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ONE BEDROOM APARTMENT

Hoseok Imagine

A scoop of everyday life of a financially struggling couple with a baby. A bit of angst with a happy ending.

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The freezing weather of the night did no better to your state after finishing an 8 hr shift at a cafe. 

The constant ache in your legs after standing for so long, the chappy skin of your hands, which exhibited that they have not been pampered enough by a manicure, and the chaos swirling in your head after registering every nagging customer’s questions and complaints were more than enough to make you look even more worn out keep aside the stains on your clothes from your activities in the kitchen.

Some of the people from the crowd give you a pitied stare but most of them a disgusted one. Well, what do you expect from them, the so-called people from the rich neighborhood whose accessories were enough to make you feel poor then you already were. 

Ignoring all of these you still walked past them proudly knowing that this is what you had to do to pay your bills and bring bread to the table for your family. 

Whilst registering the summary of your day in your head a call made you step out of your thoughts, a call from the daycare. 

You glanced back at your wristwatch to know that it was already past 7 pm and you were still miles away from the daycare. 

Cursing yourself of how careless of a mother you could be you decided to quicken your pace and sprint towards the place. Within no time you have reached the daycare thanks to the run which now exhausted you even more. 

You quickly approached towards the door, to see just your kid your Seojun left for being picked up. The sight of him being left alone and playing all by himself babbling a few words broke you down always.

You were always the last one to pick him up. Sometimes you also heard a few mums gossip about how careless of a mom you were. But you always decided to ignore them knowing none of those accusations were true.

“You are late once again” the nanny called you out and the frustration visible on her face. She had given out a few warnings to you already before when you were late but you always apologized and asked for another chance.

Making sure to pay her every time you went past the daycare's time limit. 

"I am sorry, I took some extra work from co-workers to get a few extra money that’s when I lost the track of time" you constantly. 

You could see your reflection in the white reflective floor marble while giving off excuses, oh what apathetic site. This reflection even if it was blur sometimes made you question your life choices very clearly. 

Was getting married at this age a good decision when you were just starting your career. A person like you who had just started exploring the everyday struggles of the city was it good to leap off into whole family life. 

You never regretted your baby but were you capable enough of giving it a standard life. The day of you getting fired from your agency was still stuck in your head. 

But were they wrong, absolutely no who would hire a new recruitee who had barely spent a month in the office and got pregnant? They would have to think practically because they knew later you would ask for maternity leaves and all sorts of leaves for the baby. Instead of you, they could hire a new person. 

“It’s okay I get it, no mum would want to leave such a small baby behind. But please try to understand even I have to get back to my family so just be on time” she said with the most pitiest face but you were glad you at least got off the hook.

After thanking her you quickly picked up the diaper bag which had ‘Seojun’ written on it and went ahead to pick him up. Oh, how you would love to see the sight every second. Your kid reaching out to you happily kicking off the blanket. The drools and fist covered in saliva will be worried about later.

Soon you were on your usual route to your way back home with Seojun strapped around you, his bag, your purse covering you. If anyone ever wanted to look at a walking mess you were ready to present yourself. 

Back you were playing with him probably trying to fulfill your motherly heart’s demand of not spending enough time with your baby. You stood in front of the red light waiting to reach another side of it when a sight crossed your eyes. 

A mum with her baby all dolled up and the kid clearly in an expensive stroller. Ahh, how you wish you could spend the same amount of money on seojun and time too. 

You looked down at your baby who was about to fall asleep, “seoujun” you cooed at him and said, “Eomma is working hard okay for you, for Appa; just wait a bit longer I will prove it to you”. The straight eye contact with the pair of innocent eyes made your tone emotional rather than how it should have had turned out. 

Ahh, those eyes an inheritance from his father, Jung Hoseok. The only person because of which whom you were sustaining in life, because of whom you were lucky enough to call yourself a married woman and enjoys the joys of being married and the most important the father to your child. If it was for any other man you wouldn’t be so firm in front of all the hardships that life threw at you. 

At the apartment

You were sitting in front of the Tv watching a cooking show and simultaneously nursing your baby all the while observing his hand clench and unclench softly placed on your breast while he too stared at you lovingly, you chuckled at the site while the rattle of house keys made you look up. 

Hobi was back home but earlier than usual. you took the tired state of your husband tie all loosened up shirt crumpled from all the crowd in the metro. You sometimes felt grateful that at least you didn’t have to face the crowd after work. 

If it was for any other man you couldn’t imagine your life, probably fighting every day after work for working so much. 

But somehow hobi had all the patience in the world and always made sure you never went to bed angry at each other. The power that this man holds through his smile is incomparable, somehow also managed to wash away your worries.

"Hey how was your day?" you asked. soon as he sprawled over the couch his head leaning backward.

