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SylusXAFABAssassin!Reader Short Drabble

TW: Angst, Death (Reader) , Unrequited Love, No Happy Ending

How could you compete?

Compete with someone who’s been on his mind since as long as he can remember? Compete with a woman whose hold on the person you fell for is so tight that even she is surprised at how devoted his already is to her? Without even trying, breaking down walls and barriers thats surface you haven’t even scratched in just one month? It took you YEARS to get him to let his guard down a little but it took her mere moments. Yes moments. How in the hell were you going to compete with someone he’s known longer than his own existence and has already captured his heart without even knowing?

How could you compete with that?

You don’t know what’s worse. Watching the man you fought side by side with for years immediately fall head over heels with a woman who didn’t even remember who he was or that he completely abandoned you during a battle with a couple of wanderers just to aid this woman and practically leave you for dead. Both hurt so either way it was a loss to you and you at that point couldn’t care less about living or dying. Watching how his face fell from one of fury to complete and utter panic when he thought that hunter was dead as completely forgot about you being buried in the rubble was all the confirmation you needed.

He never has nor ever will love you the way he loves her. His actions showed that.

Not once did he comeback for you. Not once did he see to it that you were found. Not ONCE. And as you slowly succumb to the darkness, an image of the first time you both met each other comes to mind. A memory you held dear until a moment ago and tears stained your bruised up face. You were never going to be his first choice. Never going to ever be able to compete with that hunter. You were just a fill in, someone who could temporarily fill a piece of the void that plagued Sylus heart and nothing more and now that you were practically dead, you understood that now more than ever.

in this masterlist, it contains: aot & love and deepspace!

there will be no dark content such as rape — noncon dubcon, cnc — , murder, etc. but no kink shaming! we never know why they enjoy things !

☆ = smut!

◯ = angst!

ꕤ = fluff!

△ = suggestive!

♡ = crack!

➳ 𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕚𝕥𝕒𝕟

ʟᴇᴠɪ ᴀᴄᴋᴇʀᴍᴀɴ:

you are strong. ꕤ

tw: sexual assualt.

ᴏɴʏᴀɴᴋᴏᴘᴏɴ:

pissing us off. ꕤ ◯

tw: arguing.

ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀs:

aot unnecessarily raising their voice at you. ◯

tw: cursing?

aot when you have scarlet witch powers. ꕤ

➳ 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕕𝕖𝕖𝕡𝕤𝕡𝕒𝕔𝕖

ᴢᴀʏɴᴇ:

on time. ꕤ

let's talk ꕤ ◯

too big, hm? ☆

sweet taste ☆

xᴀᴠɪᴇʀ:

i always win ☆

i think... ◯

always tell me ◯ ꕤ

bitch boy ☆

sexi xavi ☆ꕤ

ʀᴀꜰᴀʏᴇʟ:

can't handle it? ☆

rafayel! ☆ ꕤ

i really cried. ☆

sʏʟᴜs :

deep desire ☆ ꕤ ♡

suck it. ☆

take both! ☆

ᴀʟʟ :

a dad's help ꕤ

riding that d! ☆

your queen ꕤ

➳ 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕦 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥

groups , singular

1) lost and found - complete!

rafayel! ꕤ

xavier! ꕤ

zayne! ꕤ

2) crazy costume - complete!

rafayel! ꕤ

xavier! ꕤ

zayne! ꕤ

3) send the addy - complete!

all! △ ꕤ

4) to my man - complete!

sylus!

✧˚ · . i think...𓇢𓆸

- xᴀᴠɪᴇʀ -

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lately, the tension between you and Xavier has gotten worse with each passing day. the last time you both had a conversation was when you were in a meeting that was about your next mission. majority of your co-workers and your team had easily noticed the growing hatred that was spreading around the air. it broke your heart, it broke his but neither of you have the courage to talk it out.

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"stop acting stupid. that's all i'm trying to say?" his voice boomed with fury, reaching your ears in a disgusting tone. his cerulean eyes dark with disgust, staring at you like you've betrayed him. his demeanour crazily shifted from how he was before.

"how am i acting stupid? all i did was save that girl! you want me to let her die?" your voice didn't compete with his, you're carrying regret for something you didn't do wrong in. you were furious, yes, but showing that would only made that worse. your arms crossed as you mumbled under your breath.

