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the sweetest soul wrote a sweet fanfic 🩷 thank you so much, my friend
We'll do whatever it takes..
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Everything was so fucked up. You should be sad but you were angry.
There was such a deep pit in your heart, it was all a whole world of dark and frustration you didn't understand- you didn't know what you didn't understand.. but all the ppl outside speaking formally and going on and on- you just wanted to escape and be alone.
The room you were in wasn't enough to shut out their voices- you needed a better place. You swore out the window- A place of comfort and understanding. Was that so hard? Somewhere you didn't have to be perfect or act or react the way they wanted- before, they'd said you were "strong" while they were crying and you weren't- you weren't "strong", you were just holding up - until, until you got here. What was the point of all this? You didn't need perfect emotions to prove to them. Hell, the least they could do was not belittle the complex thing you were going through..
How could they be so selfish to not try to see or understand things from your perspective- gosh- you hated this! You hated everything- you weren't sorry to them, or to anyone, they were seriously kind of being jerks right now. And you didn't know what to make out of the whole thing. The only thing you could focus on- or couldn't- was you..
What you didn't know was your boyfriend Changbin had come inside the house and managed to make his way up the stairs to the room you were in-
What you also didn't know was your other boyfriend Chan had been angrily tackling someone downstairs who was "asking about you", more like bringing you up in a horrible triggering way and making a scene. He couldn't stand their disrespect so in a fit of rage, he got into a fight with them outside, shocking them but just barely getting scratched by them as he taught them to shut up.
When he finally got out of the storm of people nagging him for being "insensitive" "even in the circumstances they were going through" he ran up all the way to you
"Y-y/n?"
His huge arms wrapped around you, squeezing tight as he trembled slightly, huffing, trying not to cry. He nuzzled his face into your hair "Y/n" you heard his voice crack "I promise- I promise- none of this has to do with you, all you ever did was give your all and care and care about people.. whatever they did was out of your control and- all this that suddenly happened- is something you never, ever deserved.."
Changbin quietly told you that Chan and him felt the same inexplainable way that you did- they were annoyed by things and hurt at the same time, but they'd be here for you, regardless of anything.
And they pulled you into a melting hug with both of them, taking turns telling you how they felt too.
You turned around, tears prickling your eyes, feeling like an extremely tiny amt of the darkness could perhaps be washed away, maybe. And you fell forwards, wrapping you arms around them, digging your face in between them and crying quietly, through the sunset and still holding on to them as the night came up. They made sure you were comforted with whatever you needed, and left alone.
And when you were ready you all talked about it together, drawing mini conclusions throughout the night, until you felt a tiny bit warmer and okay enough to fall asleep..
You lay sideways, Changbin right in front of you, as close as possible and Bangchan behind you, them making sure you were cuddled in well - you slipped your right hand into Changbin's and left in Bangchan behind you, gripping tight. You still felt like crying, but eventually, your eyes closed in sedated pain and you fell asleep.
The next day everyone was a bit warmer, maybe they were struggling too yesterday.. But there was one thing you knew. In this hell you'd do whatever it took to take care of yourself, and you- you'd survive. Because you deserved it. And you needed to have you again..
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For @atinystraynstay 🩷🧡💛 This is probably a bit way off and full of rage-y y/n but Ig the point is, I hope you'll feel okay and still be able to enjoy things and take care of yourself too.. *hugs*