Ch. Study {marius} - Tumblr Posts
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ch. study ✧{jordi}
ch. study ✧{dusan}
ch. study ✧{joshua}
ch. study ✧{john}
ic ✧{marius}
aesthetic ✧{marius}
musings ✧{marius}
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muse feelings & indicators
bold if it applies. italicize if it applies some of the time. tagged: stolen tagging: whomever wants it
Done for Marius, Lily, and John
happiness. being unable to stop smiling. laughter. bear hugs. happy tears. waving arms around. dancing. contently sighing. eyes twinkling. laughter lines. childlike playfulness. skipping. talking more. affection. cracking more jokes than usual. gesturing more when talking. higher pitched voice. squealing. jumping around. clapping.
sadness. tearing up. self-hugging. one-arm cross. an aching chest. scratchy throat. a runny nose. turning away. deep breaths. quivery smiles. crying. infantile sobbing. hands gripping each other or an object. covering mouth. puffy eyes. eyes appear red. voice breaking. a distant or empty stare. monotone voice. asking for comfort. faking a smile. crumbling. shaking. whimpering. abusing an unhealthy habit. withdrawing from others. big teary eyes. doing something even if it could hurt them.
anger. furrowed brows. baring teeth. passive-aggressive comments. avoiding eye contact. sarcasm. headache. sore muscles. hiding clenched fists. irritability. jumping to conclusions. raising voice. going silent. demanding immediate action. keeping it all in until exploding. body tensing. making risky decisions. middle finger.
fear & anxiety. wanting to flee or hide. what-ifs. images of what-could-be flashing in mind. uncontrollable trembling. rapid breathing. screaming. a skewed sense of time. irritability. keeping silent. denying fear. turning away from the cause. pretending to be brave. nail-biting. lip-biting. scratching skin. a joking tone but a voice that cracks. fainting. insomnia. panic attacks. exhaustion. substance abuse. tics. rushing adrenaline. face draining of color. hair lifting on the back of the neck. feeling rooted to the spot. making body as small as possible. staring but not seeing. crying. a shrill voice. whispering. gripping something or someone. stuttering. flinching at noises. pleading.
exhaustion. constantly yawning. slurring words together. dark circles or lines under eyes. mood swings. hallucinations. calling people by the wrong name. dizziness. denying they’re tired. slow blinking. trouble concentrating. stumbling. leaning on a doorframe for support. sluggish movements. falling asleep someplace that isn’t a bed. becoming irritated by the smallest things. “i’m awake” / “i’m fine”. shaking so bad they spill their drink. fall asleep in their clothes. lay their head on the table because they’re so tired. passing out.
happiness. being unable to stop smiling. laughter. bear hugs. happy tears. waving arms around. dancing. contently sighing. eyes twinkling. laughter lines. childlike playfulness. skipping. talking more. affection. cracking more jokes than usual. gesturing more when talking. higher pitched voice. squealing. jumping around. clapping.
sadness. tearing up. self-hugging. one-arm cross. an aching chest. scratchy throat. a runny nose. turning away. deep breaths. quivery smiles. crying. infantile sobbing. hands gripping each other or an object. covering mouth. puffy eyes. eyes appear red. voice breaking. a distant or empty stare. monotone voice. asking for comfort. faking a smile. crumbling. shaking. whimpering. abusing an unhealthy habit. withdrawing from others. big teary eyes. doing something even if it could hurt them.
anger. furrowed brows. baring teeth. passive-aggressive comments. avoiding eye contact. sarcasm. headache. sore muscles. hiding clenched fists. irritability. jumping to conclusions. raising voice. going silent. demanding immediate action. keeping it all in until exploding. body tensing. making risky decisions. middle finger.
fear & anxiety. wanting to flee or hide. what-ifs. images of what-could-be flashing in mind. uncontrollable trembling. rapid breathing. screaming. a skewed sense of time. irritability. keeping silent. denying fear. turning away from the cause. pretending to be brave. nail-biting. lip-biting. scratching skin. a joking tone but a voice that cracks. fainting. insomnia. panic attacks. exhaustion. substance abuse. tics. rushing adrenaline. face draining of color. hair lifting on the back of the neck. feeling rooted to the spot. making body as small as possible. staring but not seeing. crying. a shrill voice. whispering. gripping something or someone. stuttering. flinching at noises. pleading.
