Hard Carry(Mark-Got7)

Hard Carry(Mark-Got7)

Requested by: Ann

~Welcome to my world, let's do this. Call me an issue maker, I'm so ill. Wherever I go, the mood go higher. It's so loud outside the place, crazy energy~

You sighed and rubbed your eyes, still trying to catch your breath from the nightmare you just woke from. Every time you had it everything seemed to be real again, your mother standing over you as she screamed. Your cheek stinging from where she had just hit you, making you fall to the floor while holding your face and trying to stay strong. It was never easy, watching the past over and over again every single night and sometimes you were so scared of reliving it that you wouldn't sleep for days.

You heard your door creak as it was pushed open and you saw your younger brother Yugyeom step in, walking over to you to sit on the edge of the bed. He wasn't your real brother, in fact about six years ago you were put up for adoption when your mother was caught by the police one night. Turns out your neighbors had been home and called the cops, thank god for that because that night she had really lost it. You never really knew what you had done wrong, only knowing that she always would claim you weren't hers, even when you were little she'd say that.

~How I'm doing? Everybody knows it. But I'm not full yet, hungry. Whatever it is, I won't lose spirit. In other words, I have a fighting spirit~

That's when Yugyeom's parents, your new parents, adopted you and took you under their wing. You truly loved them though, they treated you as if you were their own flesh and blood and yugyeom looked up to you. It made you feel safe and protected, so when your nightmares had started to come back recently you didn't tell them because you didn't want them to worry.

"Was it the nightmare again?" Yugyeom asked you softly.

You nodded, but chose not to say anything since you didn't want to worry him either. You didn't even tell him about the nightmares, but one night you two were home alone and the nightmare had gotten so bad that you ended up screaming. Of course yugyeom was freaked out and wouldn't leave your side for the rest off the night, but you had somehow convinced him not to tell your parents. He still didn't know what the nightmares were about though, he also didn't know anything about how you come to be up for adoption.

~Once I appear, the game is over. I get everything I want. I know how to flow with the water. Again today, I do what I have to, hard carry~

"Yah, Ann-ah they're getting worse. I think we should tell mom and dad now."

You shook your head, quickly dismissing the idea. "It'll be fine, yuggie. Come on, do you want to stay in here?"

He nodded and crawled under the covers on the other side of the bed, reaching down and touching his hand to yours to show you that you weren't alone. And smiling you finally drifted off into a dreamless, and more importantly, a nightmare-less sleep.

~~

You woke up the next morning to the sunlight streaming in through the windows and the birds faintly chirping outside. You turned your head and saw Yugyeom still beside you, curled up into a ball under the covers which made you smile. After you covered him up you got out of bed and headed into the bathroom to get ready for the day.

~Let's fly again, fly again, fly again I got this right, don't worry about tomorrow. Today, I'll hard carry only for you~

You washed your face and stared at your reflection in the mirror, and seeing bruises and cuts around your face you gasped and quickly rubbed your eyes. When you opened them again the bruises and cuts were gone, leaving you with sad eyes staring at yourself. Just go away, you thought to yourself as you quickly fled the bathroom. You ended up downstairs, noticing that your parents weren't there which meant that they had gone to work already.

You fixed Yugyeom and yourself some breakfast, although you weren't going to be able to eat anything. You were used to the nightmares by now but you'd never had any hallucinations, and that scared you so much you didn't know what to do. Breakfast was finished by the time you heard rustling coming from upstairs, meaning Yugyeom was awake and headed down here. So by the time he had gotten downstairs, you had fixed his plate and had him sit down then kissed his head before walking to the front door and gathering your things.

"Ann-ah, you have work today?"

"Hm, oh ani. I'm just going to the store for some things, I'll be back soon though don't worry."

"Do you want me to come with you?" He asked as he looked down at you, that's right your younger brother was basically a good foot taller than you.

"Ah, aniyo. I'll be fine," you reassured him before grabbing your stuff and telling him to call you then heading out the door and off to your destination.

~Hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry~

It had been almost an hour since you left the house and you were now currently standing the cafe's bathroom, bent over the sink and hyperventilating. You didn't really know what had happened, one second you were completely fine but then you heard some lady start yelling and you just started like you were going to suffocate. People started touching you which didn't help you at all, just made you panic even more and you made a break for it and found sanctuary in the nearest bathroom.

"Uhm, are you alright?"

Your eyes widened as you realized that the voice was too deep to be a woman's, which most likely meant that you had ran into the men's bathroom. Perfect. You kept trying to get your breathe back when you felt a hand start rubbing your back. The man helped you calm down and walked off to the side, then after hearing the faucet running you felt a damp paper towel wiping your forehead to help cool you down.

~I've never lost a game before. I always see the end, overflowing with passion. We have slight foam but we don't lose when it comes to playing – A skilled gambler~

You felt the towel drop from you face and heard a noise of confusion. "Ann-ah?"

Your eyes darted quickly to see Mark, one of Yugyeom's close friends. "Mark?"

"Hey, are you alright? What are you doing in here?"

"Uhm, I-I'm fine. I, uh, just had a panic attack."

He raised an eyebrow at you, "You have panic attacks?"

"Well, no. This was the first one to be honest."

His eyes widened as he got his phone out, probably to call Yugyeom, and panicking you grabbed his phone from him. "What are you doing?"

"You can't tell Yugyeom."

~The password and ID to this atmosphere, save it. A lot of people call me out again today. After the performance is over, I'm on the plane again. No other comfortable pillow than a cloud~

"Ann-ah, this is serious! You can't be alone when you have a panic attack! This is serious, you could have passed out and no one would have known until someone saw you in here."

"I don't care," You handed his phone back to him. "He can't know. Please, Mark."

Mark sighed and set his phone back into his pocket, giving up for now. "Fine, but I'm walking you back home and you're explaining things to me."

He grabbed your arm and helped you stand up, before leading you by your hand out of the cafe. Eventually you guys reached a park and sat on a bench, you closing your eyes as you felt the wind blow your hair back. Here goes nothing, you thought to yourself as you got ready to tell your story to him.

"Uhm, did my parents ever tell you how I came to be adopted?"

He looked over to me confused, "Uhm, no they didn't."

