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What if....
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pairing; yoon jeonghan x afab reader
genre; smut (minors dni), angst, some fluff
warnings; unprotected sex, talk of a fight, sadness, illudes to depression
word count; 1.8k and some change
request; no
a/n; i am just as sad as you are, maybe even more
song inspiration; eric nam - what if
Jeonghan turns in the bed, your hair tickling his nose as the light shines into his eyes. He can’t help but to smile as he scoots in closer behind you. His nose nuzzles into your hair as he drapes his arm over your waist enjoying your warmth.
It felt like he hadn’t been this close to you in forever. He vaguely remembered the night before. The raised voices, your tears, his that he managed to barely hold back as you said you were going to leave, but he had stopped you.
You were in his arms, you smelled like sunshine and vanilla. Each breath you took in was like a breath in for Jeonghan. You were so important to him. If you had asked him to explain it, he wasn’t sure he’d be able to.
Reaching up, Jeonghan moves your hair from your neck so he can press a kiss to your soft skin making you smile. He can’t see it but he can sense it with the small hum that escapes your lips. “Morning love.” You nod at his words before turning in his arms so you can face him resting your forehead against his.
Jeonghan liked this even more, now he could look at your serene face. God you were stunning, especially in the morning. Your bare skin, messy hair, the lines from the pillow on your soft cheek. He couldn’t help himself as he reached up to trace over one making you whine softly about trying to sleep longer.
“I know baby…but you are just so cute.” You laugh and shake your head muttering no as you move to bury your face against his chest making Jeonghan laugh as his chin rests on the top of your head. His arms holding you closely as he looks out the window as the sun starts to truly peek in. “Are you working today?”
Your voice was muffled against his bare chest as you draped your leg through his, becoming tangled under the comforter. “No, stay home with me.” Your lips brush his collarbone as Jeonghan starts to say he can’t and that you can’t skip work. That something feels off, this wasn’t like you. Yes, the two of you had fought but you never skipped work…but when your soft lips touch his skin he can’t seem to care about work, about responsibilities, about anything except you.
“God…I love you.” You smile against his soft skin, your breath tickling his skin making goosebumps spread. “And…I’m sorry. I didn’t say that last night. I should have. I’m such a fool.” You let out a content sound at Jeonghan’s words before pulling back to look at him as your fingers run along his ribs making his breaths come quicker and deeper. Now he could really look into your eyes and appreciate you, and it took that new breath away.
He missed you without the need of it because you were right here but a fight would do that to a person. When you looked at him like this, like he was your favorite person, he felt like he was floating. He wanted to live in this moment forever. The sun that was that perfect level in the sky, your beautiful face in front of him, your soft fingers on his skin, your legs tangled with his under warm covers that neither of you were in a rush to leave.
You watch Jeonghan take in a deep breath to steady himself before he leans down to press a kiss to your lips. It’s such a gentle kiss as if you might break, disappear, or push him away. Instead you smile against his lips and reach a hand up to pull him closer deepening the kiss. Jeonghan’s fingers slide along your waist as he tries to find something real to hold on to as your tongue slides into his mouth making his head spin.
“Fuck…” You laugh at his muttered curse against your lips as Jeonghan pulls back to look at you as his legs move along yours so he can move between yours so he is laying on top of you. His fingers pull at your soft shirt as he tugs it up your stomach so his fingers can finally touch your skin near your hip bone. When you shiver at his touch, Jeonghan groans softly into your kiss at your reaction. “I want you to be mine for the rest of my life…”
“Then do something about it.” They were words that seemed to echo in his mind over and over but Jeonghan simply smiled at them, nodding as he moved to press his lips to your jaw making you lean your head back against your pillow as he moved his thigh between your legs as you lifted your hips. When a soft moan of his name slipped off your lips Jeonghan’s brows furrowed at how distant it sounded but he shook his head and moved his lips back to yours wanting to swallow your moans, to keep them forever.
Your fingernails sliding over his back, as you whine on his lips, you can’t help but to want him to go faster with how much you want him. Jeonghan can sense it but he can’t help but to want to take his time. “Please…” Your plea is like candy and Jeonghan is dying for how sweetly you intoxicate him. “Yeah…okay. I know. I just….” You whine again and he nods, shrugging the covers off his back as he sits up to look down at you.