exhaustion. constantly yawning. slurring words together. dark circles or lines under eyes. mood swings. hallucinations. calling people by the wrong name. dizziness. denying they’re tired. slow blinking. trouble concentrating. stumbling. leaning on a doorframe for support. sluggish movements. falling asleep someplace that isn’t a bed. becoming irritated by the smallest things. “i’m awake” / “i’m fine”. shaking so bad they spill their drink. fall asleep in their clothes. lay their head on the table because they’re so tired. passing out.
happiness. being unable to stop smiling. laughter. bear hugs. happy tears. waving arms around. dancing. contently sighing. eyes twinkling. laughter lines. childlike playfulness. skipping. talking more. affection. cracking more jokes than usual. gesturing more when talking. higher pitched voice. squealing. jumping around. clapping.
sadness. tearing up. self-hugging. one-arm cross. an aching chest. scratchy throat. a runny nose. turning away. deep breaths. quivery smiles. crying. infantile sobbing. hands gripping each other or an object. covering mouth. puffy eyes. eyes appear red. voice breaking. a distant or empty stare. monotone voice. asking for comfort. faking a smile. crumbling. shaking. whimpering. abusing an unhealthy habit. withdrawing from others. big teary eyes. doing something even if it could hurt them.
anger. furrowed brows. baring teeth. passive-aggressive comments. avoiding eye contact. sarcasm. headache. sore muscles. hiding clenched fists. irritability. jumping to conclusions. raising voice. going silent. demanding immediate action. keeping it all in until exploding. body tensing. making risky decisions. middle finger.
fear & anxiety. wanting to flee or hide. what-ifs. images of what-could-be flashing in mind. uncontrollable trembling. rapid breathing. screaming. a skewed sense of time. irritability. keeping silent. denying fear. turning away from the cause. pretending to be brave. nail-biting. lip-biting. scratching skin. a joking tone but a voice that cracks. fainting. insomnia. panic attacks. exhaustion. substance abuse. tics. rushing adrenaline. face draining of color. hair lifting on the back of the neck. feeling rooted to the spot. making body as small as possible. staring but not seeing. crying. a shrill voice. whispering. gripping something or someone. stuttering. flinching at noises. pleading.
exhaustion. constantly yawning. slurring words together. dark circles or lines under eyes. mood swings. hallucinations. calling people by the wrong name. dizziness. denying they’re tired. slow blinking. trouble concentrating. stumbling. leaning on a doorframe for support. sluggish movements. falling asleep someplace that isn’t a bed. becoming irritated by the smallest things. “i’m awake” / “i’m fine”. shaking so bad they spill their drink. fall asleep in their clothes. lay their head on the table because they’re so tired. passing out.
"Mama, please, how many times must I ask you take your shoes off in the house??" It was frustrating enough to be the only chef in a kitchen at times that seemed to care to keep things perfectly in order, even if he tended to obsessively do so, but all Marius wanted was for his mother to obey his wishes and not fight him on that. Frustrating, but only when the day had been especially stressful.
"I took them off, don't you see?" Adelpha was a kind and patient woman, especially with her only son who was high strung at the best of times, but even she was growing a bit tired of this same old song and dance. She pointed to the side where her shoes had sat beside the couch. She had taken them off, but it was too far from the door for the young man's liking. She could only sigh as she watched him simply pick them up and deposit them back beside the front door of the penthouse, "Mari, my dear, sweet boy, what's wrong? You look like a fish leapt from the river and ate your lunch, or whatever they would say here."
Marius just exhaled, keeping his back turned even after he dropped her shoes beside his own, "It's nothing, mama. I promise."
"You don't get that way when it's nothing. Do you not want to tell me?"
"...." he turned back to her, walking back beside the couch to sit beside her, "I got in trouble again, typical of me, I know. That's me, 'Marius the Disaster' striking when you least expect," he flashed her a smile at his own expense, but didn't focus on her face, "I was distracted. I thought - …I thought I saw Sam come in the restaurant. Looked just like him, but when I stopped him - well, it wasn't. I couldn't focus the rest of the shift. Burned everything I touched and nearly served something well past date."
Adelpha just gave a frown, watching as he sunk down into the couch, "You can't keep avoiding this forever, Marius. Maybe it's time you talked about what happened."
Marius gave a hard sigh, sitting up quickly to give her the frustrated look straight on, "Talk about what? Face him again and reopen the wound I inflicted on him? No, he deserves better than that. He deserves to move on."
"But what about you?"
"...I don't deserve him. He was too good for me."
"You can't keep yourself down like this," she raised a hand to cup his cheek, rubbing her thumb gently across his skin, "Let yourself heal so you can move on. And give me some grandchildren already."