"Good, that means they probably haven't told anyone." You took a deep breath to prepare yourself and looked down at your hands in your lap. "Uhm, the reason I was put up for adoption was because years ago I was abused by my mother."

~Once I appear, the game is over. I get everything I want. I know how to flow with the water. Again today, I do what I have to, hard carry. Let's fly again, fly again, fly again. I got this right, don't worry about tomorrow. Today, I'll hard carry only for you~

Mark stayed silent as he listened to you tell your life story, and you thanked him for that. Knowing that he wasn't going to pity you really made you feel more relief than you thought possible. After you were finished you were staring out over a small pond, watching as a mother duck and her ducklings swam around.

"Yugyeom doesn't know, does he?"

"No," you replied to his question simply.

"I won't tell him," he said softly which made you look over to him relieved.

"You won't?"

He shook his head and looked down at his hands. "It's not my story to tell, but can I share my opinion?" You nodded your head and watched him as he chose his words carefully. "I think you should tell him. I get why you didn't before, he was young and probably wouldn't know how to respond. But he's older now and he really loves you a lot. I think if you were to tell him, to talk to someone else about this it, it wouldn't just help him feel closer to you but it would also help you."

~Hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry. Let it flow, let it flow now. Shake you up, put you up and down, hard carry~

"How?"

He smiled a little before answering, rubbing the back of his neck. "Didn't telling me help you?"

You turned back around, facing the pond again, as you realized that you did indeed feel better. It wasn't like you had forgotten everything, but you felt as if your chest was lighter. Like a burden had been lifted from your shoulders. You turned to face Mark as he was watching you with a soft smile.

You felt heat rush to your cheeks as you turned away again, "It did. Thank you for listening to me Mark."

He reached his hand out, and instead of flinching away like you normally would, you felt calm as he pushed a strand of hair away from your eyes. "Come on," he said standing and reaching out a hand. "Let's get you home."

~If you wanna get this, do as you did. Without a care, just let it be. I wanna be light in the darkness. I just wanna blow your mind, I just wanna show my mind~

The rest of the walk home was spent with you two laughing and him telling ridiculous stories to lighten the mood. After you two reached home, Yugyeom opened the door and looked confused from you to Mark and back again. Both of you were smiling and patted Yugyeom on the head as you headed inside, him hitting Mark's hand away and pouting before pulling you into a tight hug. You immediately hugging back, feeling lucky to have an amazing new family and a new person who you could confide in. And as embarrassing as it was to admit it, you silently found yourself hoping that one day you and Mark could learn even more about each other and develop your friendship.

Better Day(Rokhyun-100%)

Requested by: -swegchicken

~You were more potent than anything, it's good that we broke up. But even if you were poison this place without you doesn't feel right. I wanna go back to your lips. When you sweetly melted me, to the day I swore that I'll only look at you~

You turned your phone screen off and sipped your tea as you waited for your friend to show up. Looking out the window, you realized that the whether forecast was actually right today since it started to rain lightly. You layed you head in your hand and stared out the window at the clouds and hoped that it wouldn't storm too hard since you had to walk back home.

"Stupid flipping whether," y/f/n said as she sat down in front of you, damp from the rain.

"What? You don't check the forecast?" You asked her as you laughed at her frustration.

She narrowed her eyes at you, "No. Who the hell checks that besides parents?"

"Uhm, lots of people actually do. Especially if they have plans, so they can see if they'll need a coat or something. Doof."

She looked to me in disbelief than shook her head. "It doesn't matter. Did you order for me?"

You froze, your cup halfway to your mouth, and looked up at her innocently. "I didn't know you wanted me to."

She rolled her eyes and stood up. "I'll be back."

~I wanna go back to your lips. When you sweetly melted me, to the day I swore that I'll only look at you~

You smirked as you watched her leave the table and head to the counter, loving the fact that you could get away with anything when it came to her. Looking back towards the window you froze in shock when you saw your ex boyfriend, Rokhyun, and his friends jog across your vision and head to the door. When you heard the door open, you quickly turned your body to where it was angled towards the window since you didn't want them to see you.

Y/f/n sat back down in front of you, now with her drink in her hand, and was looking at you confused. "Uhm, what are you doing y/-"

"Shh," you quickly shushed her quietly before peeking over your shoulder to see if Rokhyun had heard. "Rokhyun's here," you whispered as she peeked over at them slyly.

Her eyes widened and she leaned her own head against her palm, angling herself towards the window as well to hide herself. You smiled at her in thanks and sipped your drink. "Do you want to leave?" She said as she peeked over to the guys.

~Even if it hurts so strongly I will go back to you. Though I know it's crazy, I will go look for you~

You thought about it and then decided that it would probably be best for you two to leave. Honestly, you didn't want to run into him since the breakup hadn't exactly been smooth and simple. The two of you stood from your table, quietly since you were trying not to catch their attention, and started to head towards the door.

But of course, you being you, you tripped and stumbled into someone's chest as they wrapped their arms around you and kept you from falling. You heard y/f/n gasp and then slowly looked up at who caught you, seeing the face that you were trying to escape from. Rokhyun's eyes widened as he looked down at your face in surprise, not expecting to see you here.

You got your balance and stepped away from him, looking away and then turned and continued your previous walk to escape the building. Y/f/n was right behind you, putting her arm over your shoulder in comfort as you two walked away from the building.

"You alright?" She asked as she patted your shoulder softly.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just surprised is all," you told her as you focused your gaze on your feet.

"Y/n! Wait, y/n!"

~I'm addicted to you. This fatal poison spread deeply in me. I think your existence is the only reason I live~

You and y/f/n stopped short, her turning to look behind you but you stayed facing straight ahead. You heard footsteps running towards you, getting closer every second and making you want to run  away from them. You stayed still though, not really knowing what to do when they stopped behind you two. Hearing him breathing right behind you was seriously messing you up, you hadn't been this close to him since weeks before you guys called your relationship to an end.

"Y/n," Rokhyun said as he stepped closer to you. "Can we talk?"

Three months, you thought in dismay, we haven't seen each other in three months. Why do you want to talk now? I haven't even gotten over you yet! Please don't do this to me.

You sighed and turned to face him with sad eyes, finding yourself staring at a spot above his shoulder and not being able to look him in the eyes. "I don't think that would be best."

