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Updates Tuesday (personal)

Heya!!!

So, if you've been following me for a little bit, (or, if you like to go back and read all a person's old posts) you can see that I'm very inconsistent. Like so very inconsistent.

This is a part of me. I would like to be more organized and consistent. I would love to have even a flexible schedule, but even after books and videos and buying a few courses, nothing sticks. I'll be very well put together for a few weeks, and then life happens and I'll have to do things differently for a day or two and then ... I just never go back?

So yes, I've accepted that being inconsistent is simply a part of my nature. If it helps at all, I'm inconsistently inconsistent. For example, if it's job related I am the most organized and habitual person ever. Or if family needs something - and I can keep track of things for my Gremlin and myself and my love. If it's important, a switch is flipped in my head and I can do the thing the way it needs to be done for as long as it needs to be done. That's not my natural state, though.

I guess my point with all this is, even though I have it listed that I do "this" on Mondays and "that" on Tuesdays, etc, I may not always actually post that.

Which is ok, bc I'm not here to keep strict schedules. I'm here to connect with awesome people and relax and have fun!

I felt like I set out an expectation or an impression that I was one way, and then quickly showed that I was not. I was not trying to deceive - I think I was hopeful that I would embody this consistency thing? But no. Not this time.

It's okay to keep trying, though, if there's a trait that doesn't fit you but that you admire. Periodically, I think, " Hmmm, maybe it will fit now?" And I try it on. And then I admit that it was not a good fit, but that maybe I could try again later.

I know this was a bit of a ramble. I didn't have more of a point than that, I think. Thank you for listening. I'm going to go get some caffeine and side eye my stories for a bit.

I'll post again later - you take care, ok?

Last night sketchy sketches

I love them🤩💖

I've been trying, and failing, to write a paper for hours

It was due yesterday

I ran out of red Bull

It's 3 in the morning

God help me

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