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First Time, Down Bad
Pairing: Heeseung x fem!reader
Sypnosis: Heeseung is more than ready to have his first time with you. Starting with a make out session, making you feel things you never felt before. How will things turn out?
Genre: smut, angst | MINORS DNI
Warnings: kissing, making out, heeseung hurt is knee, a curious jake, jerking off, Heeseung eating reader out 2x (in the shower), sex (always use protection), pet names: bambi, baby, if i missed something lmk
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Taglist: @jakeflvrz @wonbin-s @sumzysworld @rayofsunshineeee @jayjw16enxp @mintseung @avaleyshin @mheretoreadff @jinostooth @getluckyhoonie
There are probably still some grammar mistakes but it can happen. I'm not a book author also I'm really busy. This part is mostly about Heeseung and reader. Be kind or go away!
Series: what are you willing to do?
Part1 - Close to you (<- read first)
You decided to give heeseung a little more time to think about it. Simply because you wanted him to be sure about losing his virginity to you. Him in turn assured you that he was very sure about it, which leads you to the situation at this very moment.
Mid make out session the two of you got interrupted by a very noisy Jake, he bursted into your room without knocking which startled both of you so much that you pushed Heeseung off the bed.
Heeseung landed with a thud on the floor, rubbing his knee while Jake looked confused between the two of you.
“What are you two doing?” He asked in a teasing tone
“Nothing that should be important to you.” You said
“I thought I heard noises.. why are you on the floor?”
“Uh-I was looking for something..one of my headphones fell down.”
“Ahh, got it.Okay, have fun.Oh and y/n?Maybe you should help him.”
With that Jake left the room again.
You turned your head to heeseung.
“I'm sorry, I didn't mean to push you off the bed like that.” You got up and walked over to him.
You saw his knee got a little scratch
“It's okay, I can understand.”
“Wait, let me get a-” but he stopped you.
“It's okay, really. It's nothing bad and it doesn't hurt.” He smiled at you and got up, sitting back on the bed.
You let your eyes wander over his body. He must have seen the way you were checking him out.
“Like what you see?” He said and winked at you
“Oh don't be so cocky now.”
“You know, I'm still hard and I still want this, I still want you.” He suddenly said, feeling shy again.
He was ready to have his first time with you, not only his first time but many other times too. Heeseung patted the spot beside him but you climbed on top of his lap instead.
His hands caressed your bare thighs softly, making your skin tingle.
“Why do you make me feel like this?” You asked him, your voice barely audible
“Like what,hm?” He asked you as he tucked a piece of your hair behind your ear.
You didn't answer him, instead you leaned down to kiss him. He moaned into your mouth and kissed you back, feverishly, passionately. Heeseung pulled you even closer, making you sit on his boner. You started to grind on his lap and his hips automatically bucked upwards. His hands cupped your cheeks then he let them roam over your body.
You tugged on his shirt, trying to take it off. He finally got the message and took it off, throwing it somewhere across the room.
“Take yours off too,please.” He said between kisses.
You did as he told you and then he gently laid you down so you were under him. You opened his jeans, leaving him in only his boxers. Meanwhile he fumbled with your short shorts until you finally undressed them yourself. He took in the sight in front of him, making you feel shy all of a sudden.
Thank god you actually packed your favorite lingerie.
“You are so beautiful.” He said in awe
You traced your fingers over his toned chest and smiled at him “so are you.”
He looked away shyly, then he felt your lips on his chest.
“Are you still sure?”
“Yes, I'm sure..I wanna make love to you, y/n.” He assured you.
“I'm going to take off my underwear.” You let him know
Heeseung swallowed hard as he watched you take off the rest of your clothes. He sat back on his knees, his cock throbbing in his boxers. And you were naked in front of him and just for him. His eyes stopped on your tits, god he wanted to suck your nipples so bad.
“Take off your boxers too?” You asked and smiled at him
“Uh-yeah..I-I just..we need protection right?”
“We can use it,sure..But I'm clean and on birth control and I guess you're clean too?”
His doe eyes went big “you mean we can do it without a condom?” This must be a dream, right? His first time with you and without a condom? He would be stupid to say no.
“Yes, Hee..it's up to you.”
“I-i wanna do it without.” He couldn't even look you in the eyes right now.
“Your boxers are still on, bambi” his cock twitched at the pet name you gave him, how embarrassing he thought.
Then he finally took his boxers off. He dropped them beside the bed when he caught you staring at his cock, great now his ears got red.
“No need to be shy, I already saw you the day before.Now come here.” You said softly.
He finally positioned himself between your legs “can I..can I touch you there?”
“Please touch me Hee, I wanna feel your touch.”