He sighed and grabbed your chin, gently turning your head to face him directly. Then staring into your eyes, something which always took your breath away, he pleaded silently to you. You closed your eyes and took a step back away from him, reluctantly agreeing to listen to what he wanted to say.

~I'm going crazy. My reflection in the mirror looks like a beggar. I wanna lay next to you again, I wanna go back~

He smiled softly as he watched you tap the toe of your shoe against the ground, something you always did when you were nervous. Y/f/n had left a couple minutes ago, deciding it would be best for you two to talk. "I missed that," he muttered which made you look up at him with confusion.

"What?" You asked, wanting him to speak louder so you could understand him. You hated when he did that, he always would talk too softly until you made him repeat what he said, and it always got under your skin.

He chuckled, knowing what his muttering did to you and slowly walked closer to where you stood. You took quick steps backwards, realizing you were in a pickle when your back hit a wall. You started to curse walls ever being made as you watched Rokhyun stop right in front of you, close enough so you could smell the cologne that was always your favorite. He grabbed a strand of hair that was hanging in your face and pushed it back behind your ear, then leaned closer and layed his forehead against your own.

~Give me a chance to hurt again, bury your scar in me. Because you're the place I need to stay, though I know it's crazy~

You stared at his chest with wide eyes, not knowing what was happening. Not understanding why he was doing this all of a sudden, since after all he was the one who came up with the idea that you two should separate. You gulped nervously, then looked up at him only to see him staring down at you with a sad smile on his face.

He placed his palm on your cheek, making you unconsciously lean into his familiar palm. You pulled away once you realized what you were doing and pushed lightly against his chest. "Don't do this Rokhyun."

He didn't budge no matter how hard you pushed at his chest, instead he leaned closer and layed his head on your shoulder and took a deep breath. "God, I missed how you smell. I miss the way you feel in my arms. I miss everything about you, y/n."

You stayed frozen, not wanting to hear this but wanting to at the same time. You were torn, confused on whether you should believe what he was saying or whether this was some sick game he played now. Your thoughts though, were broken when you felt something wet fall against your shoulder and looking up you noticed that you were under an awning, the rain falling no where near you and Rokhyun.

~I will go look for you, I wanna turn back time. Finally, I'm chasing after your shadow that has already left.Then I'm looking for your traces, though I sway when I get drunk. Why do my footsteps start walking to your house? I wanna go back~

He's crying, you thought in surprise as you tried to turn your head towards him. He never cries, at least never around me. Rokhyun pulled you closer and buried his face in your neck, silently begging you not to look at him as he cried and let you know how much he was actually hurting.

Silently, you wrapped your arms around his waist and patted his back to comfort him as he tried to control his emotions. You didn't know how you were supposed to respond to Rokhyun crying, of course you were trying to comfort him but it was still so strange to see him crying. You guys had gone out for 2 years and never once throughout those years did he ever cry in front of you, which made you start to wonder whether he would cry any time you weren't around.

"Rokhyun," you said softly, "Why have you never told me how you felt before?"

He brought his head away from your neck and your heart broke when you saw his eyes were red from his tears, then he turned his head away to wipe the tears. You stopped him though, bringing your hands up to his face and wiping the tears away yourself. He leaned his face into your palm and kissed your wrist before you brought your hands down and waited for him to answer.

~Even if it's an obvious end. Even if the same answers repeat because I exist for you~

He shook his head, "I didn't think you would want to talk to me after we broke up and before I didn't think it mattered. I was making that decision because I thought it was best for you."

You felt tears well up in your eyes and punched his arm making him jump and start rubbing his arm to help the pain go away. "Ouch, y/n what the hell?"

You punched him again, taking a step closer with every punch you landed. "You stupid butthole! You made that decision because you thought it was best for me?! That's not your decision to make!"

He caught your hands in his as he watched with widened eyes as tears fell from your eyes and down your cheeks. "Baby, hey." He grabbed your arms and layed your head on his chest. "I'm so sorry." He told you as he rubbed your back and kissed your head. "I thought that that's what you wanted, I mean we never talked much anymore and I thought you hated me."

~No matter who tries to stop me, I will go to you somehow. Even if I walk through dangerous fields of thorn I will go to you again~

"I loved you and I still love you, you big idiot." You said as you brought your head up to look at him through teary eyes.

He smiled softly then layed his head against yours again, looking into your eyes. "I love you too, baby."

He titled his head and showed you his words were true by kissing you softly, and making your stomach erupt in butterflies as you slowly started to kiss him back. The both of you made up by showing each other how much you still loved one another, by sharing small kisses and staying wrapped up in each other's arms.

"You know," Rokhyun said as he rested his chin on your head. "I'll be surprised if we don't get sick from standing out in the rain for so long."

"Who cares," you muttered. "You take care of me, I take care you. Right?"

"Right." He smiled down at you and kissed you once again, sealing the unspoken promise.

U(Seung Jun-KNK)

~I hate you but I need you. I hate you but I miss you. Your beautiful and dazzling eyes, it doesn't shine anymore. Your warm lips speak coldly now~

His POV:

"Hyung, how're you feeling?"

I ignored Jihun, instead focusing my attention solely on the picture frame I held in my palms. The picture that was trapped in between the glass and back piece, the picture of you and me on our three year anniversary. I smiled as I looked at you, remembering how you always managed to look so beautiful even when you said that you didn't try. We were both happy, with huge smiles on our faces as we looked to the camera.

I faintly heard Jihun let out a sigh then walk out of the room, leaving me to be alone. In the room I've locked myself in since you left. I've barely eaten, only when the guys can convince me to. I just sit there, staring at our pictures, at the life we used to share together, and hating myself for letting you go. There was no way I could make you stay though, and I hated myself for that. I hated you, hated you for making me love you so much that I feel like I've lost a part of me completely now that you're gone.

~You, I'm sorry baby say goodbye. I hate you. My hands can't let go of you, my heart still calls out to you. No matter how much I stretch out I can't reach you, that's how far your heart has gotten. I can't hold onto you~

I remember that night, the fight we had about the stupidest little thing then you stormed off crying after I said words I didn't mean. When I told you that I hated you, that I hated our relationship, your face crumpled. I hated seeing it, it hurt me so much watching how my words affected you. Words that I never even meant, but that is the price I have to pay for making you leave. Making you run into your car when it was storming and drive away.

