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Yes, Mayu whispers inwardly. Yes, it would. They can’t afford distraction while someone’s life literally depends on her. But he doesn’t know that and probably never will. Because they won’t open up. Opening up means being vulnerable, it means letting people see you, really see you, and she doesn’t want to be seen. She chooses to be someone else’s shadow, be the reason they are still breathing because that’s the only way she manages to get through it all. Work, obligations, duty. Anything to keep their mind busy. Take that away and she collapses.

i’d let you break my heart if it meant one kiss.

They almost huff at that but do not withdraw despite the fact Benjamin is clearly getting closer. ❛ I’ve broken plenty of hearts without permission. ❜ She replies, as a matter of fact. It is true after all. They never meant to hurt anyone though. Unrequited feelings happen. That’s life. And she doesn’t get why people go for them. She’s not soft nor sweet. Hell! They’re everything but.

“  would it really be so bad to give it a shot?  ”    benjamin licks his lips,   shuffling a little closer.   eyes of brown locked on the other,   breath hitching in his throat.   he can’t exactly explain the science behind his thought process right now,   perhaps he didn’t even have one.   all he knew is he wanted to kiss them.    “  i’d let you break my heart if it meant one kiss.  ”

muse:    benjamin ‘benny’ harte.   student, part time worker, and artist on the struggle.   pure baby energy. based on:    benny wanna kith your muse.   he down BAD.   a SIMP

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this was not normally benjamin.   he was soft spoken,   barely confident enough to ask the people he liked out.   truly,   all of this can be tied back to one person.   ezra and his damn pep talks and sneaky shots of tequila which could surely open up anyone given the chance and/or opportunity.   with liquid courage boosting his morale on top of all the shit talking on ezra’s behalf,   benjamin felt like he could face anything,   that he could be atlas and carry the world.   well,   immediately that’s cut short at mayu’s response.   eyes slow blink as if he were trying to regain his composure,   his confidence being swayed just a touch.    “  do you…   oh….  ”    was all benjamin could make out,   entirety of face bloomed in reds and pinks.    “  you don’t feel the same,   do you?  ”

I don’t know if i can feel at all. But she doesn’t say. They don’t blame him for shooting his shot, even though there are dozens of other mostly drunk people in the room that would’ve take him up on his offer. Why me? Anyway. Alcool does that to people. It makes them feel invincible. She knows. She’s seen it happened. A lot. Especially on colleges campuses. It’s not the first one they’ve been too. They’ve moved around a lot. They never stay for too long. She didn’t mean it to be rude. To them, it was just a blurted out fact. She’s on edge. All this partying around them makes her like that. But her assignment enjoys those events and so she follows. It felt only natural for her to accept Benjamin’s invitation since she was already going anyway. They exhales, sitting their glass of soda down. ❛ Benjamin, we meet once a week for photography class. How— How could you feel—— this way about me? ❜ She tilts her head to the side as her brown eyes observe his features, intently. They genuinely doesn’t understand how this can be happening, how someone like him could be interested in someone like them. ❛ What do you know about me besides my name and the fact i know how to use a camera? ❜