Could Think About These Two For Forever - Tumblr Posts

im a big "not your seed" fan in general but i think one line always strikes me straight in the fucking gut and that's the "did you know that i wanted to live with you?" line. so goddamn good. because it's framed as a genuine question: did you know that? did you know, once upon a time, i had wanted to keep that connection with you? the same connection you had been trying so damn hard to find again this entire story?

it's just so so heartbreaking when put into context of alice and bill's story. because at one point alice DID want to be with her dad, she wanted to be his daughter and spend time with him, but bill just wasn't brave enough to really fight for custody of her ("when you needed to fight you gave her that too"). alice saw this and interpreted it as a betrayal against her, as if he didn't care enough to truly fight for her. which ultimately led to an irreparable amount of trust being broken on her end ("why does it hurt to love you?"), a distrust that could possibly even be seeping into her other relationships ("why does it hurt to love?"/ her paranoia over deb and ziggy during watcher world).

tldr alice and bill have one of my favorite FAVORITE relationships in the entire show because even though they are never both TRULY on stage at the same time (considering the real alice was gone when he arrived at the school) there was still so much depth and realism behind the two characters that god. GODDDDDD