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Listening to Montero while drunk at 1:06am and the part where he says, "I only fuck the ones I envy" is so relatable like, all the people I fucked around with were people I either envied or hated for doing/being what I couldn't do/be. Be it being friendly, tall, good looking, book smart (was seeing dust in uni and I failed all my classes). Like, I want to stain them with my muck, make them feel how I feel and hate themselves cos they could never fix me nor change me and I derived joy in making them feel inferior to me cos I got involved with them to prove a point to myself. What point? I didn't know, guess I just wanted to drag them down to my level.
You want to have a nice meaningful conversation with me? HA no- how much of the walking dead did you manage to watch before giving up?
I feel bad for anyone who's heard my voice 😔😔
The heavy Scottish accent is wild, like I talk to fast and can't say shit
SOMEBODY SADATE ME /ref
Btw I recently went to a funeral for the first time in my life and it was a lot , specifically it showed me an aspect of religion that I really never think about but we're not here for that.
You know that moment when the casket is in the earth but hasn't been buried yet? When the closest ones to that person throw roses down as a final goodbye? Well that broke me into a million pieces if you care. There were these three people , all different ages, with different stories, different lives, but also in that moment they were simply that woman's kids, brought together by an unberable pain. One at a time they took a rose and oh it hurt so bad because that gesture seemed to mean " hey, I'm really sorry you are gone , I love you, I miss you so much , you're going on a journey now and I can't follow you yet, I'm sorry, for now take this rose with you okay? Take this rose and remeber me and I'll remember you and one day we'll be together again. I love you "
I don't think I'll ever forget that
Something you really need to know about me is that I really love saying "your honor you don't understand" when going insane about a lil fictional silly guy
It immediately paints the picture of me, tiny chaos gremnlin, screaming in the face of a poor judge that couldn't care less, while two very serious very buff bodyguards drag me out of the court room kicking and screaming BECAUSE THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND
Ohhhh, I have to admit I never really thought about that.
Good to know!
This is not like a fully completed thought but yk
So I've done my first aid + CPR a few times. And every single time I try and bring up scenarios for fat folks
Specifically like 'what if someone is too large for me to wrap my arms around then to do the heimleich'
And its incredibly rare I get a decent answer.
How absolutely insane is it that me, as a fat person, is asking how to have MY life saved or to save ANOTHER life, is an impossible feat if someone is fat.
Most of the time they tell me to 'just try anyways uwu'
There has got to be a better option.
Just scrolled through pinterest on my phone, realized alot of it was ads. Decided to count how many were ads out of the total things I saw. 20 out of 37 were ads.. 😐😐😐 so glad I have ublock on my computer so i don't see them. Too bad I can't have it on my phone. 🙂 dude like seriously, why?? Why does there have to be that many ads. Next thing you know it'll be 35 out of 37 are ads.
So... i have a new oc! He's a 19 y/o that works as a clown in kids parties (and he absolutely HATES every second of it)
How the fuck am I supposed to eat creativity? Or do I have nothing cause it's not creative??
I'm so confused rn 🥲
