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King Robb​:

hamilton starters. pt. 1 II “ i imagine death so much it’s like a memory. ” -Torrhen for Robb in an AU where Tor survived the Whispering Woods II @neithergodsnormen​  

TOO close of a brush with death far too many times.  torrhen would have died for him, robb is sure, if it had come down to it, but he does not let himself linger on the what-ifs and the full weight of the casualties or else he would never find the strength again to stand.  it had been luck, but every victory has been for the boy king who had never known battle a day before his first, and had not yet lost since – it had been precision and planning and the perfection of capturing the kingslayer before he could get through and add another to his list.

ROBB’S hand rests upon torrhen’s shoulder and he squeezes.  he sees the faces of their fallen, and his father who sansa had to witness in his place; he sees the purple bags beneath his tully blues in his own reflection and reminds himself why they must go on.  “i know,” he says, “and one day, it will be only memory – when the fighting is done and we’ve gone home – but not this day.  you live, and though i know i already ask much of you, i must ask you to keep living still.”

seeing the sword part the flesh and go into daryn’s skull replayed again and again in his mind, daryn, who should have been his good-brother at this time next year. if it wasn’t daryn’s demise it was eddard’s, the sight of the lion’s sword burying itself into edd’s neck. he could still see the look of shock on his brother’s face, and fear… gods forbid… fear in edd’s eyes as he gasped for breath that would never reach his lungs for the sword that was in his throat, blood welling around it. he’d near lost his own hand that day as well, saved only by the maester that worked for riverrun..

tor takes a deep breath and dark grey eyes flick to meet blue and he finds his throat is tight once more as he looks at his king. vulnerable, he felt more vulnerable than he ever wished to feel again. robb’s words wring true, however, and he knows that he would be doing edd and daryn a disservice to not keep living and hold their memory alive with himself. “you can ask anything of me, my king, and i will gladly give it.” and he would, until his last breath. “for you, i will keep living, even when i wish not to.”

Below the cut are all the individual HCs I had posted to his old blog, coming soon are the HCs I had in relation to letters and a specific verse

Quentyn and Cookies from an Anon

Quentyn is more than a little bit of a cookie lover. When he was younger he would steal cookies from the kitchens on a daily basis. This had grown tenfold when he was sent to Yronwood, often the Prince would just walk in the kitchen and take three cookies for each hand and shove just as many in his mouth before wandering out. They had become a sort of comfort food for him, as his mother or Tyene would often sneak cookies to him if he was unable to snatch any.

Quentyn Hogwarts House

Quentyn is a Ravenclaw, cos he values wisdom above all else. Just because you are smart and value wisdom don’t mean you can’t sometimes do stupid shit. Like trying to catch and tame a dragon.

Quentyn and Suicidal Ideation

After the Corsair attack on the way to Essos, Quentyn fell to the deepest despair he ever had fallen to. The deaths of Cletus, Ser Willam and Maester Kedry affect him deeply. In his mind he kept blaming himself, debating just slipping off the side of the ship and into the waves. Another thought he had was to use his dagger to slit his wrists in order to end it as atonement for their deaths. Quentyn blamed himself for their deaths until the moment of his own death. As he lay dying he thought the days of agony were perhaps a punishment from the gods for letting his friends die.

Quentyn and Arianne

Quentyn would follow Arianne everywhere as they grew up. Until the day he was sent away it was an almost perfect mirror of Oberyn and Elia. Had he not been sent to the Yronwoods their relationship probably would have stayed such a mirror of their aunt and uncle. Quentyn gets very offended any times someone suggests taking away his sister’s right as heir. If conversation of putting him in charge of Dorne is brought up to him in any manner, he will cut off communication with the offending party. This communication cut can last for years.

Favorite Quentyn Headcanons as asked by an anon

Quentyn was a big mama’s boy before he went to Yronwood. Even to this day he writes letters to her, even if he does not send them. This is done for comfort. Quentyn will support his sister as his Princess until his dying breath. If anyone even suggests that he try to take her birthright he cuts off contact from them, for they are dead to him. Quentyn cried the day he heard of Trystane’s birth and no one could comfort him. This is because he was convinced that his parents had replaced him and did not love him anymore. Quentyn blames his uncle for his being taken from his family and finds it hard to forgive him for the death of the Yronwood lord that resulted in his being taken as a glorified hostage. Quentyn’s favorite cousin is Tyene, and it is because of her and her visits that most poisons cannot touch him. She built his immune system to poison slowly over time just to see if it was possible. Quentyn suffers from severe depression and anxiety. This mostly stems from the separation he had from his family when he was five years old. Quentyn reads more than the other boys he grew up around. He’s even borrowed and read the book on dragons that his sister refers to as a dreary tome. Quentyn use to dream of dragons coming to Yronwood and flying him back home to Sunspear. Quentyn is not touched by sweetsleep not because of Tyene, but because of how many times he had to be sedated by the Maester in Yronwood. This was because he suffered severe insomnia from the time he was brought to them at age five until he was nearly ten years old. Quentyn is good at parkour, this is mostly because of the times he had to run when playing with the other boys. Because he was smaller he could not outrun the likes of Cletus, Gerris and Arch. As a result he learned to vault over things and slide under others. Quentyn likes to sing and write songs and to write poetry. This is something he usually keeps to himself.

What does the water guy do? :o

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!!! Mention of suicidal thoughts too!!!!! You’ve been warned!!!!!

The meaning behind this drawing is that in the story Dolus was drowned in the ocean, he was in a very bad place both physically and mentally at the time, so in contrast the cold ocean water feels more like a relief than danger, like a warm hug comforting him saying all of these are going to be over soon you can rest now, that’s why the caption says “Like a hug” this is where the idea of the Water angel first originated

Remember in the first comic “Rubber”, Life says that Dolus will be visiting Death a lot? He did he visited death a lot, he’s body have the power to self heal whenever he got seriously injured, and when his body’s healing his soul just chill in Death’s place until he can go back. He’s basically invincible till he got killed by the “right tool” according to Life’s word.

The ‘right tool’ here is the acceptance of death, he can only truly die if he chose to, not by accident not by fucking around to see what can kill him, he can only die if he truly wants to, and he has to do it by himself.

This is a conversation between Life(L) and Death(D)

The water angel is the personification of the “right tool”/his “weak spot” or simply Dolus’ death. Dolus took time and thought through his decision before taking the hand of the angel who will lead him to his eternal rest

The angel is not real it is more of a little creature Dolus imagined to help him cope

The angel would act very clingy and demanding when the thought of end is on his mind, it will ask for his acceptance and pray for his attention

It hypes up when he’s hyped, it calms down when he is calm, it is apart of him, a part he doesn’t know how to deal with but don’t want to get rid of. It hurts when it gets aggressive but can be comforting at time needed

This is basically all I got for the Water angel, hope this explains something! it is a very weird part of my story that I don’t know how to fit into the comic.