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~ 𝐓𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

𝘒𝘢𝘵𝘯𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘹 𝘍𝘦𝘮!𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

𝘚𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘺: You tried everything and refuses to accept your feelings for Katniss, but you two live in the same house, so you have to talk to her

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You are sit on the window, remembering all the stupid things you did because you don’t want to accept what you feel for her. Isn’t because she is a woman, but because she is Katniss, if you allow yourself to love her you could never stop, this feeling is weird, makes you scare

“Love is weird” Johanna told you once, now you see that she was right

Now she is hurt because she saw you kissing a man on the bar, you didn’t stop her from running, so your plan was avoid her forever, at least until this feeling is over, but you two live in the same house, so is very complicated. So your mind come back to that moment, she whispering your name, tears coming to her face, her hand shaking and she running away, far from you. Good thing to blame yourself while eat a bowl of cherries

She never hide what se feel for you, the word “date” or “girlfriend” was never a topic in your conversation, the thing was casual but you don’t know in what moment you thought you’re going to rid of her, no one’s scapes from the girl on fire, and look cliche, but she burned your heart, in a delicious way that made sparks dance inside if your body every time you saw her, such a good feeling that you wanted more and more, and even living in peace after the revolution, you were afraid that this love would be your end

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The keys sound of someone open the door call your attention and you put your legs out of the window, what where you planning? Would you throw yourself out of the window just to avoid a conversation with Katniss because you’re a coward? She wouldn’t just ignore you, but she wouldn’t fight too

“Y/n” she whispered and left the room, she probably thought you wouldn't be here, especially eating cherries with a pajamas.

“Katniss, wait…” you couldn’t just let she slipped through your fingers, but at the same time you didn’t have enough courage to talk about this relationship

So now you were getting up to go after her but your body stopped when she turned towards you, Kat was there, you mess it up and now you're going to fix everything, you would go if your feet didn't seem to have been stuck on the floor with nails

“Wait…for what?” She says raising an eyebrow, she is disappointed and you can see it in her eyes, but Katniss want to look badass every time, you always told her that she didn’t need this barrier, not with you, now it seems like she is hiding this version that you love so much, the sweet Katniss, who loves to harvest cherries and strawberries for you, who talks about Prim with that especial and nostalgic shine on her eyes, who shows pictures that she receives of Finnick and his family and stay happy because he is happy, who you kiss the forehead while she is having nightmares, but you got them too, so she always comfort you

And even with all this, you still afraid of loving her, you wish you could say everything you think about her, but the true is that you already love Katniss Everdeen, you’d have to change the world to stop the feeling, and you wouldn’t want to change anything that is happening now, you couldn’t think about a life without her by your side

“I-I’m sorry” you said don’t letting the tears come to your eyes, she still stare you from the hall waiting you to finish. “Isn’t a excuse I know but- I tried to stop, to stop this feeling in my heart, to kill this butterfly in my stomach every time I saw you, I’m afraid” Katniss expression start to softly more but you still see the sadness on her eyes, and it kills you to know that is because of you. “Afraid of what? Of me?” She says raising her eyebrows with confusion, of course she is confuse, this whole situation is a mess

“No! I’m terrified of this feeling inside me, and I don’t know how I handle with this”

“What feeling?” You don’t know if she is asking for real or just torturing you to say it loud, but now she is closer and you can see a little bit of tears on her gray eyes, it was like a hurricane starting im the deep of her. People say that the eyes are the window of the soul, maybe this is true, because you can see the confusion in her face, in her thoughts, in the gray tonality of her eyes that make you feel lost, it’s like being in a fog, you don’t know the direction of anything and every thing that was in your mind before desapear

“Love…I think- I love you Katniss” you whisper feeling the salty taste in your lips of one single tear, you take two steps and almost touch Kat face, but a lot of things come to your mind and you just look at her with a puppy face.

“What I’m saying? I don’t think, I can’t think when I’m around you, I’m sure-“ you are interrupted by Katniss lips on yours, now you put your hand on her checks, a way to show that you want her close, you don’t want her to go away, never again, Snow isn’t here to separate you two again

Katniss on the other way, is very hurt, her heart is but the taste of your cherry lips was like a medicine, a medication, a drug that she knows is vicious, and the girl on fire don’t have any problem about being addicted to you, especially when she already knows that she isn’t alone in this relationship, when you feel the same

“I love you too” she whisper looking and your eyes and you quickly clean the tears that start to fall on her face and she smiles looking down. “I think that we can understand how this love thing works” she say to you with a shine of hope in her face

”With you, I’m sure” You smile and she starts laughing. “What?” God, how not to fall in love with her? Especially with this smile

“Y-your lips, they are so red” she answers, you don’t know if it was because of the cherrys or for the kiss. “Cherry darling, the taste of love” you saying kissing her again

Well, you messed up, but honestly? With Katniss Everdeen here by your side you would do everything she will order just to don’t see her hurt again.