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[Start ID. A drawing of two scavengers from Rain World, one labelled Sanic and the other one Shrek. Sanic's fur is light brown, with darker extremities, a messy row of pale green spines down its back, and bright blue eyes. They sit contentedly, staring at the screen, with a couple grenades by its feet. Shrek has pale fur, a green head, hands, and feet, and brown eyes. It's facing to the right, with their arms splayed out and an explosive spear on their back. Beside each scavenger are a few woefully-compressed screencaps of their in-game appearance. End ID]
An ode to these silly beasts, who accompanied me on my second visits to Industrial and Chimney
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rain world
scavenger rain world
...usually only draw set characters of games and not. creatures. so that's new for me
absolutely love specbioing these guys though!! buggifying them scratches the right itch in my brain especially when they could reasonably
be buggy in canon!!
bugs
clarification on the ''shrek is maybe two guys'' thing ahead. first we'll argue for One Guy
1. both found in the same region at the same time 2. remarkably similar coloring and mannerisms (seemed to be the pack leader)
and now evidence supporting the two different guys theory:
1. travelled with a different pack of scavengers the second time vs when i found it 2. second time had slightly duller colors and noticably
longer horns (without the little gradient at the end)
so now you see why i didn't notice anything wrong until after reviewing the screenshots. BUT!!! secret third option!!!
the first one with the short horns was found first when i was using the entrance-to-industrial shelter
and the one i mostly relied on for reference was near the higher shelter. shrek numero dos. the canon shrek.
but i have a screenshot of shrek 1 in the place shrek 2 was found. hanging out with one of shrek 2's pack members no less.
conclusion
ok now that that's ''settled''. don't let this all distract you from the fact that the simple act of SWITCHING TO THE SHADING LAYER
got me out of a four-month-long mental rut. i can't say that it was depression nor that i know anything about depression in the first place
but even if it wasn't very serious? it Sucked. even if it was just a nagging thought at the back of my mind my life was duller somehow
i started to feel a little unmotivated. lonely. anxious. like the days blend together. the things i liked weren't bringing as much joy
and all of that got worse recently. the main reason i haven't posted any art for like a month? art stopped being fun.
which is a TERRIBLE thing for someone like me who loves to draw so so much. so when everything that's been building up over the past months
just vanished completely? without warning? you better believe i teared up over a doodle of a scavenger for making me feel right again.
i'm overjoyed to be free of it. i'm hopeful again! i love myself again! i can fall in love with the world all over again!!!
i have no idea how this happened. but i have motivation and determination and i feel like i can change my life for the better now. if i try
maybe this was my normal but it's the striking opposite of what I've been feeling--i'm finally proud of my accomplishments! and of myself!!
which was something i couldn't say in earnest even before december.
and reader? i call you tag-wanderer for i have no way of knowing who you are. maybe a treasured mutual or maybe a stranger. but i love you.
and i hope you make your way out.