“You are so pretty baby.” Your cheeks warm at Jeonghan’s compliments as his fingers slide your shirt up your torso over your breasts as you arch your back letting him peel the garment from your body. Jeonghan’s eyes travel over every inch of your skin as if trying to remember where every freckle and mole are located as if he were to blink he might forget and one might shift. You laugh and reach for his hand moving it to your hips. “Keep going, please…I need you.”
Jeonghan laughs and nods as you lift your hips letting him slide your panties down your legs as you move your body for him. He bites his lips as he watches your legs move to either side of his body as you look up at him. Jeonghan can’t help but to groan at the sight, your beautiful body on display for him as he once again lets his eyes scan over you this time looking between your legs at how wet you are for him as he runs his hands over your knees down your legs before he leans back to slide his own shorts off.
He was painfully hard for you, he wanted you more than anything. It was like his body was crying out to be part of yours. So when you reached for him Jeonghan wasted no time moving back into your arms and between your legs. With his lips finding your cheek, he whispered soft praises and how much he loved you as he lined himself up with you before pushing into you slowly savoring how your body was made for him.
With your mouth next to his ear, Jeonghan’s eyes closed as he listened to your soft panting breaths that were in time with each of his thrusts. How your moans became a bit more high pitched when he’d go deeper, and how your nails would dig into his back making his hiss out a breath when he’d bottom out into you.
When you started to clench around him, your orgasm on the cusp, Jeonghan almost wanted to slow down and prolong your pleasure, but he was too close to following you. Your hands on his cheeks as you brought his lips back to yours as your walls trembled around his cock, Jeonghan groaned into your mouth as you came undone for him like no one had ever done before. You were perfect, he didn’t want anyone else because there was no way anyone else could feel like this.
Your head is thrown back as you cry out his name when Jeonghan spills into you, he can’t help but you pause his thrusts just to enjoy the visual. The way your hands had moved to clench his biceps, your thighs quivering, your breasts pushed up against his chest, a beautiful blissful smile on your face. He wanted to remember this moment forever along with the entire morning.
Laying you down Jeonghan presses kisses between your breasts before working the kisses up your neck to your mouth as you smile running your fingers through his hair as he whispers that he loves you. When he doesn’t hear it back Jeonghan laughs only to look up at you questioningly, “Say it back baby…” but you stay silent, just your fingers moving through his hair before you turn over and your back away from him just like you always did in the dream.
Jeonghan sighs in his sleep furrowing his brows before running a hand over his face. When he opened his eyes, the sun was at that perfect level in the sky, his hand ran over your spot in the bed to find it empty. He closed his eyes again, tightly knowing he had dreamt of you again. He remembered the yelling, your tears, his that he had barely held back until he hadn’t. When the front door had slammed shut and you didn’t come back he couldn’t stop the tears that fell down his face.
Just like the tears that were rolling along the sides of his eyes now into this hairline as his fingers gripped the pillow that had once been yours. Where there was once warmth, now was just a cold unused pillow, and riight now his bed felt like it was made of ice.
Turning away from your side of the bed Jeonghan sniffed back his tears and swiped his phone from the nightstand that held a box with a ring he never got to use, before looking at the time. He sighed, opening his social media like he did every single morning. Your name typed into the search bar, Jeonghan can’t help but to smile sadly at your gentle smile. Your beautiful face in newer pictures that he hadn’t been around for. He searched for a new person in your life just in case. Someone other than him that was making you happier than he could.
Following his ritual he goes into his phone contacts and hovers over your name wanting to call you just like he had wanted to stop you that night when you walked out that door. As soon as he thinks he has the nerve to press the button his brain begins to play with him.
“What if she picks it up?”
“But what if she has your number blocked?”
“What if someone else picks up the phone?”
Jeonghan’s pride gets the better of him, just like yesterday and the day before that, and the day before. He presses the power button turning off the screen making your face vanish so he can close his eyes. His heart is tight as he forces himself to sit up and get ready for another day without you in his life.
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