He couldn't help the smile at that, shaking his head, "Of course, mama. I promise, one day." He said it, even if he didn't feel like the day would ever really come. Would he really be able to move on? Did he really deserve to? Maybe it was better this way. With another sigh, he stood and just moved away from her, "I brought you something I made tonight that didn't burn too bad. Your favorite."
"Moussaka? Oh sounds delightful, thank you, Mari."
Marius just smiled back to her before he continued walking towards the bathroom. Time for a shower to rinse off the day before collapsing into the bed he made for himself of self doubt and pity. Hopefully, it would be a dreamless slumber at least.
Jordi
A hired gun, Jordi never shies away from a paying job. Regardless of what it is, so long as there's cash involved, he's on it. He isn't typically a people person and in fact usually tries to avoid any extended contact with people, but befriending him would give you an almost loyal friend who will always be sure to call you first when he needs help with a job he doesn't want to do.
Full Name: Jordin Chen
Faceclaim: Donnie Yen
Age: 43
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Hong Kong, China
Birthday: March 29
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: Chinese
Occupation: hitman / hired gun
Sexual Orientation: demisexual
Social Status: upper
Relationship Status: single
Dusan
A socialite with an insatiable thirst, no amount of power is enough for him and he will do whatever it takes to always get more. Never above blackmail and physical threats, he considers himself a force to be reckoned with. That cocky attitude could get him in trouble should he cross the wrong person. But, for now he uses his security systems to spy on people, sell their data, and blackmail people of power.
Full Name: Dušan Marković
Faceclaim: Nitin Chauhan
Age: 25
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Yugoslavia
Birthday: Aug 17
Currently living in: San Francisco, CA
Ethnicity: Yugoslavian
Occupation: security tech CTO
Sexual Orientation: bisexual
Social Status: upper
Relationship Status: single
Josh
With a passion for education and history, he seeks out to teach young people about the mistakes of the past in hopes they wouldn't be repeated. He is a pacifist at heart, with a very short fuse. Josh would never raise his hand to another, but that wouldn't stop him for speaking his mind. He is kind at heart, seeking peace for the world at any cost.
Full Name: Joshua Parker
Faceclaim: Parker Sawyers
Age: 33
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Detroit, MI
Birthday: Nov 10
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: African American
Occupation: university lecturer
Sexual Orientation: pansexual
Social Status: middle
Relationship Status: single
John
Full Name: John Connor Doe
Faceclaim: Emmett J Scanlan
Age: 34
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Detroit, MI
Birthday: Nov 15
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Occupation: Doe private security owner
Sexual Orientation: heterosexual
Social Status: upper middle
Relationship Status: single
Marius
Full Name: Marius Luke Northall
Faceclaim: Ben Wiggins
Age: 26
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Nottingham, UK
Birthday: Jan 8
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: British/Greek
Occupation: line cook at Starlight Lounge
Sexual Orientation: bisexual
Social Status: upper middle
Relationship Status: single
Lily
Full Name: Pandora Lily Johnson
Faceclaim: Jodelle Ferland
Age: 25
Sex: female
Gender: female
Place of Birth: Fresno, CA
Birthday: Oct 13
Currently living in: Los Angeles, CA
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Occupation: actor
Sexual Orientation: pansexual
Social Status: upper
Relationship Status: single
Calista
Full Name: Calista Alessandra Ramone
Faceclaim: Kayla Itsines
Age: 35
Sex: female
Gender: female
Place of Birth: Pahrump, NV
Birthday: June 30
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: Greek-american
Occupation: personal trainer
Sexual Orientation: heterosexual
Social Status: middle
Relationship Status: single
Simon
Full Name: Simon Arthur Baker
Faceclaim: Bradley James
Age: 29
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Detroit, MI
Birthday: Feb 16
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Occupation: baker / cake decorator
Sexual Orientation: pansexual
Social Status: lower middle
Relationship Status: single
Frankie
Full Name: Francesca "Frankie" Hughes
Faceclaim: Charlotte Ritchie
Age: 36
Sex: female
Gender: female
Place of Birth: London, UK
Birthday: May 13th
Currently living in: Los Angeles, CA
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Occupation: Film Agent
Sexual Orientation:
Social Status: upper
Relationship Status: single
Ty
exclusive to @intonightcity
Full Name: Tyler "Scrappy Ty" Cameron
Faceclaim: Phil Brooks "CM Punk"
Age: 39
Sex: male
Gender: male
Place of Birth: Miami, FL
Birthday: January 6th
Currently living in: Night City, MI
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Occupation: Hype Man / Coach / Public Speaker / illegal fighter
Sexual Orientation: heterosexual
Social Status: middle
Relationship Status: single
Full Name: Luna Aeris Thomas
Faceclaim: Halle Bailey
Age: 25
Sex: female
Gender: female
Place of Birth: Detroit, MI
Birthday: Jan 30th
Currently living in: Detroit, MI
Ethnicity: African-American
Occupation: Podcast star / host / writer; Starlight Lounge hostess
Sexual Orientation: demi-romantic / bisexual
Social Status: lower middle
Relationship Status: single
Marius is the type to spend the majority of his time in his kitchen. His penthouse has a very large kitchen space that has a long counter, an island with a small tv, and also his computer. Even if he's not cooking, which most of the time he isn't, he has just always felt the most comfortable there. His mother, Adelpha, likes to joke that that means he's the perfect housewife, but he doesn't really take her seriously.
