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Have been there. Completely understand.

Kinda the opposite for me tho. Most of the time I feel cis, but sometimes…

A lot of the time I don’t even notice when mine switches, I just start acting slightly differently and eventually I or someone else notices.

I used to notice every time though, and it was frustrating. When I switch and feel like something other than my agab I feel so confident in my identity, and then when I switch back I feel like a dirty liar, like I don’t deserve to call myself trans because I don’t feel like something other than my agab for a lot of the time. Sometimes, I have a couple weeks worth stretch where I don’t change at all, and then I feel like I’m deluding myself about what’s going on in my own brain. It’s a lot to deal with.

Sometimes I question if I'm actually just trans and not genderfluid, but at the same time sometimes I still feel like a girl so then I think maybe I'm bigender and then I start just thinking about what if I'm actually a just a girl and I'm tricking myself. That can't be true though because I do feel like a boy or just something else sometimes. At the same time though, sometimes I just don't know what I am at that moment. This is honestly kind of annoying to experience and usually I try to just stop thinking about it or do something to distract me because it drives me crazy.