Greenflower - Tumblr Posts
behold greenflower but theyre in my ninjago movie au
Lloyd found a stick bug and wanted to show it to Brad (he doesn't know Brad is scared of insects)
when the flowers green or sum
extra silly drawing of brad
in my opinion people should draw brad with more beauty marks
ah yes greenflower my favorite ship. bread and loafđ
let's pretend it's like. still valentines
it's a very special post today! valentines greenflower, 1 year birthday for my acc (or at least the anniversary for my very first post, and my 100th post on here! hooray! three cheers for greenflower!
anyway i was planning to finish this but im kinda busy so take a thing i made in like . 2 days
greenflower ., ., . mme when they're getting maarried ,... (*´â˝`*)
Hey guys did I mention I like greenflower?
tell me please which lloyd ships you like and why
but please don't say him x harumi because that makes me uncomfortable as hell
requesting this bc the only one i like is with akita, but that's mainly cause she resembles the main character of my favorite game and both are wolves and i have had an obsession with wolves 10 years ago. so. i wanna be open to potential other ships with him (i hardly ship anything ninjago related, so.. introduce me to your ways, using my comfort character)
The burning Fate
Post Seabound/season 15
Warning - Attempted suicide, cursing, past overdosing/drowning (attempt), self harm, implied eating disorder, self gaslighting
Heads up -
 - i hc lloyd as Genderfluid, in this their pronouns will be they/them
- Lloyd and brad are dating (brad is two years older then lloyd- so itâs not illegal or smth and like also lloyd is 17) Â also Brad is this kid who was in like season 1 and he went to darklys with Lloyd :)
- i hc Lloyd and autistic, i kinda hint to it in one part (also im not autistic- but i have autistic friends, and if i do smth wrong ever, pls tell me)
- also im not saying if you have any mental disorder or smth your stupid- just ppl think that, when your rlly not-
 - also i have no idea how to comfort- and idk how to write i either- so yea-
Lloyd has been up on top of this building for about an hour. An hour numbly looking down below into the busy street as the darkness surrounds them. Some lights flash into their faces from time to time. But it doesnât matter to Lloyd, this will be their last few minutes.
Ever since Nya left Lloyd's life has gone back to hell. First of all, Kai and Jay will always be yelling at each other, no matter how loud Lloyd made the music, they could still hear their older brothers yelling at each other. Most of the time it'd just get to the point where it was too much for Lloyd and they just couldnât hold it anymore and cry, they couldnât help but get overwhelmed by it all. Itâs all their fault though. Itâs their fault. They're a horrible leader. Nobody wants a stupid, disabled kid to be their savior.
After nya left the ninja, Lloyd also started to relapse⌠just like after the sons of garmadon and harumi. They locked themself in their room all the time, never coming out. Not eating, and they would get the extra razor that they have to⌠hurt themself. They have the scars all over them, not just their wrists. Their thighs, shoulders. Just really anywhere that they can hide it. Where they can hide how hard everything really was for them. They had to  hide, they couldnât be seen as weak. Theyâre the green ninja, theyâre the one who has to protect everyone.
This isnât the first time they tried to kill themself.. Lloyd thought as they looked over the edge of the tall building. A month after Nya left them to merge with the ocean, they tried to drown themselves, but Kai tried to find them and stopped them before it was too late. They were forced to stay in the mental hospital for a few weeks, it wasnât because the ninja thought that they were psycho or anything. Just they tried to kill themselves. When they got to be sent back home, they snuck out one night. No word or anything. And just ran away. So theyâve been living with Brad, Gene, and Sally for about 7 months.
The other time Lloyd tried to end it all was after they moved in with brad. They got a lot of pills and just chugged them all down, it worked. But Sally found them passed out on the floor, and called the ambulance before Lloyd actually died. After they were sent home, Brad kept a close eye on his lover.
Lloyds honestly is kinda embarrassed and disappointed in themselves for failing twice to kill themselves. Well⌠is it them..? because really, they couldâve done it, but then people keep finding them. They should really try to do it when no one is around or anything. But hey⌠no one is around right now⌠just five more simple steps.. and all the pain will be over, theyâll no longer feel the stinging sensation in their arms or thighs after this. Because theyâll be gone. Just like everyone always wanted. For the blonde brat , that was Lloyd Montgomery Garmadon, to be dead.
