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Kazutora x Chifuyu x Baji angst

Paring- Kazutora x Chifuyu x Baji

Warning- sad, angst, forgotten, ignored, left, spoilers???, cat, crying, cuddles, affection, food, poly relationship 

Kazutora never thought of being in love with someone. Not after watching what his father did to his mother. He never wanted to be that kind of person so he tried to stay away from the feeling of love. The first person who made him feel like that was his friend Baji. His best friend. The friend that he fell for but his friend never loved him like that. Baji had loved someone else. It hurt Kazutora to know that. It really did but he never said anything about it. He didn't want to ruin what his friend had. No matter how much it hurt him to see them together. He always wished it could be him instead of Chifuyu. Baji was his first love and probably his last one too. I mean who would love someone like him. I mean he wasn't much to look at. He wasn't good with his feelings. He has a lot of baggage too. He didn't want to put that on someone. No matter who it was. But it does hurt. Seeing how they both are clueless about each other's love for each other. How they act with each other no matter who they are with or where they are. They just be themselves. Kazutora understands why Baji liked someone like Chifuyu. I mean Chifuyu was like a puppy to Baji. Always following behind him. Cheering him on. Letting him do whatever and sometimes joining in. Sometimes he just needs to leave them alone. He just couldn't deal with it. He couldn't deal with the feeling of not being able to breathe. The feeling of sadness and jealousy bubbled up in his throat because of it. The stinging feeling on his throat. The tears wanted to fall from his eyes. He never wanted to tell Baji this was how he felt. He wanted Baji happy and being happy was with someone else so be it. He would sell everything he has just to make Baji happy. He would sell his life to make him happy. To even notice Kazutora. He wondered why life was always like this for him. He never was allowed to be happy. It was like the world was after him for some reason. From how his family life was to what he did to go to jail then to the person he loves. Sometimes he wondered what if he just disappeared. Would anyone care about him or would they just shrug it off and ignore it? Would they try to look for him or just continue what they normally do? Would Baji be sad or happy that he disappeared? He did try this once. He decided to go and stay at a hotel for a week to see how Baji would react if he didn't tell him anything. Most people say he wouldn't notice but people don't know how close you two were or how you were always doing something in the house that they would notice. But the people were still correct. After three days he couldn't take it anymore and decided to head back home. When he went in he saw Baji and Chifuyu sitting on the couch laughing and eating. They didn't even notice him. They continued while Kazutora headed to his room and sat down on his bed. He just looked at the ground. He wanted to punch someone or something. To do anything to get rid of this feeling. The feeling of being forgotten, sadness, jealousy, anger, really all of his feelings. He was about to stand up till a cat jumped on his lap. He looked down at the cat. The cat was one of Bajis favorite cats. The one that he says was his and only his. The cat just meowed at him. Trying to get him to pet him. Kazutora then puts a head on the cat and rubs it softly. He didn't realize that he was crying till the cat started meowing more and rubbing against him. Almost like the cat was trying to cheer him up. All Kazutora could do was smile softly a little and continue to pet the cat. He whipped his tears and told the cat that he was fine. When he saw the cat look up at him that's when he knew the cat also knew that he was not okay. All he could do was bite his bottom lip as the tears fell faster. He felt the cat snuggle close to his chest. In an act of trying to show him that the cat was here for him and that it was going to be okay. He didn't want Baji or Chifuyu to hear his sobs. He didn't want to look weak to them. He didn't want to explain to them what he felt or why he felt like this. All he wanted to do was to go to sleep and pretend that all of this was not real. He just wanted this to be a nightmare. He wanted to wake up now. For everyone to come out and tell him it was a joke. But no one did. Nothing happened. He was still crying while the cat was trying to calm him down. He lays down on his back and puts the back of his hand on his mouth as he continues to cry. He heard the cat meow and walk on his chest and to his face. He then felt the cat give him kitten licks. He turned to the cat but when he looked he saw Baji's face, not the cat's. He just looked at Baji confused. He then looked around him. He saw Chifuyu beside him, looking worried. He was confused about where he was. He was just on his own bed with a cat. But now he is with Chifuyu and Baji. ¨w-wha? Where am I?¨ He asked and looked at them both. ¨You were having a bad dream, Tora¨ Chifuyu says and takes his hand. ¨Chifuyu couldn't wake you up. When he tried to, you would move away. So I took it in my own hands and started kissing your face.¨Baji explained and then Chifuyu nodes. All Kazutora could do was nod. He felt so stupid. Of course Baji wouldn't forget about him and leave you for Chifuyu. Especially since all three of them were together. There was no way either of them would leave him out of it.   ¨sorry..¨ He mutters softly. Chifuyu shakes his head. ¨ It's fine. Want to talk-¨ Before Chifuyu could finish Kazutora shook his head. ¨ I just want to go back to sleep.¨ Kazutora mutters before laying back down and getting back into the spot he was in beforehand. The other two both nod before going back to how they were. Chifuyu was buried into Kazutoras chest while Baji had his arms around Kazutora. Kazutora smiles before closing his eyes and slowly drifting back to sleep.