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thinking abt my bnha. her quirk being that of the mythical being, naga.

her lower body had been a snake since the day she was born, she didnt know how legs worked, how they felt, what it was like. she has to eat like a snake, only able to hunt for food because she cant eat any cooked or processed meats, only certain veggies and fruits lay good in her tummy without rumbling. shes always dreamt of being able to sit with her classmates and eat with them, be able to like what they like, be able to dance like her best friend, mina.

and then a quirk hits her one day. a quirk that removes these troubles, with its own issues. a quirk that made her fully human, but left her to never be able to walk because she has no bones. she can try; try as hard as she wants. make her muscles burn and tense, only to take a step before feeling completely worn out.

but she still liked to pretend to walk.

another thing? normal food tasted good to her. it smelled good. she finally understood why those foods were so beloved to her classmates. theyd take her to eat at their favorite spots. she looked so happy, nobody even bothered to question why she couldnt walk. but she told them one day, and they had mixed opinions.

but she just smiled, happily. shes always been happy, so sweet and friendly too. thats why she was the sweetheart of the class, and even the grade. hell, might as well be the entire u.a.

speaking of u.a, she was supposed to take a leave, like mirio. she couldnt walk, let alone fight, and she was okay with that. she told aizawa shes okay with missing the hero courses. she just wanted to cheer her friends on by watching from the sidelines, but if its too much of a hassle she wouldve stayed at the dorm. she'll do the chores to the best of her newly-legged abilities if she could.

but aizawa has a soft spot. she was like a daughter to him, and if she wanted to watch her friends, who was he to say no? plus, she said she planned to continue studying, even if she had to change courses to general studies. that wasnt happening on his watch. not yet.

everyone took turns carrying her to school. she always said they didnt have too, she knew she was chubby in her regular form and even in this more humane one, so she doesnt want to be a burden and make them carry her heavy body. but they insisted. especially the boys; especially izuku, tenya, mezo, rikido and eijiro. strong boys who desire to stay strong, stay built, it felt like nothing to carry her.

eri who was so shocked that she had legs. eri who wants to "visit big sis!" on the days aizawa deemed she couldnt attend the class. eri who always looked up to her, eri who smiles wide seeing her "big sis" have legs like shes always dreamed of.

my bnha oc, who use to sleep in a large, warm snake cage, but she couldnt turn into a snake anymore. so she slept on the couch, or occasionally in someones room because they feel bad. she tried to refuse, because she doesnt want to take away their comfort, but they tug at the people pleaser strings in her and get her to sleep in their room.

she was so excited to be able to use a microwave to heat up leftovers. she was excited to wear underwear, to wear pants. she llovedwearing cute fluffy socks too, because she felt everything with her tail, but with feet? everything felt so weird. the floor, the grass, everything. but she loved everything at the same time

the class pitches in money, buying a wheelchair for her. she began to cry, because shes never had friends, let alone ones who would buy something for her. promises to pay them back despite their protests, asking for the exact number they put into it, each and everyone person. she would pay them back one way or another.

she was in class, using her wheelchair. neito doesnt even have anything to say, because hes not even cruel enough to try and pick at a girl who cant walk because shes never had legs, let alone the bones to do so. she watched the fight between classes to show their progress, the one in the winter she was supposed to join. hitoshi going up and talking to her because shes one of the few people who broke through his shell. she cheered for her class, she cheered for class 1b, she cheered for everyone. their hearts melted.

mirio inviting her to hang out since he was on leave, and she didnt have to attend classes. she agreed, and they get closer with eri. they almost looked like a family. a family that never stopped smiling, and where enjoying life.

she learnt how to cook, and she learned quick. since she couldnt train on her free time she looked up recipes. she cooked for the class the second she got to the dorms since she left early. she cooked the best homemade meals, and it reminded her classmates of their mothers cooking. even better dare i say.

her snake traits come back slowly one day. her nails sharper, pupils dilating. her tongue darting out when shes happy. hissing whenever shes really excited. and worse of all, she couldn't be near kojis bunny because the urge to eat his bunny was strong.

her fangs are hanging over her lips again. her legs feel rough. scales are appearing and flaking off, like it was shedding time. but she wanted to pretend for a little longer. tears are flowing from her eyes as she stares at the meal she cooked that evening. steak, mashed potatoes, rice, a hearty salad, smoked fish, it was a whole buffet that probably smelled delicious to them.

she is smiling through her tears as the pants she wore were on the floor, ripped as her legs were no longer there. she wasnt normal anymore. she was back to that snake like self she loathed because everyone around her growing up shamed her for it.

"dinners ready." she says, her voice cracking. her plate had nothing but a few raw vegetables only found in the forest leading down to the city.

thinking about my bnha oc, who has returned to feeling like an outcast. an out of place monstrosity. but she still smiles, even if shes crying. because she felt normal for once.

think about my bnha, who still pretended to eat dinner that night with the others, still used the wheelchair everyone bought her, and still pretended she had legs. all with a tear stained face and rehearsed smile.