While he isn't the greatest cook, he is definitely the most experimental. Always trying new combinations and new recipes he finds online. He even records the ones he manages to make successfully, whether it tastes good or not, because he likes to share new things he finds. Except for a few he makes himself, those he keeps secret, post cards in a tin box kept in a cabinet above the fridge.
A lot of the recipes he keeps in that little box are ones his mother gifted to him, many Greek recipes she loves and thinks he would enjoy. It's the majority of the kind of food he makes for her and himself at home. Otherwise when he's out, its whatever fast food is closest to him.
Marius is a neat freak. He keeps things neat, clean, and in their place. It's something he picked up and carried over from his time working in a kitchen, but he's also just always been a neat child. When he feels down, though, he tends to make a mess, like giving himself a distraction without really realizing.
Some unusual questions I took from this meme to answer about Marius (since he's strongest right now)
How often do they actually think about texting their ex?
Nearly all the time, even after it's been years. He wants to think there's a way they could work things out, but he knows nothing has changed. And if his ex asked Marius if it had, he wouldn't be able to lie to him. So, all he can do is dream. More than it just being his ex, he misses his best friend.
How old is your muse and how much younger and older are they willing to date?
Marius is 26, which is still young himself but honestly, as long as they're over 18 he really doesn't care. At least when it comes to just sleeping around. Actually dating, he'd prefer no further than 10 years in either direction. Just to have as much time as he could with that person. But, if they happened to be older than that then he wouldn't be opposed. So long as they clicked just right.
What’s that one story their parents always tell about their childhood?
Adelpha always has a few stories about her boy that she tells any chance she gets to new people, but there's just one that Marius hates. There was a village they liked to visit for holidays that had a large farm not too far from the cottage they owned. Marius liked to go there whenever they visited - he said he liked the goats. Once when he was about 8, when he tried to see the goats, he snuck his way into the pen to see them in the barn. He ended up stuck there with the goats of the farm trapping him inside. He was only there a couple hours before the farmer brought him home half naked, wearing a shirt he'd been given that hung on him like a dress, crying his eyes out. The farmer said one goat had apparently eaten through his clothes to the point that it wasn't satisfied until Marius took it off and just gave it to him. And Marius was upset because it had been his favorite shirt.
What do they call their grandparents?
On his father's side, they are Nana and Pop. On his mother's side they are Yaya and Popo. He's fairly close to both sides and visits both sets at least twice a year.
Sims Personality Charts
Marius Northall. The serial romantic that has no problems with confidence or making friends, but does take issue with long term relationships and unclean environments.
Simon Baker. A quiet and awkward pastry chef looking for the one to spend the rest of his life with, share in his passion for his baking and his love of music.
Lily Johnson. Despite being an actress she enjoys the outdoors and just being out in the sun, especially with other people. It's when she feels her most creative.
Calista Ramone. A personal trainer who is not one to shy away from a long hike as often as she could, even through tough terrain. She takes every opportunity she can to build herself and others.
John Doe. Though he manages more than a handful of people doing security, he prefers his solitude whenever he can, even to the point that he would overwork himself. At home, he will relax with a good book.
Dusan Markovic. His security systems are used by the most powerful and rich and he uses them to get whatever he wants, blackmail even. He thinks highly of himself and his intelligence and will settle for nothing less around him.
Jordi Chen. A cold and calculated killer, he is not looking for any sort of relationship and in fact might look down on you for even trying. He's just out to make as much money as he can to continue to live comfortably.
