Bc He Feels Like It's Not Masculine Enough Or Something Bc Of Internalised Stuff - Tumblr Posts
4 months ago
Theres something sad about the way i imagine michael shelley being such a people pleaser, someone who doesnt push against the line and just trusts and goes with what people says... i dont think he really indulged in his more colorful fashion taste beyond a fun shirt or pair of socks. and how in contrast i imagine the distortion being *so* colorful, *so* bright. Michael is gone but in some ways he still clings to Michael
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like i feel that he would be scared of growing his hair out long as well
bc he feels like it's not masculine enough or something bc of internalised stuff
at least thats my hc
the whole idea of michael the distortion being exactly what michael was trying to get away from/hide
idk how to explain it im too ill rn to think but yeah
personally i like the idea of michael always feeling the spiral's presence after ryan died since he was marked by it
and him forcing down any behaviours that might make him seem not normal according to societal standards
bc he saw ryan getting treated as 'not normal' bc he was schizophrenic
and was afraid of people ignoring him and the things he saw the same way they ignored ryan and dismissed it as him being 'crazy' or smth
but then once he becomes the distortion
(sort of like the way helen talked during s5
it can express itself more freely in a way than he could when he was 'alive'
idk my brain is fried