Its A Little Tarty Ill Admit But Venusbeautyshock Did Such A Nice Job I Could Not Resist - Tumblr Posts

After the events of Heavensward and Stormblood, where he both remembered and was forced to embody his pre-amnesia identity as a spirit-broken traitor to the realm and enemy of life, finding out about his ancient self as Janus became an obsession. Finding a meaningful, loved, powerful self from a perfect world had become a needful pursuit he fully intended to lose himself to in order to escape the pain of what he’d learned about the sins of his mortal self. To become, even embody, that old blameless self and bring him forth—it was an unnamed, impossible dream he doggedly pursued throughout Endwalker.

Ultimately an impossibility. At the end of that road, no matter how many scraps of Janus he tried to cram inside of him, no matter how well he began to remember that life and self, anything that was there for him was in a very old grave. The self he wanted to be was not past, but present. His future was forward, not back. To accept the good with the bad and go on to tomorrow instead of trying to reconstruct an innocent halcyon past—perhaps there was a reason he and Emet-Selch had always been drawn to the same places.

At least Aelaeis has the chance to move on.

(Credit again to the lovely @venusbeautyshock !)

A WoL question for the day, since I'm home sick and feeling awful:

How much does your WoL know about their Azem (or their ancient if they weren't Azem)? Have they unlocked the memories in the memory shard? How do they feel about their past self? Gimme your lore.