Finally At Peace - Tumblr Posts

I have just figured out the difference between romantic/sexual and aesthetic attraction. And I have realized that I do not hold any romantic or sexual attraction towards anyone. I just so happen to think that everyone is pretty. I do not have a desire to be with them romantically or sexually. Sure, I’d love to cuddle with someone but I don’t want to kiss or date anyone. This is sooo liberating. I finally figured out who I am and what I like. Turns out, it’s nobody. I don’t like…anyone. And I’m happy with that.

I think I’d like to be a boy, but I like my chest and long hair and curves. Then I’d stay a woman, right? But I also want a pixie cut and to wear a suit. And I think having a…member would be interesting. Then maybe I want to be both? Or none? Not really. I mean, maybe, but I like having a definite idea or choice. Neither or both sounds like I’m indecisive. (I’m not trying to criticize, but it’s just not for me). I’m so confused. 

I don’t like sex. That’s clear at least not as a girl. But I like people. I can’t tell if I wanna date them or if I just think they’re pretty. I think both boys and girls are pretty. Masculine Boys with long, curly hair or the lesbian girls that wear a hat and too big t-shirts. Or have a pixie cut and a cottage core with long dresses or a crop top with black slacks. I automatically think that anyone who’s smart or with an academia core (like mine) is very beautiful. I have no idea what I am.