"what was that? say it out loud." he walked closer to you, his steps heavy against the floor of your apartment. stepping back to keep a distance, your arm uncrossed just in case he lashes out.

"you could've died...huh? is that was you want? to be dead? that's selfish, you're being selfish. stop that." his hand lifted to his hip, his upper torso leaning over you.

"so what if i died? i would've died a hero. i barely got injured, it wasn't even that bad of a wanderer. any beginner could beat that." arguing back, his eyes widened at your statement. they turned black, you couldn't see xavier in them anymore.

you couldn't hear the soft voice of your love.

you couldn't feel his soft touch, just harshness.

you couldn't breathe.

your own eyes rose in size as you realised where his hand landed, straight on your neck. his grip tightened, leaving you no choice but to suffer under his gaze. he was crazy, he looked crazy. the pure evil in his face terrified you.

"barely got injured?! you broke your hand!! how dumb are you to understand that you're not destructible!!" his voice was what nearly made you cry out of pain, he was serious yet so aggressive.

"xav-agh- mhm-" you struggled to get his attention, your hand grasping his to try and pry him off, the other no use. his words weren't reaching your ears, they were mumbles; the ringing interrupted every letter.

you came to your last conclusion, you tap his arm thrice, harsh taps to be in fact. it was your safeword, but right now you couldn't do anything else. somehow, that clicked to him.

his eyes shifted back to its original colour, his hand loosing its harmful grip of your neck as he stepped back in horror. as his hands slowly retreated to his side, he tried to get a hold of himself; his mouth agape in surprise.

"fuck- are you okay? i didn't mean it. shit! um-" he scrambled to fine something to help your coughing fit, his last resort was getting some water. he handed the bottle to you before he helped you drink.

after, you held the counter, not daring to stare at him in fear that you might see that face again. your voice was soft and cracked with your gentle cries in between.

his mind cursed at him for doing something so idiotic, he knew that you won't want for him to be here. but his heart still broke when he heard those words.

"...i think you should go..."

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no one knew the story, only you and him. that same day, you had requested for another partner to work with. luckily, it was tara. but sometimes you can't hide stuff from your best friend. especially if she's with you nearly every day.

"babe come on. you're not fine. i know it. please talk to me." she begged and pleaded for you to stop keeping it in. she held you tightly as she rubbed your arm. her face the saddest it's ever been. she caressed your face with her other hand, lifting your head up to see your face clearly.

"you can always talk to me. i promise." her kindness watered your eyes, making you feel so loved and welcomed. sitting up straight, you sighed before laying your head on her shoulder.

"not yet tara...i think i should wait." your voice softened her ears, the tears embedded in your words. understandingly, she nodded while nuzzling her head onto of yours.

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"you STUPID idiot! how could you screw up this bad xavier?!"

shouts and yells echoed in every corner of xavier's apartment, your hands grasping tara's bicep as you begged her to shut up and leave. her finger in his face as she scolded him angrily. you had finally told her, preparing yourself for this.

"tara-" "NO. listen babe, i can't sit past this. he WHAT?!"

oh my gosh. pulling on her jumper, your voice increased in volume as well. "tara! come on!!" she squirmed in your grasp, her eyes full of so much emotion. you were started to get a little bit more excited the more she scolded xavier but you laughing would add fuel to the fire.

"what an idiotic boyfriend you are. i gave you one job- JUST ONE. and you mess it up. take care of her. simple instructions and you know what you said that you will take care of her until your last breathe. might as well stop breathing. my gosh, what a-

BANG!

she slammed her hand onto the wall beside her, the sound vibrating through the air. your eyes narrowed at her strength.

-fucking LIAR!"

finally moving her to the door, you tried to calm her down in your own words, only stopping to open the door properly, pushing her out gently. you hesitated to follow.

turning your head to face xavier, he was staring at you, in melancholy. a part of you wanted to have a conversation, one that lasted for as many hours as it took just for you two to go back to how you were before.

"babe! let's go."

it felt like stinging needles as you forced yourself to pull away from his dreadful eyes, tara watching you like a hawk as she let you say your last words.

"...i'll think i should go..."

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idk if i wanna finished this.

anyway

do not steal any of my work even tho they are trash!

date made: 29-31/05/24

I’m still recovering emotionally. If Caleb doesn’t come back, and become a love interest in the future, I’m going to disappear.

Picture of Caleb: https://pin.it/3RhsCLddI