Joshua Parker. A university lecturer who thrives on teaching his students the importance and significance of war. Though the fuse on his temper tends to be very short at times, he will still stand up for what is right.
Marius is lactose intolerant. It developed when he was a preteen, but he didn't realize what it was until he was about 14 when he and some friends went out for ice cream and he spent the rest of the day in pain. Trying to change his diet was hard, but he eventually found some substitutes he loves. All the dishes he makes at home use dairy free substitutes. Adelpha doesn't mind, but does insist any time he makes something that is her personal favorite that he use dairy. Which, of course, Marius doesn't mind doing for her.
I forgot to include, which was partially the reason I made this post, that he prefers almond milk over soy. If it works to use almond, he will.
Marius is lactose intolerant. It developed when he was a preteen, but he didn't realize what it was until he was about 14 when he and some friends went out for ice cream and he spent the rest of the day in pain. Trying to change his diet was hard, but he eventually found some substitutes he loves. All the dishes he makes at home use dairy free substitutes. Adelpha doesn't mind, but does insist any time he makes something that is her personal favorite that he use dairy. Which, of course, Marius doesn't mind doing for her.
Marius is conversationally fluent in Greek, but his reading and writing leaves much to be desired. Adelpha didn't really teach him the reading and writing as well as she could have, and Marius struggled to pick it up as a kid learning it alongside English. He still tries to study it in his spare time, when he gets around to it, but he still has a long way to go. Especially since a lot of the written recipes his mother gave him are written in Greek.
@wynterlanding: Dear ex boyfriend, @ Marius Dear someone....open
Before you tear this up, burn it, toss it in the bin, please just hear me out. I know, I don't deserve even a moment of your time, but if you could give me just that - just one moment - then I will leave you alone for the rest of time.
I fucked up, Sammy. I'm not denying that. I hurt you in a way no one deserves to be hurt. If I could take it all back, I would. But... part of me has to wonder if that would have changed things. Looking back now, I know I never want to hurt you again, should a miracle ever find you back here somehow. But, if I hadn't done what I did here - if I had followed you to the big apple like we had talked about, would it have been better? Or would I have fallen into the same terrible habit? I want to believe I wouldn't have done it, but... There's a fear in me that I would. And imagining that look on your face again is like twisting the knife already buried deep in me.
I don't deserve your forgiveness, Sam. I found comfort in another simply because I was too naïve to see how good I had it. I should have talked to you, told you the way I was feeling. How the distance was affecting me. But, I didn't. Because I didn't want to lose you, which is ironic since I lost you anyway. I'm not trying to pass the blame off, I take full responsibility of my actions. The idea of a relationship with anyone but you is... It's off-putting. I don't want it.
I love you, Sam. You were my best friend and the one person I felt I could depend on for anything. You were my first real friend in this country and the only person I've ever felt a true connection with. I shouldn't have cheated on you, but I know I can't take back what I did, who I was. I can only learn from my mistakes. And... hope one day you will call. I miss you, I miss your voice. I miss everything about you. I keep seeing you everywhere I look here, but I know it's not you. I don't know if you still feel the same about me, and maybe you've moved on with your life already. I wish I could, but I can't. This is just the punishment I deserve.
I am deeply sorry, Sammy. And I will always love you.
Yours in eternity,
Marius
WHAT IS YOUR LOVE COLOR?
warm burnt orange
Riding off into the sunset, the hope of a happy ending, the bitter after taste that still in it's own way smells kinda great. Your love is all bitter hopefulness, all about a broken heart that refuses to quit, all about the unshakable knowledge that a burning fire has a great comforting warm and a soft glowing light, all about the way when the sun comes down there's a beautiful starry night. It's stubbornness, it's the refusal to give up, the clutching of broken shards despite the searing pain and being adamant that dammit you can still make a beautiful stained glass window out of it. Yours is a screaming heart, a pleading love, a bitter and almost belligerent hopefulness that things will still work out even if you have to roll up your sleeves and make them. And god, aren't you tired? Isn't your heart heavy? Is all your hard work worth it? Don't you just want to curl up and let it be? Let the fire turn to ashes and the sky turn dark and let love die down and watch people leave? But you don't, do you? You're the bravest out of all of us, so you pick up the pieces and you keep going, you keep believing and you keep your heart full of hope because some day. Some day you know you'll get it. You keep riding off into the sunset and you keep filling my heart with hope as you go because god, how do I wish you finally get it too.
tagged by: @wynterlanding tagging: dash, steal it if u wanna uwu
