I Feel You - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
This is exactly what I described to my dad during a breakdown.
In highschool, there were the nicest people who included me in their group and invited me out, but for some reason I never felt like they were friends to me. And I feel bad.
I can recognize traits of a normal relationship, but it doesn't interest me.
I often don't have the interest of being the first person to reach out.
I'm not interested in meeting people through hobbies because I never stay as enthusiastic as they do and end up feeling inadequate.
I see other people with several friends or acquaintances (the norm) and I have none.
This is such a real and alienating thing to experience.
I think one of the most painful things about being autistic, at least for me, is the lack of connection in my life. I don't have any offline friendships, or even just acquaintance - it's extremely difficult, even impossible, to join new groups or hobbies (and stay in them), I don't have any colleagues (not able to work, again because of the 'tism), I basically don't have a social life and almost no way to meet new people, and even if it is easier to communicate with people online, y'all are so far away and I also feel like I am just not good at friendship in general.
And all of this also means that not only do I miss out on human connection but on new experiences too. I have incredible difficulties trying new things and going to new places and there is barely anyone who could accompany me.
This is just venting without any real solution; I guess I just want to say that being autistic can be really isolating and make you feel like you are deprived of a whole lot of things.
I had my first day at work today but I fear my body might not be able to keep up💔
No more girlbossing i want to girl rest girl sleep girl lay down etc
No more girlbossing i want to girl rest girl sleep girl lay down etc
“I will fight to be satisfied with my life and enjoy it as much as I can so that I will never become bitter and resentful.”
^^ too good to leave in the tags op.
I love little miau miaus as much as the next person, but damnnnnn these emotionally constipated men need to put on some pants
Me, adding my pronouns to my Discord profile: ő
ahh i feel miserable, guess it's time to escape into the world i created in my head where i am loved by someone because i am so horribly deprived of love in the real world !
Bleach TYBW Ep 28: Renruki Comedy Hours
this is so wise
The thing about people from more progressive countries saying, "Why do you care what your parents think, just ignore them" is... it's just not that easy.
If I love wearing a dress that my dad doesn't approve of, yes-- I'm going to stand up for myself and wear it anyway. I'll wear it everyday for a week straight, on purpose to annoy him, and everyday he's gonna ask me not to wear it and give me disappointed looks. Do I care about his opinion? Not necessarily.
But one fine day when I'm picking out what to wear in the morning, I'll look at that dress and choose another-- not based on whether I feel like wearing it or not, but based on whether I have the emotional capacity to deal with "all that" today.
So to the people who don't quite understand why brown ppl (or anyone with strict/conservative upbringing) are more reserved with their rule-breaking: it's because we have to fight for/against some stuff we shouldn't need to fight for; stuff which is normalised in say, the US or Europe. And so we have to pick our battles, and expend emotional resources when & where we deem them most necessary.
And, might I add:
This doesn't just apply to brown kids. This applies to every girl who wore sweatpants instead of a short skirt when going outside, (even tho she is 100% comfortable wearing it and it makes her feel hot & sexy) every boy who didn't do something because they would be made fun of for being "too feminine", or anytime you had to suppress any part of yourself because you didn't have the mental energy to deal with other people's shit.
Whoever you are, I understand you and I see you.
I know you can stand up for yourself, but sometimes you just wanna slump on the floor and be held.
Embraced in the warmth of approval. Not only accepted but celebrated, for who you are & the things you like.
as an aroace person who sees other aspec people get frustrated with the lack of nonromantic relationships being represented as anything other than sibling, I grant you: hermit relationships
Grian & Pearl: siblings, actually
Pearl & Scott: platonic
Cleo & Scott: queerplatonic
Jimmy & Tango: romantic
Grian & Scar: sexual but like they turned Complicated pretty fast lets be real
Pearl & Gem: ????)?),?
Etho & Joel: probably a disorder really
Martyn & Ren: theater kids.
maybe i have a crush on sam winchester