Yeticantfeelyou - 🪽🪽🪽

It's goddamn difficult to be strong when the paths drugs have been leading you too only being suffering. I try. I try. I try. But with strength from within, courage, and understanding where you're going if you continue, things WILL change. you have to be the one to break free. I promise it will get better. Things will change but first step is the biggest. I am stuck in the cracked concrete (ahah see what I did there 😮‍💨😜) but with time and consideration and deep reflection on what's going on all around, i am turning things around. it's going to take some time, but within me I know I can do it. your life matters more then you think.

Fuck everything. Nothing matters.

It doesnt make a difference if you take drugs or not.

Either way you try to strong.

You want to stay strong.

But, its fucking hard to keep it that way.

I can't speak . You never let me down. You made things right. You're the all knowing. You know me, inside and out.

You're the only one who's going to be there for me when I have nothing, when I have no drugs, when I'm freezing, when I'm alone. I have great peace knowing you're there.

I trust in you. My life is in your hands.

When he says he trusts me I want to cry into his arms and tell him I would do anything to make him proud of me . I will always do as told, I will do anything to prove to him I have the upmost respect for him.

I can't even voice how grateful he took me out of that wasteland fentanyl fuckhead place.

I have had nothing but high regard for this very very very respectable and compassionate person. I can not imagine treating this kind deserving person badly.

If I did anything to make him feel bad I WILL FIX IT. I CAN NOT MESS THIS UP. AN OPPORTUNITY LIKE THIS DOES NOT COME OFTEN.

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I feel dumb and I feel my brain is fucked but I can observe myself and I am often told I am very well spoken.

So much fucked shit happened. I am smart ,I know that. But not smart enough to say No.