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Hard Carry(Mark-Got7)
Requested by: Ann
~Welcome to my world, let's do this. Call me an issue maker, I'm so ill. Wherever I go, the mood go higher. It's so loud outside the place, crazy energy~
You sighed and rubbed your eyes, still trying to catch your breath from the nightmare you just woke from. Every time you had it everything seemed to be real again, your mother standing over you as she screamed. Your cheek stinging from where she had just hit you, making you fall to the floor while holding your face and trying to stay strong. It was never easy, watching the past over and over again every single night and sometimes you were so scared of reliving it that you wouldn't sleep for days.
You heard your door creak as it was pushed open and you saw your younger brother Yugyeom step in, walking over to you to sit on the edge of the bed. He wasn't your real brother, in fact about six years ago you were put up for adoption when your mother was caught by the police one night. Turns out your neighbors had been home and called the cops, thank god for that because that night she had really lost it. You never really knew what you had done wrong, only knowing that she always would claim you weren't hers, even when you were little she'd say that.
~How I'm doing? Everybody knows it. But I'm not full yet, hungry. Whatever it is, I won't lose spirit. In other words, I have a fighting spirit~
That's when Yugyeom's parents, your new parents, adopted you and took you under their wing. You truly loved them though, they treated you as if you were their own flesh and blood and yugyeom looked up to you. It made you feel safe and protected, so when your nightmares had started to come back recently you didn't tell them because you didn't want them to worry.
"Was it the nightmare again?" Yugyeom asked you softly.
You nodded, but chose not to say anything since you didn't want to worry him either. You didn't even tell him about the nightmares, but one night you two were home alone and the nightmare had gotten so bad that you ended up screaming. Of course yugyeom was freaked out and wouldn't leave your side for the rest off the night, but you had somehow convinced him not to tell your parents. He still didn't know what the nightmares were about though, he also didn't know anything about how you come to be up for adoption.
~Once I appear, the game is over. I get everything I want. I know how to flow with the water. Again today, I do what I have to, hard carry~
"Yah, Ann-ah they're getting worse. I think we should tell mom and dad now."
You shook your head, quickly dismissing the idea. "It'll be fine, yuggie. Come on, do you want to stay in here?"
He nodded and crawled under the covers on the other side of the bed, reaching down and touching his hand to yours to show you that you weren't alone. And smiling you finally drifted off into a dreamless, and more importantly, a nightmare-less sleep.
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You woke up the next morning to the sunlight streaming in through the windows and the birds faintly chirping outside. You turned your head and saw Yugyeom still beside you, curled up into a ball under the covers which made you smile. After you covered him up you got out of bed and headed into the bathroom to get ready for the day.
~Let's fly again, fly again, fly again I got this right, don't worry about tomorrow. Today, I'll hard carry only for you~
You washed your face and stared at your reflection in the mirror, and seeing bruises and cuts around your face you gasped and quickly rubbed your eyes. When you opened them again the bruises and cuts were gone, leaving you with sad eyes staring at yourself. Just go away, you thought to yourself as you quickly fled the bathroom. You ended up downstairs, noticing that your parents weren't there which meant that they had gone to work already.
You fixed Yugyeom and yourself some breakfast, although you weren't going to be able to eat anything. You were used to the nightmares by now but you'd never had any hallucinations, and that scared you so much you didn't know what to do. Breakfast was finished by the time you heard rustling coming from upstairs, meaning Yugyeom was awake and headed down here. So by the time he had gotten downstairs, you had fixed his plate and had him sit down then kissed his head before walking to the front door and gathering your things.
"Ann-ah, you have work today?"
"Hm, oh ani. I'm just going to the store for some things, I'll be back soon though don't worry."
"Do you want me to come with you?" He asked as he looked down at you, that's right your younger brother was basically a good foot taller than you.
"Ah, aniyo. I'll be fine," you reassured him before grabbing your stuff and telling him to call you then heading out the door and off to your destination.
~Hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry~
It had been almost an hour since you left the house and you were now currently standing the cafe's bathroom, bent over the sink and hyperventilating. You didn't really know what had happened, one second you were completely fine but then you heard some lady start yelling and you just started like you were going to suffocate. People started touching you which didn't help you at all, just made you panic even more and you made a break for it and found sanctuary in the nearest bathroom.
"Uhm, are you alright?"
