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3 years ago

Sorry

So, I have to put a delay on posting the first full chapter of ambrosia. I have like two paragraphs written and I'm not gonna sit down and force myself to write for it at 11:30 at night my time.

I'm wondering if I need to take a story out of the rotation because honestly this is a lot to handle and I'm kinda floundering.

Ambrosia is a hard story for me to write because it has a lot of research I have to do behind the scenes. And the character's aren't flowing as natural for me for some reason.

I'm really trying to give you guys what you want but, it just feels kinda overwhelming right now.

I've got a lot of familial issues going on right now and that isn't helping me.

So I don't know when the next chapter will post, if it'll be the next time it comes up in the rotation or if it will post before that. The first chapter of silver and gold is supposed to post on AO3 tomorrow, because it didn't last time so. Here's to hoping my guys.

I'm really sorry if you were looking forward to Ambrosia this week, I really like the idea it's just a harder concept to write.

I'm just exhausted with this schedule and I might need to rethink it, I may have bitten off more than I can chew to be honest.

But that doesn't mean I'm not writing, because I am writing. All. The. Time.

Please don't give up on me, I'm really trying.

But, for right now I just need to think about what I'm capable of and what I'm working towards.

So, please bear with me for right now.

I love you guys <3

- Jess


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3 years ago

Update

So, hi?

I've gotten several asks wondering where I am, what I'm doing and if I'm okay. You guys are seriously so sweet for worrying about me and wishing me well.

If I'm honest?

I'm struggling a little bit. I have a lot of familial issues going on right now, as well as work stress and a major case of writer's block.

Now, I'm not saying this to brag but I rarely get writer's block, and especially not this bad. So, I'm really upset not only with myself but my stories as well. It seems like everytime I write something it doesn't come out the way I want and it's just frustrating me.

My beautiful beta, Ryn (@queenofthedamnit), is so patient guys you have no idea I honestly don't deserve her but here we are.

Writing has always been a place of solace for me, somewhere that I feel comfortable and happy. Now that comfort zone is kinda not there and it's stressing me out. I have been sitting in front of a screen for so long and I'm honestly so done with it.

This writing schedule is not helping me either. I thought if I did it this way it would make me a better creator, give me a more structured approach to my writing but I don't know if that was the right move. Because I don't ever remember being this stressed about writing.

I'm really anxious about a lot of things in my life and I don't know if stressing myself out with a schedule for writing that takes up a lot of my time is something I want to do at this point.

I'm not saying I'm gonna take a break, or putting this blog on a hiatus because I need to think about that. Really think.

I love this blog, and it has brought me so much joy. Interacting with you guys literally makes my day. So, I don't know when my next story will be posting. I really don't know.

Please, please be careful about asking for updates. Even if you aren't pushing, I might take it the wrong way and the last thing I want to do is snap at someone for just being curious.

So please feel free to come into my asks or send me a message, but for now. I don't know when I will be posting.

I love you guys, please respect my decision.

Love,

Jessika


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2 years ago

Um, hi?

I just wanted to pop on here and say hi! I know people are wondering when new chapters are coming and wanting to know about stories and such, so I’m going to be honest.

I have no idea.

I’ve not stopped writing but my style and what I write are very different now. Does that mean I won’t ever write for my stories again? No, but I’m just saying I don’t have the drive to write those as much as I do for the things I’m writing now.

I will admit, that the lack of interaction on my stories in the past have lessened my drive. I don’t do this for money, I don’t do this for notoriety. I do it because I love writing and I want to share it, but when you spend hours writing something and all people do is ask for another update? It’s a little disheartening.

Now I’m under no delusion that you are required to leave questions, that you are required to interact in anyway, but do be courteous to authors who are more inactive, especially if you notice they aren’t getting much interaction.

What does interaction mean to me? Well, to me interacting is much more than an ask for an update and leaving a like. These world we create are often special to us and we want to be asked about them, we want to know you’re interested. What are your thoughts? What are your feelings?

Sorry this had been a little long winded but I’ve been wanting to say something about it for a while.

I’m sorry this isn’t an update, but I hope you are all doing well.

Happy spooky season ❤️

- Jess


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