Funny thing is right now they're not even fully blonde. They dyed their pink with red tips. It makes them think of valentines though, not going to lie. But does it matter? no. Nothing matters. Everything is all useless. All that matters is that in a few seconds, theyâll be free. Free from being the green ninja, free from being the leader and the reason your team fell apart. Free from destiny. Maybe thatâs why theyâre still alive. Because destiny needs a puppet to pick sticks at, to try to entertain itself. Fuck destiny, man. Fuck it.
Lloyd lets their mind wander as they take one step closer to the edge, one step closer to death.
They think about when they went to The Wailing Alsps, with Clancee. This snake pirate, who was very familiar and lloyd feels like theyâve seen before. And it wasnât just because of when the whole thing with chen was going on.. some other time⌠A time Lloyd canât put their finger on. But anyways When Lloyd and Clancee went to the wailing alsps and almost died, they thought of kai. How Kai was always there for them, and was like the brother and father Lloyd never had. Lloyd is the one whoâs leaving, just like last time. But⌠this is what Kai wanted⌠The night Lloyd ran away they and Kai got into a fight⌠Not Jay and kai. But Lloyd and Kai.  It was in the heat of the moment when Kai yelled that he wished he never saved Lloyd from that volcano. Which right after Kai realized what he said to lloyd. But it was too late. The damage was done.
Four more stepsâŚ
Three more stepsâŚ
Fuck it all. Lloyd thought. Â Fuck. Destiny can go find some other blonde bitch to do its bidding. Â In Lloyd's last few seconds they just felt rage. The closer they got to the edge the more they got angry.
The last few years their anger has gotten worse. But it gives Lloyd something to think about. It lets Lloyd actually feel something. Sometimes itâs like they're not angry at all, but the next theyâre fuming. Like right now.
Like how right now just the thought of Garmadon makes them want to go smash their âfathersâ face into a fucking wall. Or Harumi. Definitely Harumi. She messes everything up and then just goes and dies just like that. At least sheâs out of their life. even if they can never stop thinking about her⌠Or the version of Harumi in The Prime Empire game Lloyd and the other ninjas were trapped in.
Lloyd took a deep breath in through the noise and out the mouth.
Taking another step closer.
Two more stepsâŚ
One more stepâŚ
Lloyd looks all the way down. Heh⌠So this is it.. The end of the line. Maybe iâll get to see my real father.
Just as Lloyd took the last step they swore they heard the door slam open to the top of the building⌠and some yelling..? But all Lloyd could feel now was the air in their face, the wind messing with their hair. And⌠It stopped� did they fall that fast to the ground..?
NoâŚno⌠No! why.. NononoNO!
They feel a hand gripping tightly on the wrist. A familiar voice yelling for them to stay. A sound that is almost like someone sobbing..?
Lloyd hazily looks up to the person whoâs stopping them. Only to see Brad, His eyes red and bloodshot, Tears running down his face as he finally manages to pull Lloyd up. Brad falls to the ground and wraps his arms around his partner. Sobbing and hugging them tightly. Lloyd gets some anger inside of them because Brad stopped them. But they canât help but just stare blankly as Brad sobs that he almost lost lloyd.
âI-IâŚâ
Lloyd tries to get anything out to brad. But they canât. They just feel numb again, as Brad holds them.
After a few moments Brad gets it under control and wipes at his eyes. He then stands up and tightly holds Lloyd's hand, it doesnât hurt. But it doesnât matter. Brad waits for lloyd to stand up before they say
âI⌠I love you⌠Iâm sorry.. Iâm sorry Lloyd.â
Brad doesnât seem to know what to say at this moment. I mean⌠What can you say after you find your partner almost killing themselvesâŚ? âWhy?â âWhat about me?â âDonât leave?â âPeople are going to miss youâ âI will miss youâ No⌠None of it seems right⌠Brad just stays quiet and looks down at Lloyd, love in his eyes.
He hugs Lloyd again tightly and then lets go. Tightly holding Lloyd's hand.
The door to the top was still open from when Brad came running up here to get to Lloyd before it was too late.
Brad closed the door and walked down the stairs with lloyd.
Lloyd just blocked everything out and thought⌠They were almost free.. Free from it all. But they couldnât have it. They canât die apparently. Damn. Destiny really doesn't want Lloyd to die.
Fuck.