I'm Not Sorry For This - Tumblr Posts

They took his pit hair… because of woke.

I'm done

Hey guys, this just me venting so yeah please don't get the wrong idea that I'm trying to cry out for help or looking for attention. I'm not really, I just feel like I need to to vent a bit is all. Thanks, you don't have to read this or like this, or reblog this....read it if you want or not.

I'm done with myself. I'm tired of my failers, of my mistakes, my saddness, my anger. I'm having a bad day and I have no one but myself to blame. And really that what I've been doing, when ever I fuck up my grades, or do something wrong, or even say something wrong. I have no one to blame but myself. I don't hate my family, or my friends. Or even the life I've been giving. But that it, given.... everything been given to me and I hate myself for that. I haven't gotten anything on my own. I don't have a job. Or my own place. I'm in college sure. I live with my family of course, I gave my driver license. But no car, no money for no job. No actually I do is...what do I even do, I'm failing to classes in college. My parents are gonna have to pay for me to re take it. I feel like I'm just FUCKING Everybody over. Everybody, my family, my friends, my little siblings. My life, my body, my soul....I just feel so done with myself at times.

I hate myself because that all I can do. I have no one to blame but myself...I'm stressed, tired, a bit under the weather, just...I'm so done with myself. I'm done trying to care about myself. If I could I would walk out of my house and never come back. Maybe then my parents can finally leave each other so they can finally be happy for once. So my siblings won't have to see their big sister cry and break down like some little kid. 19 years old and my little sister 14 has to calm me down. Tell me that I'm okay when I'm not, my little brother of 8 years old asking me if I'm gonna cry then hug me.

I'm the older sibling yet...yet I'm the one getting ready to break down. And I hate that most about myself. I don't even know what I'm gonna do with my life besides going to college again, or find a damn job or go in the army maybe. I don't care anymore. I really don't, I live for my siblings, for my parents, for my friends. But I'm done caring about myself.

I really am. I'm sorry if this making you feel sorry for me, make you feel worried about me. Upsetting you in any way but that how I'm feeling right now. I'm having a bad day and this what normals happens for a bad day with me. I just stop caring for how I feel anymore. Sure I'll try live for everyone else but I'm just done trying to live for myself. At least I'll be able to take responsibility for others feels about my life. But I just can't for myself anymore. Not anymore..

You know what, fuck you! *total dramas your Ryan Akagi*