message. I really hope and pray for sober lives. Never fall into this mess. I'm so fucked up. Everything is wrong in my life. I am working on a better life, I just can't do it alone like I originally thought.