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i feel like i overate, so i’m gonna do a food log (without calories bc i didn’t count them) and maybe that will calm me down or make me feel worse ;)

for breakfast i had at least 20 frozen grapes and two slices of sweet melon because it wasn’t really that good

at lunch everyone ate burgers, but i only ate like 3/4 of the meat my uncle served me, along with 4 fries (i think that’s what is bugging me)

i’ve drank so much fucking diet coke it’s pathetic, i think i might’ve gained from that

at dinner i ate a little bit of thai rice, but left a lot on my plate, so i cooked myself some broccoli so my mom wouldn’t be sus

i ate like 2 apples today or something like that and they were supposed to be my safe foods but lately i’m kinda scared of them

yesterday i binged on h2oh! (which has 0 kcals, but it made me feel so full idk) and frozen grapes and an apple, and i am aware that binging on fruit is probably a 1000 times better than binging on sweets, yet i still feel worthless, a failure and invalid.

i walked 10+km today, but i’ve been doing that for a little over a week and it doesn’t seem as hard anymore, maybe that’s my ‘ed’ talking, but if it doesn’t feel as hard, maybe i’m not making any progress.

i just wanna be the best at this, and no matter what i do, i always feel like i’m nowhere being good.