I Hate Them (affecionate) - Tumblr Posts

no but actually andrew telling neil he hates him before kissing him for the first time is sooooo. like andrew never expresses any emotion unless he’s feeling it intensely. he’s always like idc either way when it comes to anything BUT neil. he feels for him so strongly even then he can’t help but spit it out. what matters isn’t those words, it’s the meaning behind them. he’s so overwhelmed by his inability to stop worrying about neil, thinking about neil, that he has to voice it out somehow without compromising himself. i hate you is you’re always on my mind, i hate you is i hate that i can’t stop, i hate that you matter to me, that i cannot be impartial about this. i hate you is an invitation and a promise. i tried to fight this but i know i cant, so fight for both of us until im ready to meet you halfway. stay.