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REALITY OF FEAR, John Soap Mactavish

REALITY OF FEAR, John “Soap” Mactavish

word count: 742

summary: fluff, angst; you two get separated on the riskiest and leathal mission. all you can think about is if johnny is making it out alive.

warnings: violence, fluff, angst, suspense? friends to lovers.

Fear; something you were sure you were immune to.

This was the mission. Some of you would make it out alive, some of you wouldn’t. For the first half you wondered who was making it out, who was dead and who was alive. You were separated from Soap according to the plan that way made. You and Price were placed together, and for a reason you weren’t sure. You were a sniper and heavy artillery expert, you should have been with Soap to back him and watch over him.

You waited hours, waiting to hear Soaps voice, but to no avail. You heard everyone but him. Your aim was getting worse the more you thought about it, and the more you told yourself to “pull it together and focus” the worse you became.

You didn’t know Soap was thinking the same about you. You and price finally got ambushed and found from where the two of you were firing shots, leading you two to pick off anyone in your way.

The trigger of your pistol clicked multiple times, emptying the rest of your rounds into someones body.

“Hey-“ Price grabbed your shoulder, making you turn and take a breath.

“I get it, but we need to focus. Your aim is sloppy…what’s wrong?” He asked.

“Soap…”

The two of you were good friends, but not together. You were worried and embarrassed for letting fear over come you.

“I know, and I had a feeling. I wondered myself if they were alive” he paused; “but worrying is gonna kill ya’.”

You nodded taking a deep breath, wiping the blood off your face and picking your sniper back up.

For the rest of the mission, you hadn’t heard anything. It would have came in on the radio if he was killed? Why wasn’t anyone saying anything?

The more you questioned the more you let yourself go, till finally it was over.

“Let’s get out of here…see who made it out” Price said sounding a little disappointed.

The ride back was long. It felt longer then it needed to be at least and your mind couldn’t stop thinking about him. If he was dead, how would that effect you? If he was alive how would you handle it? Till you made it back and you felt like the waiting was going on forever. Someone could have told you, why didn’t they? Maybe he was dead and they didn’t know how to say it?

The whirling of a chopper was heard, as you sat outside of base waiting to hear that same whirling noise for the last thirty minutes. Carrying yourself up the stairs you felt like crying. Over 6 hours of not knowing, you would finally have your answer. Did you want to know? Maybe you’d rather let it be unknown.

It didn’t matter now, you were already up to the top of the stairs standing there watching the chopper land. Once landed you seen that Ghost was alive, causing a smile to spread across your face. There was a little bit of hope.

A blooded arm reached for the handle, jumping down and looking at you with a huge smile. His beautiful smile the one you missed seeing for the last six hours. You dropped your weapon to the floor, running to Johnny and attempting to hold back the tears of happiness.

He held your lower back as you swayed back and fourth in that hug. You released your grip a little looking up to him.

“I waited and waited…Johnny I thought you were dead.” You confessed, it was embarrassing, but he didn’t care. He just moved his face closer to yours, placing his lips against the soft flesh of your very own.

“I’m sorry for making you wait lass” he said placing a kiss on your head.

“I’m proud of you,” he said. There was a bit of a pause, not knowing what exactly to say without saying everything.

“Come, let’s get your arm looked at yeah?” You nodded towards him and he followed.

Holding hands walking back down to the medic he confessed, something you weren’t expecting. Not now, not tomorrow, hell maybe not even in the next month. But he told you, and he had his reasons and intentions.

“I love you…you made me realize that today” You were quick to reply, there wasn’t a hesitation in your words, not even a stutter.

“I love you too Johnny.”