Long Distance Relationship Rant - Tumblr Posts

It’s hard to articulate during work, but I’m struggling with something. I have so many positive interactions with people and I get smiling faces and well wishes and just general conviviality and camaraderie with people at work. Even if I don’t know their name, there’s usually still a smile. I love it and am grateful for it. Having worked plenty of jobs where people just make the day miserable, this is a welcome change.

But in all of this,

I still get this hollow feeling and emptiness because the person I wish I could have these day-to-day interactions with is so far away from me and I so desperately wish and hope that we could have that.

All these mundane things, I can’t share with them. This long distance makes things so hard. It’s easy to beat myself up for choices and opportunities that could have brought me closer to them, but… life…and really, what purpose does it actually serve?

I had to spill my heart out a little bit- it’s overflowing with ache, and grief, and sadness.

All while having the backdrop of a corporate setting for my day.

What an existence.