I don't mind living with the guilt, it makes me remember you and I love that. I love living in our memories, remembering our fights then our make-ups. Remembering the way you felt in my arms though, that's my favorite. Sometimes, I honestly felt like if I closed my eyes I could feel your warmth against me. That's what I miss the most, not being able to hold you.

I hated the fact that I'll never get to wake up and see you in the morning, sleeping soundly with little snores escaping. They were cute and they made me love you even more. I remember on our days off, you'd wake me up by giving me little kisses all over my face. I'd smile and wake up, then I'd hug you to me and give you a long kiss. One that would show you how much I loved having you there. And then I messed everything up, and now I'll never be able to experience those things again.

~It's over, why am I the only one hurting? It's over, I curse at you and hate you but in the end, I'm calling out to you again. Hurry and hold me~

"Can't you do just help out around here once?! I'm not asking you to clean the whole flipping house, but it would be nice if you could stop playing your stupid games and help out once or twice!"

I watched as you screamed at me, finally getting fed up with how I acted around here. "Well, I'm sorry that I go to work and want to come home and do nothing but relax! What the hell happened to this relationship?! You ruined it by nagging so frikin much! Jeez, and you know what if you don't like that then get the hell out, because I'm the one who owns this house not you and I'm tired of you doing this crap!"

"Fine," you said as you wiped your eyes and walked into the front foyer. Then after grabbing your wallet, jacket, and phone you left the house.

Now that I think about it, she was right to yell at me about not helping out. I didn't and now I can't do anything to make it right because you were gone. I still curse that car, curse God for making it rain, curse myself for being the reason you left crying. I miss you, so so much. I'm so sorry, I can't ever tell you how sorry I am. With that last thought, I drifted off into a nightmare filled sleep clutching our picture to my chest.

~Hurry and save me from this endless maze, take me out of this darkness without any light. Everything has stopped. My watch is broken, it's ticking in place. I'll be waiting for you~

"Hyung!" I ignored the voice, not really knowing where it was coming from.

"Seungjun!! Seungjun, wake up!"

I bolted up, sweating and gasping for air as Youjin and Jihun were kneeling beside me. They were looking at me with concern and wide eyes, though they knew this wasn't the first time I've had nightmares. Not even close to being the first time. I have them every time I close my eyes, even if I just rest them I see you dying in my arms every time. I didn't really understand it, I wasn't even near you when you died.

"Seungjun are you alright? Was it the nightmare again?"

I couldn't find my voice so I just settled for nodding, wiping my forehead as I let out a shaky breath. I felt Jihun rub my back and closed my eyes in relief, so glad to know that I wasn't alone. I felt tears start to form in the corners of my eyes, but I held them back since I didn't want them to see me break. I didn't deserve anyone's reassurance, I didn't deserve people telling me that it would be okay.

~I can't do anything without you, I close my eyes but I still see you. The more time passes, the deeper my longing grows. In there, I'm drawing you out~

"Hyung, it-"

"Don't! Don't tell me it's going to be okay! It's not going to be okay, and I don't want it to be okay!" I shouted as I stood from the bed and walked to my dressers.

"Seungjun, what are you doing?"

"I'm going out for a while. I need to clear my head, and I don't like taking it out on you guys so I need to be alone."

Youjin sighed and layed his hand on my shoulder, "Alright. If you need anything call us, okay?"

I nodded, keeping my head down since I didn't want to look at them. I didn't want them to see my face, the look of determination as I gathered my clothes and got ready. I was done, done living with this regret and grief. I'd decided to finally get rid of this pain, but I wasn't going to tell them that. I just wanted to see you again, to hold you in my arms once more and bury my nose in your hair. I'd do anything to feel that again and to be able to smell your shampoo.

~It's over, why am I the only one hurting? It's over, I curse at you and hate you but. In the end, I'm calling out to you again. Hurry and hold me~

-time skip-

I stood at the edge, looking out over the water as I debated my decision once more. Did I really want to do this? Leave my friends and family behind, but be able to see you once more. I did, and so I stepped over the railing but my hands kept their hold. I looked out once more, closing my eyes as I felt the wind push against me as if it were trying to get me to go back. To not make this decision.

But I didn't, I'd made my decision and I planned on going through with it. I was tired, sick and tired of not having you here. Of being the reason why you weren't here. And if I were to be honest, I was excited and happy at the thought of getting to see you again. My eyes widened as lightning suddenly stroke across the sky, then watched in disbelief and wonder as it started to rain. Hard.

Well, isn't this ironic? It must be fate that it started to rain. I closed my eyes, your perfect face etching itself into my mind once more as I felt myself relax. I was ready, ready to accept this. Ready to see you. And so, I started to let go of the railing.

~I need you, come back to me so I can breathe again, I don't care if it hurts. I only need you, I need you. I need you U, U, U, U. I need you U, U, U, U. I need you U, U, U, U. I only need you, I need you, I need you~

"No!"

My eyes popped open when I heard your voice, and I was starting to believe that I had actually gone mad. That losing you and then missing you had actually brought me to lunacy. But that proved to be wrong when I saw your sweet face above me. I noticed that you were talking to me, but I couldn't focus. You were here. You were in front of me and I wanted nothing more to grab you and kiss you. So that's what I did.

I grabbed your face and gave you a long kiss, showing you how much I missed you. How much I love you. How much regret I had about that night. And you accepted it, you accepted me. Then after pulling away you cupped my cheeks and wiped away the tears I had not noticed had fallen. You smiled at me and I felt like my soul had been replenished just seeing the sight.

~Your voice that called out to me, your warm eyes, all of you. It still remains so clearly with me but where are you? Where are you now? I can't live without you. I hate you but I need you. I hate you but I miss you~

You shook your head and layed your forehead against mine, closing your eyes as I stared at you. Etching everything onto my mind so I would never forget, not that I had to anymore. I smiled as you opened your eyes, and I stared into them remembering how much I loved getting lost in them.

"It's not time, Seungjun." I looked to you confused, wondering why I couldn't speak. Wondering what you meant. "Seungjun, you need to go back."

