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IN YOUR MIND : JJK

Pt 2

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pt 1: here

Summary: jungkook is the man who is constantly on and in your mind.

Warnings: toxic family, , mental health, jungkook can quickly switch moods.

A/n: I love the concept of this story. Feed back is always appreciated.

If you're going through anything in your life, speak to somebody you trust and if you don't have anybody, dm me :)

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"Urgh"  you slam yourself against the couch.

"What's wrong with you?"

"I'm so tired. Had such a long day with classes and stuff"

He chuckles "my baby works so hard doesn't she"

You nod.

"Want me to cook you something? I'm cooking ramen"

"ramen?"

"I mean it's better than nothing"

"Why dont we order instead" you sit up picking up your phone.

"Whatever you want babe" he then joins you on the couch and immediately cuddles you.

"Okay it's ordered" you say as you look at him.

He sits there just looking at you with his doe eyes.

"Why you looking at me" you ask him as you blush.

"You're so beautiful you know"

You blush as his hands rub your thighs comfortingly. You run your hands through his long dark hair. You loved his hair being like this. You rub the back of his head his locs in between your fingers and your fingertips on his scalp.

"Mmm" he hums "i love when you do that" you smile, you loved making him happy just as much as he loved making you happy.

"So what do you wanna do before the food gets here?" He asks you, his hand lost in your shirt. You giggle from the ticklish feeling coming from his fingertips on your skin.

"I don't know,  what do you have in mind?"

He smiles.

He leans his head close to yours and his lips meet yours. His lips feel cold but you love it, his hand goes to your neck as he pulls you closer to deepen the kiss.

You feel his tongue and you immediately melt, unlike his lips his tongue is warm and soothes any ache in your heart. Kissing him makes you forget all your thoughts. You have nothing in your mind when he touches you. Your hand goes up his shirt  your other hand is still in his hair. You tug at his hair immediately drawing a moan out of him.

He disconnects your lips and you already miss the feeling.

His mouth instead trails open mouth kisses on your neck. He pulls your body closer to his, you can feel the heat radiating off of his body.He pulls back his hands going to his shirt to pull it over but the sound of a doorbell interrupts the both of you.

"Argh" he groans

"you want me to go get it?" you ask him still out of breath.

"It's okay I'll get it. Stay here" he walks towards the door trying to hide his crotch.

You lay back as he walks away and opens the door. The sound of another doorbell makes you lift your head.

"Jungkook aren't you getting the-" You realise Jungkook isn't there and the doorbell rings again. You quickly get up and walk to the door.

You open the door "I'm sorry...oh"

"Hey...you're not happy to see me?"

It's one of your friends,faye. She wasn't supposed to be here until later.

"Oh no I just thought you were...um...i-uh ordered food, so I thought you were the delivery person" you stummer.

"Sorry to disappoint you I'm not your favourite meal" She jokes.

You laugh "come in"

"Oh my goodness Y/N what the...?" She yells and you're confused until you notice the smoke coming from your stove, soon the smoke alarm goes off. Faye quickly rushes to the stove. And you follow after her.

She grabs a table cloth and grabs the pot dumping it in the sink.she opens the tap and let's the water run on the pot cooling it. You on the other hand sill kinda confused turn off the stove and try to clear the smoke.

Faye inspects the pot noticing the burnt attempt to making ramen.

"Were you trying to make ramen" She asks looking at you.

"Uhh ye-yeah I guess" you say quickly.

She looks at you worried "didn't you notice that it was burning"

"I didn't I guess I got carried away... my bad" you laugh nervously.

"Are you alright Y/N?"

"I'm great just been tired with school you get" you give her a reassuring smile which she returns.

"How careless of you babe how could you forget" jungkook laughs in your ear.

"I guess we'll have to continue our makeout session later... when we're alone" he kisses your neck and chuckles and you giggle aswell.

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"And I told him 'you think I gonna stay in this bs with you'" faye says as you laugh reminiscing on both your exes. The delivery guy came soon after and now your both eating and chatting.

