I Am Still Here - Tumblr Posts

More poetry! English class is unbelievably boring, so I’m channeling my energy into poetry instead of studying. :)

TW: mentions of suicide, drowning, depression

Still Here

The world is an ocean, a dark, swirling sea

Where many a soul so slowly drowns;

The crash of waves as life stretches on

Deafens the beating heart’s pounding sounds

I am still here.

I wondered once what would happen

If I let myself sink below

Down the ocean and darkness deep

Would it free me if I let go?

I am still here.

I’ve been battered by winds and by tempests fierce

By looming waves and swirling tides

By whirlpools that slowly draw you in

Until you are harshly thrown to the side

I am still here.

I’m clutching at a plank, my only lifeline

As I’m swept by the ruthless seas

Unseeing, unknowing, into the horizon

Pushed forward by the will of time’s breeze

I am still here.

I wonder what would happen

If I let my fingers slip

If I let my grasp loosen

If I let my head dip

I am still here.

If I let go of this wood and let myself drift

If I swam into the turbulent ocean

If I dived under and never came up

Was that such a strange notion?

Am I still here?

So I wonder what would happen

If I took a deep breath

Let the world go

Sink into death?

Should I stay here?

A figure in the distance

Defeat in their eyes

Slumped on their boat

Their head doesn’t rise

…They are not here.

I take their hand, and I hold it tight

This soul let themself sink into the sea

And I look into my heart, so dark and rainy

As a great storm pours upon me

Why are we all still here?

Another figure floats - yet this one has hope

And we hold each other close as we wait out the storm

Another and another, slowly we gather

The souls that had lost their way, we now kept warm

We are still here.

We are tossed into the ocean without a care

Nor a thought, nor a goodbye

Yet on this boat built of each friend’s wood

I think, finally, that I know why

I am still here.