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Family Part 1

I never thought this day would come so early. I never expected to witness the death of my own child. Right now, I can only blame myself. For not being a better mother. Jayden, Mummy wil always miss you. Mummy loves you, forever. ——————————— The sun rays flashed against my face slowly giving me signs that it’s a new day. I shifted, trying to get of bed to get ready only to realised two muscular arms wrapping me tightly. I turned myself and faced him. His hazel hair and luminous features reminded me to love him, always. Wanting to do the usual - a morning kiss, I suddenly caught a pair of brown orbs staring right into my soul. Mornings like this really gets me all jelly and refuse to leave the bed. Only wanting to stay in bed and mesmerise over his wonderful features.

A loud cry then interrupted our “staring competition”. It’s a sign that we have to end the cuddling and get started with our day. I got out of his arms and walked to the room next door. As i opened the door, I was greeted by a 15 month old baby boy, looking at me with teary eyes with his arms wide open - a sign he does when he wants a hug. Picked him out of his Ferrari shaped crib that Jay had bought and fixed for him and brought him to the dining area. When we reached the table, Jay was already dressed and was indulging his waffles. Jay lifted his head and smiled at the view he got. First time since Jay had been introduced to Jayden, the baby boy finally whined, asking for love from Jay. His stepfather to-be.

To be very honest, I was scared. Jayden wasn’t planed. In a mean way, he was a mistake. A result of a unprotected, drunk one night stand. His father was a irresponsible man, and wanted an abortion. It was the last thing I expected from him. The man insisted , just so it wouldn’t ruin his “high-class” image. I fled and was left alone, until one day Jay came into my life, our lives if you include Jayden. From the very minute, Jay stepped into my life, I can say, I had become the luckiest woman on Earth. To my surprise, Jay accepted Jayden the very minute he was introduced to the embryo in my uterus. Blessed is all I felt.

Seeing Jayden in Jay’s arms really melts my heart. If it wan’t for Jay, I have no idea how we would survive. In the mist of this wonderful moment, Jayden started to pant. It then advanced to coughing and he started to cry. It was an asthma attack. I ran to the living room, pulling out the top drawer and grabbed the inhaler. Placed it into his mouth and pressed the aerosol. The crying subsided so did the panting. Jayden was born with Steroid-Resistant Asthma , believed to be genaticly passed on by his father’s side of the family.

Jay gave him soothing rubs on his chest and whispers sweet nothing into his ears.

“I’ll take the day off.”

I nodded as Jay walked towards Jayden’s room with the baby in his arms.