"He really thought I was gonna be the one to pat him on the head and give him a gold medal for his bs"

"How about you? How's your ex"

Faye wouldn't know much about your exes cause you only met in collage.You never had many exes cause you never cared for dating. But you did have one. You wouldn't say he was your first love because you never really loved him. It was more of a I'm dating cause everyone is dating and I don't wanna feel left out kind of scenario. For you atleast.

"Let's just say never really cared" you say unsurely.

"What do you mean?" She laughs

"I never really cared if he left or not" you explain "but eventually I got tired of being his girlfriend and dumped him"

"You dumped him just like that and he didn't do anything wrong" she questions you "was he that bad" she leans in whispering.

"no he wasn't but at all"

" Oh my you're insane" She playfully slaps your shoulder.

" so if he came back trying to rekindle things, would you?" She lifts her brows.

You pause thinking about your answer. While thinking you feel jungkook by your ear

"Mustn't be that hard to answer Y/N" he says sounding slightly mad.

"Uhh" you say trying to build a sentence. You shift in your seat

"Okay if I think about. maybe I would say yes" as you say that you hear jungkook scoff as he walks away unto your shared bedroom.

You know he's mad.

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It's night time. Faye left a while ago you ate your dinner and took a shower getting ready for bed. All this time you tried to talk to jungkook but he ignored you. He's being childish in your opinion.

You're now sat in bed on your phone while jungkook takes a shower.

Jungkook walks out of the bathroom. His wearing his sweats as he dries his skin with a towel.

"So you're just gonna keep ignoring me?" You ask "you're being childish" you scoff and he still doesn't speak.

You watch him grab his hoodie and jacket.

"I'm not sleeping here tonight" he says as he sits down on the bed to put on his socks.

You watch the back of his head, his hair is still damp, and wonder why all of a sudden he doesn't want to stay here tonight.

This would be the first since you guys have been together.

You get up from the bed and stand in front of him.

"What? What do you mean you aren't  sleeping here tonight" your voice in slight panic.

"What does it sound like Y/N" he mostly called you by your name when he's upset with you.

"You can't just leave. What did I do?" He stands and walks by you coldly and grabs his car keys.

You watch his every move starting to get frustrated by his lack of response.

" is it because of what I said earlier about my ex" he just stares at you. "come on babe don't be so childish."

He walks to you his body so close to you, but you don't feel any love from this closeness.

" do you even understand the meaningof whatyou said? " his getting upset.

"You're basically saying that if any guy came and ever gave you the time of day, you'd leave me for them" his voice is loud but you really aren't scared of him, just afraid to lose him.

"I mean what do you want me to do. Give up my whole love life  for you" your voice is loud aswell.

"Y/N what are you even saying" he sighs voice "are you crazy" he chuckles running a hand through his hair "I am your love life, i am your love, I am yours and you're mine." his voice  is still loud.

You hear the genuineness in his words, his voice.your mind is spiralling and there's an immense pressure on your chest, it feels  like you've been tied down and an anchor has been placed on your chest. You feel the tears fill your eyes.

"YOU'RE NOT REAL JUNGKOOK!!" you unintentionally yell at him, you can't explain the emotions you're feeling. The tears fall down your face.

"Im not real to you Y/N?, what we have isn't real to you Y/N? Huh?" His questions press deeply into your mind.

Each time he says your name it feels like the anchor is pressed deeper into your chest. You really can't tell what this is. You know he's not real, but everything he says and does feels so real.

Everytime he touched you, everytime he kissed you, everytime he held you, everytime you talked and everytime he told you he loved you and you told it back to him. It all felt so real. You didn't know what to think.

"Huh?, Y/N am I not real to you?" His voice is gentle but his words still press so deep into you.

You grip your hair "j-jungkook please" the tears fall and you plead.

"Am I not real?" he touches you and chills run all over your body.

This gesture makes you doubt reality even more.

"I-i-i I don't know" you sob and you can feel his body heat on you

"jungkook I really don't know" you cry.

Jungkook sighs "I also dont know Y/N" he says giving up. He walks towards the door.

You sob turning to the door "please don't go, don't leave me."

Your eyes are shut and when you open them he's not there no sign of the door being touched or anyone  being in the room with you

"They always leave. Why do they always leave."

"But can you blame him he was never there."