In an awkward position, Heeseung's fingers ghosted over your body until he reached your pussy. His middle finger found your folds and then he entered you easily since you were really wet.
“You're so wet.” He said, not once looking away from where his finger went in and out of you.
“Yeah..it's because of you, only for you.” You moaned quietly.
Hearing you say that made his excitement and the butterflies in his stomach going wild. You're this wet because of him, he made you like this. Oh, he needed to feel you now. So he pulled his finger out of you and finally positioned his cock right where you wanted him.
When he bottomed out, he let out a moan of your name. He was scared at first but when he started to move it felt so natural. You could tell he never had sex from the way he didn't find the right pace or rhythm. But it was enough for you. Your hand found his nape, playing with his hair.
Heeseung liked it. His mouth found your neck, leaving open mouth kisses on it. Then he kissed along your jawline until he reached your lips. His tongue begged for entrance, exploring your mouth.
When you started to clench around his cock, he almost lost it. “Please don't do that or I'm going to cum.” He whined against your lips.
“It's okay..I want you to cum.” You coo against his lips
“Oh god..i'm close already..i'm sorry.”
He picked up pace and then he became a moaning mess. His face on your neck, moaning right into your ear.
“fuck heeseung, right there.Keep on going.” You moaned
Without any warning he let out a loud moan and then his cum was painting your walls. His skin was burning, his head thrown back, his mouth slightly open. He never came this hard while he was fucking his own hand.
Seeing his face so full of pleasure made you cum too. Both of you moaning each other's names until he dropped his body on top of yours.
“Heeseung? Are you okay?” you said and carefully nudged his shoulder.
He let out a sigh “I'm okay..just embarrassed that's all.” He mumbled against your neck.
He came too fast and yet he felt like he was on cloud nine.
“There is nothing to be embarrassed about, everything is okay. And there is always a next time.”
This made him lift up his head “wait, there will be a next time?For real?”
Heeseung actually thought it's a one time thing, even though he is in love with you he wasn't so sure about your feelings for him. You take his virginity and that's it. So he didn't dare to ask if you two are dating now or not. After you told him there will be a next time, the butterflies in his stomach were acting crazy again.
After taking a shower (but not together) both of you went out for breakfast. You decided to spend your day with Heeseung apart from the other's. On your way to the city you enjoyed the warm summer breeze on your skin, you looked over to heeseung who had a small smile on his face, looking around the area.
Your hands brushed against his so heeseung took the opportunity to hold your hand, intertwining your fingers with his. He looked at you, smiling fondly.
“It's nice here, isn't it?” He asked
“It really is, I wouldn't mind staying here a little longer.”
“by yourself or with..me?”
“I don't know, maybe.. together with you wouldn't be so bad.”
His heart started beating fast and his ears got red once again.
“really?So if we had the chance would you stay here with me for a few more days?”
“Maybe.” You said smiling mischievously at him and then you walked towards a small bakery.
Heeseung and you enjoyed a little breakfast, you talked about this and that until you decided to go back.
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Both of you got a message from the others that they won't be back until the evening which made Heeseung feel nervous. He thought about your words earlier and of course he popped a boner, he felt ashamed and it got even worse when he saw you walking around in your underwear.
He could feel his precum all sticky in his boxers. When you saw him standing there a little flustered you got worried
“Heeseung, are you okay?”
“Uh-yes I'm okay, I guess.” He said and avoided looking at you.
You slowly walked over to him “are you sure?”
Heeseung's hands were over his crotch to hide his boner. Your eyes wandered to where his hands were and then it hit you.
“Ohhh, that's why.” You giggled.
“I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get hard..It's just– you were walking around like that and you're really beautiful and attractive and-” He immediately stopped talking when he felt your hand on his clothed cock. You started to palm him through his sweatpants.
“I already told you, it's okay, it's only natural.” You whispered into his ear.
He took a deep breath “I want you,y/n. It's crazy what you're doing to me.”
You kissed along his neck, making him thrust into your hand. You absolutely loved the noises he made.
“We have the holiday apartment all to ourselves, we can be as loud as we want to be or we could just have sex right there in the living room.You decide, bambi.” then you reached inside of his pants starting to jerk him off.
His breath hitched “I prefer the bed.”
He couldn't even think straight right now, he just wanted you. Leading him to your shared bed, you made him sit on it. Heeseung couldn't believe how fast you undressed yourself.
“Can..can you ride me?” He avoided looking at you as most of the time
“Then lay down for me.”
He took off his own clothes and did as you told him. His cock was standing in full glory, precum pooling out of his slit, dripping down his length. How bad you wanted to suck him off.
You straddled him and then you leaned down to kiss him, his hands quickly found your waist. When you started to kiss his chest, your mouth found his nipples. When sucked on them and licked them, Heeseung's cock twitched.