Your eyes widened as you realized that the voice was too deep to be a woman's, which most likely meant that you had ran into the men's bathroom. Perfect. You kept trying to get your breathe back when you felt a hand start rubbing your back. The man helped you calm down and walked off to the side, then after hearing the faucet running you felt a damp paper towel wiping your forehead to help cool you down.
~I've never lost a game before. I always see the end, overflowing with passion. We have slight foam but we don't lose when it comes to playing – A skilled gambler~
You felt the towel drop from you face and heard a noise of confusion. "Ann-ah?"
Your eyes darted quickly to see Mark, one of Yugyeom's close friends. "Mark?"
"Hey, are you alright? What are you doing in here?"
"Uhm, I-I'm fine. I, uh, just had a panic attack."
He raised an eyebrow at you, "You have panic attacks?"
"Well, no. This was the first one to be honest."
His eyes widened as he got his phone out, probably to call Yugyeom, and panicking you grabbed his phone from him. "What are you doing?"
"You can't tell Yugyeom."
~The password and ID to this atmosphere, save it. A lot of people call me out again today. After the performance is over, I'm on the plane again. No other comfortable pillow than a cloud~
"Ann-ah, this is serious! You can't be alone when you have a panic attack! This is serious, you could have passed out and no one would have known until someone saw you in here."
"I don't care," You handed his phone back to him. "He can't know. Please, Mark."
Mark sighed and set his phone back into his pocket, giving up for now. "Fine, but I'm walking you back home and you're explaining things to me."
He grabbed your arm and helped you stand up, before leading you by your hand out of the cafe. Eventually you guys reached a park and sat on a bench, you closing your eyes as you felt the wind blow your hair back. Here goes nothing, you thought to yourself as you got ready to tell your story to him.
"Uhm, did my parents ever tell you how I came to be adopted?"
He looked over to me confused, "Uhm, no they didn't."
"Good, that means they probably haven't told anyone." You took a deep breath to prepare yourself and looked down at your hands in your lap. "Uhm, the reason I was put up for adoption was because years ago I was abused by my mother."
~Once I appear, the game is over. I get everything I want. I know how to flow with the water. Again today, I do what I have to, hard carry. Let's fly again, fly again, fly again. I got this right, don't worry about tomorrow. Today, I'll hard carry only for you~
Mark stayed silent as he listened to you tell your life story, and you thanked him for that. Knowing that he wasn't going to pity you really made you feel more relief than you thought possible. After you were finished you were staring out over a small pond, watching as a mother duck and her ducklings swam around.
"Yugyeom doesn't know, does he?"
"No," you replied to his question simply.
"I won't tell him," he said softly which made you look over to him relieved.
"You won't?"
He shook his head and looked down at his hands. "It's not my story to tell, but can I share my opinion?" You nodded your head and watched him as he chose his words carefully. "I think you should tell him. I get why you didn't before, he was young and probably wouldn't know how to respond. But he's older now and he really loves you a lot. I think if you were to tell him, to talk to someone else about this it, it wouldn't just help him feel closer to you but it would also help you."
~Hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry~
"How?"
He smiled a little before answering, rubbing the back of his neck. "Didn't telling me help you?"
You turned back around, facing the pond again, as you realized that you did indeed feel better. It wasn't like you had forgotten everything, but you felt as if your chest was lighter. Like a burden had been lifted from your shoulders. You turned to face Mark as he was watching you with a soft smile.
You felt heat rush to your cheeks as you turned away again, "It did. Thank you for listening to me Mark."
He reached his hand out, and instead of flinching away like you normally would, you felt calm as he pushed a strand of hair away from your eyes. "Come on," he said standing and reaching out a hand. "Let's get you home."
~If you wanna get this, do as you did. Without a care, just let it be. I wanna be light in the darkness. I just wanna blow your mind, I just wanna show my mind~
The rest of the walk home was spent with you two laughing and him telling ridiculous stories to lighten the mood. After you two reached home, Yugyeom opened the door and looked confused from you to Mark and back again. Both of you were smiling and patted Yugyeom on the head as you headed inside, him hitting Mark's hand away and pouting before pulling you into a tight hug. You immediately hugging back, feeling lucky to have an amazing new family and a new person who you could confide in. And as embarrassing as it was to admit it, you silently found yourself hoping that one day you and Mark could learn even more about each other and develop your friendship.
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