Self-transformation In My Expression Of Duality

self-transformation in my expression of duality

during my month of JUDGEMENT; with the moon’s influence over the earth star chakra, the lessons within my 3rd house are brought to surface

i’m reading a spanish book that my aunt lent me and i haven’t decided if i like it; “Manual de Supervivencia” by Marta Salvat

i’d already read “Tu Eres Yo” by the same author for the same reason; my aunt directly recommended it + while i’m realizing this is great practice for my spanish i also feel really conscientious of the fact that my aunt gave me these books despite the fact that it’s a proficient level of spanish vocabulary, all the while she is constantly correcting me when i speak spanish

it really gets me so pressed as it interrupts my train of thought, i really could appreciate the gesture in general except... it’s not helpful coming from family that hasn’t been apart of my life growing up... it’s very patronizing + not at all the way that i learn personally

with the lessons of my 3rd house PLUTO, i’ve learned how to live in my own path + repurpose the pain of being socially ostracized into my individual self, i’m not meant to wait around for ppl to explain things to me bc i’m actually a natural inquisitor, i’ve always managed to entertain my own interest/curiosity although society would rather expect that i assume the pity of growing up without proper “culture” or “traditions”

ppl have always treated me like i was different despite the fact any taboos i broke were on default of my life’s circumstances... i believe part of my self-transformation means acknowledging what makes me so different, its the way i know how to recognize the unconscious beliefs that ppl chastize their selves with + i use that to guide myself in investigating my own beliefs

!!! anyway i’m very happy bc i love these books for what they are, its helping me integrate spanish through spiritual concepts which i already understand, the author Marta Salvat goes deeply into the unconscoius projections which we navigate to understand eachother’s internal world

 ??? it was just so confusing that someone who doesn’t spend time with me to give me a beautiful gift like that LOL but it’s clearly bc my family unconsciously doesn’t see themselves as worthy with enough insight to help, which is perfectly find considering that i know my personal destiny now

quality time is super important for me to receive from my learning environment, but i didn’t have such relationships as a child no less estranged from my birthplace... i think its very dense for them to expect that i should be a fluent speaker, it really hurts my feelings as my elders blatantly deflect their responsibility over my education

though the books i’m reading are quite literally giving me confirmation that i need to focus on improving for me-- speaking spanish or whatever it is; i’m not the same little kid who gets overwhelmed by unwanted attention doing anything to avoid it, i actually recognize when i’m doing something unexpected that could change the coarse of my growth, i have to want that growth + teach myself

As a life path 5, the major lessons in Yooa’s life are ruled by Mercury’s placement in her chart. People ruled by Mercury tend to iterate the world through their conscious sensibility. The accuracy and tangibility of this sensibility depends on how strongly the native retains information. While Mercury represents the consciousness itself, it mainly symbolizes the quality of information one is able to retain and apply.

In Yooa’s case, her placement of the Mercury in Libra highlights harmony with others as the method of building personal experience. The Blue aura resonates within abilities of the Throat chakra, which rules Taurus and Gemini. In Yooa’s chart: the Moon and Black Moon Lilith are placed in Gemini, revealing the level at which she is able to absorb reality.

I’m picking up on an energy leak through the Third-Eye chakra. I see that her subconscious reality is limited by certain beliefs. She would have to work on expressing her emotions in a way that promotes honesty and relatability. I’m getting that she’s quick to retreat into her internal world. Her ability in detaching from her surroundings can misdirect her attention from the present.

This energy leak takes away from the quality of her attention, which is the main aspect of retaining conscious information. She’s meant to express her beliefs honestly in a way that hold true to the situation at hand. However, her ability to communicate clearly can also impose upon her imagination. If she could express her ideas in transparent ways then she would realize how that generates esteem for those around her to share from their own experience.

The stellium of Libra placements in Yooa’s chart is notable as a focal point with respect to the lesson’s she’ll have to work through in this life. There’s a deeper fear of mediocrity which can manifest as procrastination. By involving herself with many pools of interests she causes distraction from her own skills. So she is here to work on expressing her ideas in ways that allow for deeper connections between people.

As a life path 8, the major lessons in Felix’s life are ruled by Saturn’s placement in his chart. People ruled by Saturn tend to achieve an understanding of their greater potential. The value and meaning of this achievement depends on how naturally the native has defined their life purpose. While Saturn represents severity and authority, it mainly symbolizes the quality of autonomy that one is able to embody.

In Felix’s case, his placement of Saturn in Gemini highlights the multiplicity of personal accountability. The Red aura resonates within abilities of the Root chakra, which rules Scorpio. While Saturn shares rulership over this chakra along with the Moon, in Felix’s chart: the Moon is placed in Aries. This reveals the degrees in which life lessons are absorbed.

I’m picking up on an energy leak through the Throat chakra. I see that his conscious expression is affected by detached thoughts and underdeveloped concepts. He would have to work on defining his passions in differentiation with those around him. I’m getting that he’s underestimated because he blends in too closely with his peers. His individual growth gets stunted if he molds motivation around who is likely to agree with him.

This energy leak takes away from the quality of his individuality, which is a huge factor in attaining healthy autonomy. He’s meant to present his personal beliefs through his actions, as a way to clear his own path. However, his ability to consider other perspectives can distract from his unique imagination. With his jovial attitude, he may get swept up in trivial causes that lack direction. If he could differentiate his personal visions in life then he would realize stronger passion to build motivation and connect with causes that matter.

During the months of February as well as November, Saturn is a stronger influence for Felix. There are seasonal activations of his Aquarius and Sagittarius placements which surface insight around recovering from obstacles.

As a life path 7, the major lessons in Siyeon’s life are ruled by Neptune’s placement in her chart. People ruled by Neptune tend to align with opportunities by surrendering to their spiritual beliefs. The extent of their surrendering depends on how strongly the native believes in their dreams. While Neptune represents the higher self, it mainly symbolizes the quality of our own imagination.

In Siyeon’s case, her placement of Neptune in Capricorn highlights self-accountability as the method of integrating the higher self. The Magenta aura resonates within abilities of the Soul-star chakra, which rules the sign of Pisces. In Siyeon’s chart: Saturn is placed in Pisces, revealing the way she can learn from the obstacles in her life.

I’m picking up on an energy leak through the Heart chakra. I see that her deepest desires conflict with certain beliefs that were taught to her. She would have to work on realizing her personal needs and having the confidence to express that. I’m getting that she can easily integrate other people’s wants and needs. Her ability in understanding what others want and need can distract her from pursuing her own dreams.

This energy leak takes away from the quality of her emotions, which can purify false belief systems. She’s meant to express herself in a way that honors her feelings. However, her ability to be honest might at times compromise her boundaries. If she could express the content of her heart’s desires in responsible ways then she would realize how her personal beliefs maintain a standard for her emotional wellbeing.

The stellium of Libra placements in Siyeon’s chart is notable as a focal point with respect to the lesson’s she’ll have to work through in this life. There’s a deeper fear rejection which prevents real bonding with others. By feeding attention and energy into shallow relationships, she is inadvertently sabotaging her spiritual growth. So she is here to work on expressing her emotions in responsible ways that foster honest relationships with safe boundaries.

As a life path 7, the major lessons in Siyeon’s life are ruled by Neptune’s placement in her chart. People ruled by Neptune tend to align with opportunities by surrendering to their spiritual beliefs. The extent of their surrendering depends on how strongly the native believes in their dreams. While Neptune represents the higher self, it mainly symbolizes the quality of our own imagination.

In Siyeon’s case, her placement of Neptune in Capricorn highlights self-accountability as the method of integrating the higher self. The Magenta aura resonates within abilities of the Soul-star chakra, which rules the sign of Pisces. In Siyeon’s chart: Saturn is placed in Pisces, revealing the way she can learn from the obstacles in her life.

I’m picking up on an energy leak through the Heart chakra. I see that her deepest desires conflict with certain beliefs that were taught to her. She would have to work on realizing her personal needs and having the confidence to express that. I’m getting that she can easily integrate other people’s wants and needs. Her ability in understanding what others want and need can distract her from pursuing her own dreams.

This energy leak takes away from the quality of her emotions, which can purify false belief systems. She’s meant to express herself in a way that honors her feelings. However, her ability to be honest might at times compromise her boundaries. If she could express the content of her heart’s desires in responsible ways then she would realize how her personal beliefs maintain a standard for her emotional wellbeing.

The stellium of Libra placements in Siyeon’s chart is notable as a focal point with respect to the lesson’s she’ll have to work through in this life. There’s a deeper fear rejection which prevents real bonding with others. By feeding attention and energy into shallow relationships, she is inadvertently sabotaging her spiritual growth. So she is here to work on expressing her emotions in responsible ways that foster honest relationships with safe boundaries.

As a life path 8, the major lessons in Felix’s life are ruled by Saturn’s placement in his chart. People ruled by Saturn tend to achieve an understanding of their greater potential. The value and meaning of this achievement depends on how naturally the native has defined their life purpose. While Saturn represents severity and authority, it mainly symbolizes the quality of autonomy that one is able to embody.

In Felix’s case, his placement of Saturn in Gemini highlights the multiplicity of personal accountability. The Red aura resonates within abilities of the Root chakra, which rules Scorpio. While Saturn shares rulership over this chakra along with the Moon, in Felix’s chart: the Moon is placed in Aries. This reveals the degrees in which life lessons are absorbed.

I’m picking up on an energy leak through the Throat chakra. I see that his conscious expression is affected by detached thoughts and underdeveloped concepts. He would have to work on defining his passions in differentiation with those around him. I’m getting that he’s underestimated because he blends in too closely with his peers. His individual growth gets stunted if he molds motivation around who is likely to agree with him.

This energy leak takes away from the quality of his individuality, which is a huge factor in attaining healthy autonomy. He’s meant to present his personal beliefs through his actions, as a way to clear his own path. However, his ability to consider other perspectives can distract from his unique imagination. With his jovial attitude, he may get swept up in trivial causes that lack direction. If he could differentiate his personal visions in life then he would realize stronger passion to build motivation and connect with causes that matter.

During the months of February as well as November, Saturn is a stronger influence for Felix. There are seasonal activations of his Aquarius and Sagittarius placements which surface insight around recovering from obstacles.