Griever At The End Of All Things - Tumblr Posts

"𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘳, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶."

Yes, and only in myself.

And it's scaring.

Every time I see her, i see her in the back of my mind, loving this mess that i used to be, i feel like i want to try so hard to be enough again, because it's the last thing she saw me do.

That was the last thing.

My last act of love.

My worst act of self love.

My horrific way to beg her to stay.

The worst part is that it was all in vain.

It didn't matter.

It would never matter because I can't go back and do it again for her.

It doesn't matter because it's all i have done.

i could, i would, do much more

If i can

If i could.

𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘪'𝘮 𝘴𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘦𝘹𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘵.

𝘋𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘢.