But Indian Parents Core - Tumblr Posts

My Emotions (Romance wise, as an alloromantic unfortunately)n

honestly speaking im lowkey feeling mad lonely romance wise. the issue is i know in theory that a romantic relationship requires commitment and effort and all of the ingredience to form a rs. what i know even clearer is that especially right now with all my commitments and with all my physical and mental issues i might not be able to make it out if its the wrong person for me. however, in practice its like the emotional side of me still wants (needs) certain things, things that everyone else seems to be getting now a year into uni. some part of me wants someone to tell me they find me genuinely fascinating romantically, but i can't shake off that friend vibe ive got going on with everyone. the worst part is i know im relatively ugly where i'm currently at and i can't help but wish i was fairer and had prettier features than what i do right now. even worse is the fact that any relationship i were to pursue right now would have an expiry date or the person would have to take on the insurmountable task of convincing my parents to marry me which will not happen and i am not someone brave enough to go against my parents' decisions. so rationally (and obviously) i am not in the dating pool, but can't help wanting someone to pull me into the waters and let me drown with them for a while till i crawl back to shore.