I instantly shook my head, I didn't want to go away from you. I wanted to stay here, by your side where I belonged. You let your tears fall as you put your palms on either side of my face and made me look at you, making sure I listened to what you said.

"It is not your time yet, Seungjun. I don't want you to come here this way. Go back, they need you. When your time comes I will be here, waiting for you. But that time is not now." I panicked as I watched you stand and start to back away, reaching my hand out to try and grab onto you so you wouldn't leave me again.

"Oh, and Seungjun? Forgive yourself, alright? It wasn't your fault and I know you love me. I love you too, so forgive yourself and remember the good times. Not the bad."

~I need you, come back to me so I can breathe again, I don't care if it hurts. I only need you, I need you. I need you U, U, U, U. I need you U, U, U, U. I need you U, U, U, U. I only need you, I need you~

That was the last I heard from you before I was enveloped in a bright light, I didn't know it was taking but I knew you wouldn't be there. Why couldn't I call out to you? Why couldn't I stay, like I wanted to?

"Seungjun! Seungjun, come on. Breathe!"

"Hyung!"

I gasped, water spilling from my mouth as I coughed and hacked before finally regaining my breath. I layed my head on the ground and looked around at the worried faces of the guys, my best friends and brothers. Youjin and Jihun helped me up before Inseong covered me with his jacket.

"I'm sorry," I croaked out as I was finally able to speak. "I just miss her so much."

The guys said nothing, instead huddling around me and comforting me like I was finally admitting I needed. I was glad to have them, glad they were here to help me. I looked out over the ocean through the heavy downpour of rain, remembering the last things I heard you say.

"Oh, and Seungjun? Forgive yourself, alright? It wasn't your fault and I know you love me. I love you too, so forgive yourself and remember the good times. Not the bad."

I will, I vowed silently to you over the water. I'll never forget, but I'll try to forgive. I love you.

Party Rock(Sungjun-Boys Republic)

~Hello Ayyy, we've met for the first time so I'm sorry baby but I want to sit next to you, for real. Oh, not even the Louvre Museum contains, yeah a beauty like you~

"Ugh~" You groaned as you rolled over and coughed, throwing the blanket off of your body. You were laying in bed and you were sick, your nose was running and your throat felt like it was raw. Your nose was red and hurt from having to blow it so many times, and you still couldn't breathe so you had your mouth open slightly to be able to breathe properly.

"Knock knock," you heard a soft voice say from the door making you look over and see your husband Sungjun coming in with a tray in his hands. "Hey jagi, I made you some soup and fixed you some orange juice. Do you think you'll be able to eat?"

You smiled over at him and covered your mouth and nose with your blanket. "Yeah, just lay it on the nightstand and I'll get it."

He set it on the nightstand and sat beside you then started to stroke your hair back away from your face, "Will you quit covering your face? I've already told you I don't care if you get me sick."

"Yes, I know but I care. I'd feel even more awful if I got you sick." You closed your eyes as he kept stroking your hair lovingly, not even sure if he heard what you said since it sounded like you were croaking and your voice was also muffled by the blanket.

~Yeah here and there, everyone's a superstar but only you shine. Your star is like Orion, pulling me stronger to you. Na na na na na, become my star tonight. Yes, oh gimme gimme party rock~

He smiled  and pulled the blanket away from your face then leaned down and kissed your forehead. "Come on," he told you as he put his hands underneath your back and helped you sit up. "I'll feed you, I remember you liked it when I fed you last time you were sick."

You blushed and were thankful that Sungjun wouldn't be able to see it since you were already flushed from your fever. Silently though, you were happy that he remembered that you loved it when he did sweet things like this. You watched him as he blew on your soup to cool it then held the spoon out to you, waiting till after you [A/n: quick question...do you eat soup..? or do you drink it..??? o,o..whichever you guys think i guess.] it then he takes the spoon back and repeats the action until there's no more soup left in the bowl.

He helped you get comfortable after you were finished and layed a damp rag on your forehead, then he rubbed your arm as you closed you eyes and sighed. "I'll be back in a second, alright jagi? I'm going to go get your medicine."

You made a noise to acknowledge that you heard him, not wanting to say anything else since you didn't want to hurt your throat anymore. After hearing him walk out of the room you felt yourself slowly drift in and out of consciousness, then tiredly opened your eyes when you felt the bed dip. Sungjun was staring at a bottle of medicine with his eyebrows pulled together, probably trying to figure out how much he had to give me.

~I go crazy for you tonight, I'll steal your heart tonight before the night is over. We've gotta fire, we're gonna party rock. Woo woo ya ya ya, Woo. Call me and tell me you're going home soon~

It had been about two hours since Sungjun had given you your medicine and you had fallen asleep, now he was downstairs washing the dishes so you wouldn't have to when you were up and feeling better. After loading them in the dish washer he dried his hands and put the rest of the soup into a container then set it in the fridge for you to eat later.

He always hated seeing you sick, he always wanted to take the misery away from you and take it upon himself. He looked towards the stairs and debated upon whether he should go up there or not. I shouldn't bother her, he thought to himself and after fighting the urge to go upstairs and risk waking you he took a seat on the couch and turned on the TV, wanting to have something to distract him.

He looked at his phone when he heard it buzz and saw a text from Minsu, who was your best friend, asking how you were feeling. Sungjun messaged him and told him how you were and how you were currently taking a nap. He set his phone down and quickly stood up when he heard you start coughing. After he got to the room he peeked in and saw you sitting up and holding a tissue over your mouth as you kept coughing.

~Put your hands up to the rhythm. Slowly open your heart to the beat. It's alright alright, that's the real you. It's alright alright, that's the real me~

"Hey, you alright?" He sat beside you and rubbed your back and handed you your water when you were finished.

You nodded and took a sip of your drink and then leaned against him, thankful that he was there since you didn't want to be alone when you were sick. "Thank you," you said softly to him before taking another sip of water.

He smiled and kissed the side of your head, then after taking the glass from you and setting on the stand he leaned back against the pillows and layed your head on his chest. He smiled and pulled you closer when you snuggled closer to him. He hummed as he rubbed your back and looked up at the ceiling as he smiled.

