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aloe ( how does your muse handle grief? ) from the botanical headcanons?

❥     𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    [   𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂    ]   .

messily. gregory tries to push aside most of his emotions ( to little success ), and grief is no different. more often than not, it manifests as anger — he lashes out at anyone trying to get close to him, insisting that he's fine when all he's doing is further isolating himself by destroying any support he might gain. it's not intentional ; he's ten, he obviously doesn't quite realize what he's doing. but he doesn't trust other people, and he certainly doesn't want to be vulnerable in front of them. he didn't grow up in a space where he was allowed to understand and feel his emotions.

grief only slips through the cracks when he's too exhausted to keep it entirely at bay, and when it does it's overwhelming. he's a mess, sobbing until it feels like he has no energy left. it's very rare that he'll let someone else see him in this state ( prone to pitching a fit and running away when he feels it coming on, better to be alone than to be seen as a burden ), though if someone does manage to find him gregory isn't exactly able to calm himself down. these moments always make him feel incredibly weak ( emotionally, and just literally from the overflow of it all ), and he'll be subdued for a small period of time afterwards.