“Please stop, I'm going to cum.Oh shit.” He whined.
“Oh?Your nipples are really sensitive..which means I can make you cum like that.” You said feeling proud
And suddenly you were the one under Heeseung. He hovered above you, smiling at you. “I changed my mind, I wanna try something.” He said and his eyebrows raised while he was talking.
You just let him do his thing. Heeseung spread your legs a little more, then he laid between them. He kissed your inner thighs softly until he reached your pussy, licking a long stripe along your folds. Then he started to suck lightly on your clit, you were surprised so your hips automatically bucked upwards. Heeseung was quick to react and held them down.
Delving his tongue into your hole made you moan his name out loud while he moaned into your pussy. Is this what he was missing all the time? You scent, your taste it he fucking loved it.
“Are you sure you never did this before?” You said almost breathless
Heeseung hummed a yes, what you assumed and then you could feel his nose perfectly stimulating your clit.
He was eating you out like a starved man.
Your juices were dripping down on the bed sheets by now and Heeseung made sure to catch every drop with his tongue. And then you could feel your orgasm approaching you.
“Hee, I'm going to cum, oh god.”
“Cum for me, baby. Cum and make a mess on my tongue.” He groaned.
You had your hands in his hair, pulling on it while you had the most intense orgasm ever. You were seeing stars and your eyes rolled back. Heeseung gathered your cum and then he went back up to you. Leaning in for a kiss, his tongue quickly found yours and you could taste yourself on his tongue. Both of you moaned into each other's mouths.
Heeseung positioned himself between your legs and entered you with a blissful look on his face . He didn't waste any time and you could feel him so deep and made both of you feel dizzy. Heeseung never felt like this before, he wanted more. He needed more. He felt hot and cold at the same time while his thrusts became sloppy.
You could feel him hitting your g-spot so good and honestly, if someone came back to the apartment by now they could definitely hear the both of you. Your moans, the heavy breathing just everything turned you on. And when one of his hands found your nipple, pinching it and sucking on it after it was too much. You started to clench around his cock which made Heeseung feel like he was going insane.
“Y/N, I'm close and I can't hold it back if you keep on doing that.”
“But I want you to cum, please Hee.”
“No, not yet..I don't want this to be over yet.I need more.” He whined against your lips.
Your hand wandered between your bodies, towards your pussy. Rubbing your clit in circles, made you clench around him once more.
“I'm going to cum.no–fuck I'm cumming.”
“Me too, bambi..Me too.”
Both of you were cumming with high pitched moans of each other's names.
Riding out both of your highs, Heeseung couldn't get enough of you, he kissed your neck and sucked on your skin until there was a hickey.
After what felt like hours you were lying side by side “we should take a shower, before the others will be back.” You said.
“Can we take a shower together?”
“Sure, let's go”
Heeseung followed you to the bathroom and while you were going for another round in the shower , Jake was the first one who got back to the holiday apartment. He didn't think much of it when he entered the bathroom, thinking Heeseung was the one in there. So when he turned around he saw Heeseung on his knees, eating you out.
“Oh my god, my eyes, my poor eyes.” He started to scream.
You made eye contact with Jake “Jake, oh my god.”
Heeseung was so immersed in pleasing you that he didn't even realize what was going on until you said Jake's name. He stopped immediately “what did you just call me?” until he saw Jake standing there.
He got up and covered you with his own body “Can you please fucking leave now.” Heeseung said through gritted teeth.
Heeseung felt embarrassed about what just happened “I'm really sorry Y/N.”
“It's okay, don't worry about it.” You cupped his cheeks and kissed him.
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After you had dinner together with the others, you were sitting outside watching the sunset. Sunghoon joined you and by the way he was looking at you, you were sure Jake couldn't keep his mouth shut.
“I hope you know, Heeseung is really into you like head over heels for you. And after what Jake told me, you two had sex. So please don't break his heart.” He said in a serious tone
“Why should I break his heart? I would never do that.”
“I'm not so sure about it.. I mean, you were the one running from him since we arrived here and now you took his virginity. Let me ask you one thing, are you in love with Heeseung?”
His question caught you off guard and you didn't know how to answer him.
“I like him a lot. I-I'm in love with him.” you answered him
“Then you should let him know.”
Sunghoon got up and went inside, leaving you alone again.
Just a few minutes later, Heeseung sat down beside you, he took your hand in his and intertwined your fingers with his.
“Jake and the other's are teasing me.” He said pouting at you
“They're just jealous, you know.”
“I love you, y/n. Will you be my girlfriend, will you be mine?”
His expectant look and his big doe eyes made you feel dizzy.
And then you remembered Sunghoon's words. What are you willing to do?
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