~You know, guys who aren't good enough look at you and drool. I'm different, your desirable lips are on my cheeks, next to me. Na na na na na, don't think about a different guy today. Yes, oh gimme gimme park rock~

"Hey, Sungjun?"

He looked down at you when he heard you murmur. "Yeah?"

You peeked up at him, making him melt when he saw your big eyes looking up at him. "Thank you for helping me get better. I definitely feel better thanks to all you've done."

He smiled down at you and squeezed you closer, "I'll always be here when you're not feeling good jagi. Remember what we promised? In sickness and in health until death do us part."

You looked up at him confused, "Did you really just repeat our wedding vows?"

He looked at you innocently and said, "Yeah didn't it fit our situation perfectly?"

You started laughing, well what could be considered laughing since you still could barely breathe out of your nose and your throat hurt. Seeing you smile Sungjun joined in laughing and silently thanked god that you were feeling good enough to laugh, he wished that you would never stop smiling.

~I go crazy for you tonight, I'll steal your heart tonight before the night is over. We've gotta fire, we're gonna party rock. Woo woo ya ya ya, Woo. Call me and tell me you're going home soon~

It had been about half an hour since you two had quietened down and were slowly falling asleep. You snuggled closer to Sungjun and smiled when he wrapped his arms tighter around you. You looked up and him and smiled when you saw that he was already asleep, you started tracing his facial features and was so thankful that you got such an amazingly handsome husband to call your own.

"Thank you Sungjun," you whispered as you kissed his cheek then layed your head on his chest again and drifted off into sleep.

Beautiful, I Want You(JB-Got7)

Requested by: Ann

~Ooh woah~ Doo doo doo doo doo yeah~ Doo doo doo doo I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, my heart's fluttering. I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, everything stops~

"Y/n-ah, come on!"

"I'm coming," you yelled out as you grabbed your bags and hurried down the stairs.

"Y/n, have fun!" Your aunt said as she gave you a quick hug. "And Youngjae, you watch after her understood?"

"Eomma, she's a year older than me so shouldn't she be the one to look after me?" Youngjae, your cousin, said as he pouted and made you laugh.

You reached over and knocked on his head lightly. "I may be older, but you live here in Korea. I'm just visiting, so that's why you have to help me."

"Yah, hajima. Let's go,the guys are waiting. Bye, eomma! Appa!"

You waved goodbye to your aunt and uncle before youngjae grabbed your wrist and pulled you out the front to and to the van where the members in his group and his manager were waiting. Youngjae put our bags in the back and then ran to the door, sliding it open and yelling out greetings at the members which made you laugh. Jinyoung moved over on his seat, giving me room to hop in beside him. It had been a long time since you've seen him, but you both acted like you just saw each other yesterday and started talking about what all you've missed.

~ You reflect in my eyes (Baby you're so beautiful) I fill my heart with you (Baby let me know) You and me, just us two, everything stops in this moment~

Before you moved to the states, you and Jinyoung had been close friends and it just worked out to where him and Youngjae ended up in the same group. You didn't know the other members though, and listened closely as the introduced themselves to you. One guy, especially caught your attention when he smiled and said hello to you. You laughed along with Jinyoung, as they all joked around. Eventually they all started to sing along to the radio, making you smile but you just couldn't help but listen to the one who had caught your attention before.

His voice was like honey, you felt like you could never tire from listening to him sing. He looked at you, catching you while you were staring which made you widen your eyes and quickly look out the window. You mentally face palmed yourself and scolded yourself on staring at him. You felt Jinyoung poke your side and you turned to look at him, only to see him raising his eyebrows up and down to tease you. You hit his arm before turning back to the window, hearing him laugh and start joking around with the other guys. Eventually you felt your eyes starting to close, and you yawned quietly when you realized how tired you actually were and fell asleep listening to Jaebum's voice singing out a nice melody.

~So Cold, a world without you. So Dark, I can't see anything. Did I forget the feeling of my heart fluttering? So lonely, by myself, thinking about you~

You were shaken awake and you quickly opened your eyes, looking outside and seeing the airport outside the window. Yawning, you sat up and rubbed your eyes. Then you saw a face appear in front of you which made you catch your breath and start internally panicking when you realized who it was.

"You awake now?" JB asked you as he smiled softly. All you could do was nod as you stared at him with big eyes, making me look away while rubbing the back of his neck. "Uhm, the other members have already started to head inside. Ready to go?"

You nodded and quickly hoped outside, grabbing your bags and walking beside him as he led the two of you towards the others. Once you had caught up with them, Jinyoung and Youngjae walked over to you and made sure you were between them before starting their way inside. Inside the airport was utter chaos, well at least it was to you, there were fans screaming out the boys names and it seemed like their were hundreds of them.

"Holy crap," you muttered, amazed at how many people there were.

Youngjae laughed at you and leaned towards you, "Wave at them. They already know who you are."

~As if it's not a coincidence I am being pulled by you. Don't take your eyes off of me. Come closer to me so I can get to know you~

"Are you insane? I can't wave at them! What if they start stampeding or try to take my head off or something?!"

It was Jinyoung's turn to laugh now as he patted your shoulder. "They won't hurt you, y/n-ah. They already like you, see?"

You looked towards the many fans and waved shyly at them, making them call out your name and say hello. You smiled and waved more at them, then followed behind the boys and walked to out gate so we could board our flight. Somehow, you had ended up behind Jaebum as he walked beside the manager. Your eyes darted away when you realized you were once again staring, and you scolded yourself.

"You okay?" You looked up and quickly nodded at JB, silently answering his question. "That's good. I'm sorry if that was too much for you," he apologized as he nodded back to where the fans were.

"No, it's okay. It was actually pretty cool."

"Oh?"

"Yeah, I think it's cool how you guys have so many fans. And I'm glad to see that they all love you guys so much."

~I wanna make it so no one else can see you, I wanna hide you in the moonlight so only I can see you. I'll gather all the memories of you and engrave it in the moonlight – I want to color the night sky with you and me~

~~

You were all now settled in your hotel rooms as everyone relaxed from the long flight. Youngjae had gone over to BamBam and Yugyeom's room to hang out, leaving you to go on your phone and look at all the fantaken pictures from earlier. There were surprisingly a lot of you, and you stopped as you looked at some of them. A lot of people were talking about how pretty you were, and how you and Youngjae did look similar but all you could do was stare in horror at your picture.

