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THANK YOU FOR EXPLAINING THIS CUZ I CAN’T PUT IT IN WORDS FOR A MONTH NOW- 

My parents aren’t too much bad parents but I do recognize my parent’s flaws like a lot and whenever I try to express and explain my problem, they wouldn’t see as something too serious even though it is (Like my Mental Health, How I treat other people etc...) and water it down saying that I’ll get over it, I’ll understand it someday and leaving nothing to say but tears. I found Phil like three months ago and a latched onto him already because, man, parental needs and validation to be pop’in me (Idkebuev anyways-) 

And when C!Philza just did that, I felt like instead of comfort, I saw through Ghostbur’s eyes like I heard those same words before, I felt that pain before....I’ve been there before . 

I wasn’t able to even finish the full stream after that part which I soon did the next two days because I’m still shook’th man even to this day.

 I latched onto C!Philza thinking that he isn’t the same as many parental/adult figures that failed to recognize me and raised me when needed them the most however, yeah, anybody can be capable of turning around and do those things whom we never wanted to see from a person who we looked up to as a comfort space. 

Damn minecraft block men with their musicals and rps making us cry what 

i've got a little theory.

i think the people who are most horrified by c!phil's actions are the ones with toxic parents irl who latched onto phil as an escape.

i was so upset about what happened on doomsday i felt sick, but then i asked myself: why? why did this affect me?

and i realized, it's because i live a life in which my parents destroying my belongings or connections to other people is a very real threat. i enjoy phil's "dad vibes" because i can say; "he's a better dad, of course he'd never hurt me the way i've been hurt."

and then we watched him turn around and prove he actually can do those things, all while brushing off complaints with a "you'll understand someday". (a REAL EXCUSE parents use). we weren't just betrayed on tommy and wilbur's behalf, but it scared us as well.

that's just a theory, though, feel free to add onto it.

Pale Oak my Beloved