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❁ ethan n jamie bc u know i had to

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Sometimes, with Jamie, Ethan feels like a teenager again; with all the sappy little quirks those splashes of thought invoke. usually, usually he doesn't act on them; a tinge of embarrassment to years he should very-well have put long behind him now ━ he's a father now, after all ━ where all the puppy-loving little things float in his head and often, out the other. ( all valentines chocolate and sharing sweaters and buying flowers )

But for as much as Ethan struggles with expressing these little tender things, a little too much hurt in him to make it as easy as he'd wish it were, as embarrassed as he is for the classic, cheesy things that Mae very well might mock him for in the way children will mock anything and the way one day rose will learn from Mae just how to do it : sometimes, his heart is a little bigger than his pins-and-needles passivity, and while he doesn't usually have the nerve to stay to see the reaction ━ the concept a little too striking and a little too discomforting, the anticipation easier to stomach ━ sometimes, just sometimes, he follows through. This time, that following through manifests as a bouquet on Jamie's bedside table. Some of the leaves are a little crushed, his hands a little clumsy, but still beautiful despite the bruising ( or maybe, in a way, because of it. )

and like much else Ethan does, messages hide themselves in the upturned petals, the undersides of leaves. ━ It's okay if he doesn't see it. He doesn't expect him to.

Peony, bluebell, red carnation, camellia, jonquil, rose in full bloom, red tulip. ━ shame, happy marriage; humility; my heart aches for you; admiration, perfection, good luck; affection returned, love me, desire, sympathy; i love you, i still love you; believe me, declaration of love ( 'I love you even when I cannot say it, I love you even when I'm ashamed of the person I am, I hope you still love me despite it, I hope you continue to believe me when I tell you.' )