"Oh my gosh," you said as you quickly turned the phone screen off. "I look awful. I didn't think I looked that bad! Holy crap, I can't believe I have pictures like that up on the internet now." You sighed and placed your forehead in your palms.

Knock knock. You stood and walked towards the door, opening it to see JB on the other side smiling down at you. Your eyes widened as you stood still, not daring to move even an inch.

"Hey, the guys were planning on going for a swim. Did you want to come?"

"Uhm, no I'm fine. Thank you though."

He looked at you concerned and tilted his head to the side, making you internally squeal at how cute he looked doing that. "You okay?"

~I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, my heart's fluttering. I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, everything stops. I'm falling for you (baby you're so beautiful) I'm lost in you (baby let me know) I can't hide my attraction to you~

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"You sure? I'll listen if you need to talk about something." He stepped inside the room, making you take a step when he got closer.

"I'm fine. Really."

"Hmm." Jaebum trailed off when he saw your phone screen on the bed, somehow it had turned on and you rushed to turn it off since it was still on your picture. "Hey, I saw that picture earlier."

"What?!" You turned to him quickly, forgetting about the phone and focusing on him.

"Yeah, it didn't look right though."

Your heart started to ache painfully as you face went blank. "Oh, yeah. It didn't, did it?"

~The light is disappearing tonight.Just you and me, just us two. We're laying under the shadow of the moonlight. I'm gonna hold you, girl i'mma hold you tight ay. Can you see my heart? It's being pulled to you. Don't take your eyes off of me, come closer to me so I can get to know you~

His eyes widened as he started to panic. "No! I didn't mean it looked bad, or that you looked bad!"

You looked to him confused, not really hearing him since he was talking so fast. "Huh?"

"What I meant is that, it didn't look right because it looked like they had edited it or something."

"Oh. Really?" You looked at the picture again and studied it carefully.

"Yeah, it looked different from how you look so I just assumed that they had edited it. I don't see why they would though, you look amazing without being edited."

Your eyes widened and you looked up at him quickly, a blush forming on your cheeks. "Uh...oh, uhm, thank you."

~I wanna make it so no one else can see you, I wanna hide you in the moonlight so only I can see you. I'll gather all the memories of you and engrave it in the moonlight – I want to color the night sky with you and me. I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, my heart's fluttering. I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, everything stops~

He nervously rubbed the back of his neck, a faint stroke of red on his cheeks as he nodded at you. "Uhm, uh-huh."

"Yah! Hyung, are you and y/n-ah coming or not?" Youngjae said walking into the room, stopping when he saw the blushes on both of your cheeks. He narrowed his eyes at JB and grabbed his shoulders, pulling him from the room. "Y/n-ah is off limits! You aren't allowed to do anything!"

"Wha-" You hurried after them. "Youngjae-ah! What are you doing?"

Jaebum had started to laugh and got Youngjae's hands off of his shoulders. "You do realize I'm older than you."

"She's my family. Family is off limits remember?"

"Hmm, but I never agreed to that." He said as he patted Youngjae's head and then winked at me before turning and heading down the hallway.

~You and me, underneath the moonlight. Close your eyes and softly lean on me. Just let me love you girl. I hope my heart reaches you. I wanna make it so no one else can see you, I wanna hide you in the moonlight so only I can see you. I'll gather all the memories of you and engrave it in the moonlight. I want to color the night sky with you and me~

"Y/n-ah, no!"

You laughed and raised your eyebrow at Youngjae. "What ever happened to me being the one to look after you since I'm older."

"Yah! You can't both use that excuse! That's not fair, y/n-ah!"

"Youngjae-ah, if anything happens. It happens, okay?"

"No! You could get hurt and then I'd have to hurt him, and that would be hard considering he's my leader!"

You hugged him and patted his head, "You just focus on your group's activities, okay?"

He sighed and rolled his eyes. "Fine, if anything happens though you'll tell me?"

"Sure," you laughed as you saw him shake his head and start muttering.

"See you later, y/n-ah. We're going swimming."

"Okay, have fun!"

Thank you for inviting me on your trip, Youngjae-ah. Smiling, you walked into your room and looked at the rest of the photos taken of you. Stopping and looking at a picture of you and Jaebum coming inside the airport and smiling at each other. Thank you fans.

~I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, my heart's fluttering. I see you, I see you and you're dazzling. You see me, look at me, everything stops~

Smile(Yuto-Pentagon)

Requested by: im_a_v_girl_BTS

~You make me smile alright, like that faraway dream I had every night. Stay by my side, give me a smile that's sweeter than candy. Smile like a child, show me your smile. Did you land on the wrong planet? Are you allowed to be like this? Since the moment I first saw you, you're always so pretty. I love you, more than dew. Yes I do, you are clear and pure, baby~

"Yah! Y/n-ah!"

You turned and smiled as you saw your friend, f/n, running up to where you stood. Both of you had finished what finals you had to take and you were now officially out for winter break, of course this excited f/n so much that she was literally running through the halls screaming her joy. She smiled when she finally caught up to you and grabbed onto your arm then after jumping up and down a few times in excitement she started to pull you out of the doors and into the cold air.

"Thank god we're done," f/n whined in relief. "I swear, I thought my brain was going to burst with all of those questions."

"Don't be so dramatic," you laughed at her as you bumped your shoulder into hers. "You only had to take four remember?" [A/n: So when I was in high school if we had a certain grade then we were able to get out of finals in that class. How was/is finals for you guys? Is it different?]

She narrowed her eyes at you, "In my hardest classes! And you're lucky! You only had to take two!!"

"Hey, in my defense I did tell you that you should keep your grades up but you never listened to me."

You both laughed at each other and you stopped when you saw a certain someone standing up ahead of the two of you. Yuto Adachi. He looked very handsome with the snow falling around him, landing on his clothes and hair. A small group of people were standing around him laughing and talking. He wasn't popular but a lot of people loved to be around him, there was something about him that made everyone smile or laugh. Everyone always loved being around him. Of course, that's one of the things that attracted you to him. [A/n: Now, sadly. I do not know that much about Yuto, or any of the other members, as I have not learned a lot about them. So if he's not like this, or you don't think he's like this, than just imagine lol x'D] Yes, you had a pretty big crush on him but you'd never be able to tell him. You were too nervous and scared to tell him, scared of the rejection that would follow.