"Good but I missed you both," he said leaning ahead and resting his head on your shoulder. His eyes shifted between you and Seojun and you could feel his hot breath tickling the sides of your neck. 

All the while he told himself how lucky he got to have a family of his own. A family whom he could come back to after a stressful day at work. A baby whom he could teach and nurture along with you.

A strong woman, the mother to his kid, 'you' whom he could share the responsibilities of parenthood with and also could rely on when he had his tough times. 

Life was good even when the money coming in wasn’t the very best he was still satisfied. After a good peaceful moment, you could see Seojun falling asleep so you went ahead and put him to sleep. As you returned you could hear a sound of shuffling which was coming from Hobi  so to see what was going on you went ahead to take a peak but as soon as he heard you coming in his direction he covered it all up and stood there as if just a few seconds ago he wasn’t digging through his office bag. 

You were keen on knowing what he had been hiding but even before you could ask he dragged you along with him towards the dining table to have dinner. 

Soon you forgot to ask him about earlier and even he was relieved that you didn’t interrogate him further. You both had a peaceful dinner but made sure to ask about each other’s day and so on. You could hear faint cries of seojun so you decided to head towards him before you could begin doing the dishes but Hobi assured that he would take care of him. 

Therefore you proceeded with the task of doing the dishes. Amidst this, you went to check up on both of them but hobi had held Seojun in his arms while he faced the wall. Seriously what was this man doing? Sometimes he was just so easy to read and his actions too. But this time seems you can’t decipher what he was doing. 

As you were wiping your hands you felt tiny arms trying to reach out for your arm just to turn around to see the baby reaching out for you. You took him into your arms when Hobi handed him over to you. 

“I have something for you,” hobi said with a ray of hope and excitement gleaming in his eyes. What is he up to? He decided to make you follow him and hence you were standing in the middle of the living room with the most confused face but on another hand, your husband had the usually exciting aura around him. 

He came in front of you and looked straight into your eyes. “You ready babe,” he said one hand holding your while the other was hid behind his back. He made you close your eyes and guided one of your arms ahead while still holding it. You could sense some shuffling around you but you dared not open your eyes or else he would be mad for sure.

A cool piece of metal touched your wrist that’s when you decided you couldn’t hold it in anymore. As soon as you opened your eyes you could see that the once standing man was now on his knees and a diamond bracelet had adorned your wrist. 

It was indeed a delicate design and you loved it. You could see how proud he was of himself. The sight in front of you brought back so many memories that you could cry. 

The day when he proposed to you in the tiny dorm and made sure to marry you with a pompous event with nothing to spare. He held you when you had your first baby and held Seojun in another and constantly whispered of how lucky he was to have you. 

Even when you were sick when you had been fired he was there to share the sorrow and wipe your tears. He was yours forever, your hobi. “Do you love it?” he asked seeing your glossy eyes. “Of course I loved it hobi you bought it for me I would love anything that you gave me” your head now resting on his chest as he held you in his arms and also encircled joonie. 

“But hobi this is too expensive for us we can’t afford this. This bracelet seems real. How were you able to buy this? We can’t be spending so much you know right, we have loans to take care of” you asked now being practical. 

“Don’t worry about it, I have been saving up for this for a long time, umm kind of since we got married” you shocked face now on display. You did not have any clue he had been doing any sorts of savings. But most importantly why now why all of a sudden? 

“Y/n I still remember how I was not able to give you everything you wanted when we dated back then. How you always stared at every new item your friends had gotten from their partners. I felt a lot guilty. 

Guilty because I couldn’t even spare money to treat my girlfriend to a fancy dinner. But you never complained and always stayed happy with what you had, believe me, I wanted to give you everything I could but I failed.” You still remembered those days back then.

Both of your struggling days to find a life and settle down in this busy city when you found each other you decide to date. To be honest there was nothing to complain about. What would one want when you had a loving boyfriend standing firm beside you.

Not even the financial struggles could break you apart and never will. “I saw you crying in pain when you gave birth to joonie I felt as if had no contribution to the three of us just worked sluggishly for long hours and could only see you for a few hours. 

This is why id decides to buy this for you as soon as possible as a token of appreciation for whatever you have endured being with me. If it was for any other man you would have had-” before he could complete his sentence you placed a chaste kiss on his lips, consider it as a way to make him quiet or seal you overflowing emotions, I don’t know. "I would never be able to be this happy with anyone else Hobi  I don’t care how much we bring in at the end of the day but I am sure there would never be any less amount of love coming inside this house. I am sure of that. If it wasn’t for you I would never have joined. You know I love you a lot right? ” a confirming nod came as approval from him as you both smiled at each other.

 You were happy all three of you in a cocoon called a family, it might be a bit tight to fit in this one-bedroom apartment but you were glad that you were apart of this space. 

Every hardship of your and his life would be witnessed by this space and you were ready to fight every one of them with your husband by your side.