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You and Rindou have a special relationship 👀

Well, friendship…bond? Let’s say bond.

A bond only you two understand. Sorta. Kinda. Maybe. You’re both chill with it so does it matter if you understand it or not? (Don’t answer that). It’s been like this for years. Ever since you first met as kids on the playground, it felt like magic. You two immediately got along as if you were made for each other. You both got a little crush on each other that was never confessed. But you remained great friends. Even after he got locked up in Juvie and met up with you the moment he could see you again, it felt like he never left.

Everything always feels natural with Rindou. You never have anything to hide and neither does he. So many nights spent talking about your personal lives, so many days wandering off to wherever his motorcycle takes the both of you and talking about your dreams. Rindou was an active criminal (still is), but he never made you feel in danger. He made you feel safe. And it always felt like you were the only people that could really see and understand each other. That’s why you’re best friends.😊

Best friends, is what you always refer to each other as. I mean he is your best friend and you’re his. You always have each other’s backs. Like when he beat up one of your ex boyfriends for verbally abusing you and cheating on you, when you confronted a psychotic girl he used to date cuz she was trying to cause something horrible to Rindou because he broke up with her, when he taught you self defense after you gossiped to him about some guy trying to stalk you (he dealt with him right after), when you would defend Rindou’s name when other people would talk shit about him and his brother when they know nothing. And of course, doing what best friends are for, supporting each other through hard times. There was never a moment you failed each other in a time of need. 🫂

You’re both there for the good and the bad, always.

Best friends is what you always refer to each other as, even when there were clear moments of flirting between one other. Even after Rindou first told you he loves you and you told him you love him too. Best friends, is what you always refer to each other as after you’d become lovers for a good while before having to break it off due to something that simply got in the way. Most of the time it was because his gang would get into conflict and he didn’t want you to possibly be involved. ☹️

You were always good after breaking off. No hard feelings. You’re somehow able to work platonically and romantically. No ones ever seen that before so it was definitely odd to others but it wasn’t to you two. That was the cycle you had as best friends. Be normal besties, then flirt, date, then life gets in the way and break up. But you were both cool with each other because none of you did anything wrong. Especially Rindou. Rindou never did anything wrong. Yes you two did have arguments sometimes but it wasn’t anything jeopardizing, it would just be normal couple disagreements and you always made up in the end because you’re both understanding and able to come to an agreement. You two always worked so perfectly. 🤞

You wish you didn’t.

Now you’re in your apartment, sitting by the window looking at the view…missing Rindou. He disappeared a few years ago. You didn’t know why until the news started talking about that criminal organization, Bonten. It wasn’t hard to connect the dots. You know he’s part of it with his older brother.

A tear falls from your face as you remember all your memories with him. The moments you’d share that flirty eye contact in social gatherings, the moments he’d hug and kiss you like you were something precious to protect, the moments he’d call you beautiful with so much honesty and love in his deep voice that was music to your ears, the moments you’d get into silly trouble together and run away from a security guard because you trespassed, the moments you’d laugh til you both cried, the moments you’d hold hands while looking up at the night sky, and you remember how he never looked at you with lustful intent. Only love. You never felt like you needed to have sex with him to satisfy him, you never felt like you needed to send provocative images of yourself to him, you never felt like you needed to change because Rindou Haitani made you feel like a diamond. 💎

No other guy made you feel the way Rindou made you feel. Most of them were all snobs only wanting one thing from you. Some just didn’t meet your standards. It was so hard to move on when all you’re looking for is Rindou, your best friend. Yup, you still refer to him as your best friend. He’ll always be your best friend even when you’re not in each other’s lives now. You can’t think of him as a stranger. You hope he feels the same way and it makes you wish you hated him. Yet you wish to see him one day and start over again. Feel that magic just one more time and this time it can go right. Nothing will get in the way. Just one more time. You wish on the same star every single night. Just one more time.

You sigh when you feel stupid for wishing for that. But you can’t help it. He’s special to you. You’re special to him too, you just don’t know it but, you can feel it. Rindou never stopped missing you. He looks up at the same star you do. Wishing for one more shot. He wants to make it right this time. He’s willing to make it right this time. You’re the woman he wants to be with for the rest of his life, but just how will he get his best friend back? Rindou thinks about you day and night. He wants to see you again, He needs to see you again. He will see you again.

Your friends are all moved on with their lives, always talking about how happy they are with their soon to be husbands. You support them with a smile but inside you want to cry. You want to move on but you can’t. Rindou can’t leave your mind. Why couldn’t he have treated you badly? why couldn’t he have cheated on you? Why couldn’t he have just done something horrible to you so you can move on? Why did he have to be so perfect? My god….

You wish you hated him.