~Through your blowing hair, beauty flows down. You're my ideal girl that I've been dreaming of. My heart trembles, you're like treasure. I keep saying that I want you, it's not just because you're pretty it's because I fell for you at first sight~

You were positive that he didn't even know your name, he probably didn't even know you existed. Not once through all of your years of going to school together has he ever even looked your way, not even a glance. Which of course led to you admiring him in silence and without anyone, except f/n, knowing. You were now an expert at concealing feelings behind a blank face so people wouldn't catch on. Of course, f/n had caught on shortly after your feelings had grown even more for the brown eyed boy. She picked at you and kept saying she'd tell him for you but you would shush her, you weren't ready for him to know. You weren't ready for the rejection. She kept reassuring you that he wouldn't reject you, but you weren't stupid you knew that he'd reject you.

F/n snapped you out of your thoughts by waving her hand in front of your face, and muttered something about 'stop staring at pretty boys' when she realized she had your attention again. You smiled at her shyly and looked down at your feet before she sighed and started leading you once again. You felt your heart beating faster the closer you got to him, and honestly it frustrated you to know that he could do this to you. You peeked at him as you were walking by and your eyes widened when his eyes came up and met with yours. You turned your gaze back towards in front of you and you quickened your pace as you hurried away from him.

"Hey, y/n! Wait up!"

~Like that faraway dream I had every night, stay by my side. Give me a smile that's sweeter than candy. Smile like a child, show me your smile. Again today, my eyes stop at you. You're always so pretty. I'm worried about you. If I talk to you first, you'll think I'm too easy. I like you so much that you might hate me. When I think of you, I get frustrated but I know I'll be the same way again tomorrow~

You stopped in your tracks and you felt the world stop. Did, did Yuto just call out my name? No, you shook your head, it's probably just someone else. Why would he know my name?  Your thoughts however were interrupted when f/n pinched your arm lightly and slightly nodded her head behind you. You turned and your breath got caught in your throat when you saw him standing there behind you, with a smile lighting up his face.

"Y/n? You okay?" He looked down at you, the smile now gone and replaced by concern when you didn't say anything.

Oh my gosh, speak you idiot! "H-hi," you stuttered out and then mentally slapped yourself. Really? Hi?

Yuto laughed and smiled once again, taking your breath away once more. "Hey. So, I was wondering if I could talk with you for a second."

"With me?"

"Mhm," he was smiling so gently at you that you couldn't say anything so instead you nodded in agreement. "Uhm, a-alone?" He said nervously as he looked over to where f/n stood, looking at him now in suspicion.

"Hmm~ Fine, but you hurt her you've got to deal with me. Got it pretty boy?"

He laughed and nodded his head, watching her as  she walked away. Meanwhile you were silently panicking at what he needed to talk to you about. Had he found out about you glancing at him almost every five minutes? Actually, it might've been more than that but who could blame you? Shaking your head to get rid of your thoughts you looked up to him nervously and smiled a little.

"So, what did you need to talk about?"

"Hm? Oh right!" He cleared his throat and looked down at you, "Y/n, do you like me?"

~Now I'm ready, my capacity for you is quite big. My speed is faster than anyone else. I'll make sure you won't get hurt, be careful. I like you, if you push me away. I like you because you're rude. I don't need anything else. If only I can be with the flowery you, I'll be a bourgeois. Like that faraway dream I had every night, stay by my side. Give me a smile that's sweeter than candy. Smile like a child, show me your smile~

"W-what?" You couldn't breathe, you couldn't move, you didn't know what to do. His one question just stopped you in your tracks, stopped you from thinking.

His bottom lip quirked up a tiny bit in what you hoped was a smile, "You heard me. Y/n," he leaned closer to you, "do you like me?"

"E-eh? Uh, uhm." You lowered your gaze and looked anywhere but at him. "I, uh, I don't know why you're asking th-that." You cleared your throat and tried to act like you didn't. Of course the key word here was tried. Seeing as how it was you, Yuto caught on and laughed a little.

"Aah~ I see. Okay then, this'll make what I'm about to ask harder though."

You looked up to him, your eyebrows furrowing in confusion. "What?"

He let out a breath and put his hand on his chin, "What should I do now? You said you don't like me so I can't ask my question, right?"

"W-what question?"

"Hm? Oh, you want me to ask it?"

Slowly, you nodded. You were curious as to what you saying you didn't like him had to do with his question. You watched him as he let out another long breath and rubbed his chin in a thoughtful way. "Yah~ We'll freeze to death if you don't ask." You said, trying to get it out of him.

"Oh? Hm~ Okay then." He stepped closer and grabbed your hand which in return made your eyes widen and you froze, yet again. "Y/n, I like you."

"W-, h-huh?"

"Oh? Can you not hear me?" He put his head right beside yours and whispered softly into your ear. "I-like-you." He paused after every word and then leaned back, smiling. "Ah, and don't worry. I remember you said you don-"

"You too!"

"Huh?"

"I,uh, I l-like you, too."

"I know," he was smirking down at you in a playful way and stuck his tongue out at you. "I knew you liked me, it was cute though how you pretended you didn't."

"Yah!"

He laughed as you hit his arm, then grabbed your face in between his hands and qsquished your cheeks together. "Gahh~ my girlfriend's so cute!!"

"G-girlfriend? Who said I'd be your girlfriend," you said as you hit his hands away.

"Oh? So you'd rather just continue staring at me from afar?"

"What?"

He laughed, "Relax no one else noticed. I think."

"Yah! Yuto!"

"So," he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you closer. You felt his warmth and automatically moved towards him some more. "Will you be my girlfriend?" [A/n: oml guys, I'm sorry for these a/n but I swear as soon as I wrote that line Boyfriend's song Boyfriend just started playing in my head....]

You smiled up at him and nodded your head, laughing when he squeezed you closer and twirled the both of you around. Well, what do you know? F/n was right after all.