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Being a person who has OCs but isn't confident enough in their art skills to draw them is absolute torture, because I know all about them and exactly how they look and I can picture it in my head, but I don't have the ability to draw them in a way that would do it justice to me, nor do I have the ability to try to commission somebody else to

okay but the thought of andrew having more than one tattoo makes my knees so weak? pretty boy with a few tattoos? yes ma'am. i might start looking through pinterest to find some tattoos. i already have one for his " tramp stamp " but for the others, i'm unsure tbh. he needs one on the back of his neck though, it's just hot.

Thinking about Albert and Martin getting each other birthday gifts. They probably missed Albert's first birthday together bc he didn't carr enough to bring it up and Martin just didn't know. Albert would get Martin a bunch of stuff for hair and skincare, also vinyl records and books. Maybe some sweets w strawberry. Martin would get him something woolen, like a scarf, and some videogame cds and cartridges plus some nice bonus stuff like maybe a special edition version of some game. Also he'd make food. Maybe bake a cake or at least try, he's not as good at baking as he is at cooking everything else. He'd also probably get him some books bc Albert said he wants to start reading again. Maybe even just his own copies of books they already have, like Night Watch or something

Lads i am having so many thoughts at the same time and they're all about the villains. I'm having gender envy for Albert. I wanna sing karaoke with them both. i want them to take me to a shopping mall.

I just want to say that I'm so upset that there's very few male covers of "What is this feeling" from Wicked and there's not a single one of them that sounds fitting for Martin and Albert. I want to make an animatic with them!! I fell back into the Wicked hole and this song is literally them what the hell I'm so upset

The Tragedy of Ashtoret, Part 1: Trust

Ok so I have been completely, utterly obsessed. Consumed. Diseased, even, with brainworms since concluding my first run of Baldur's Gate 3, and I absolutely have to get the thoughts of my Tav off of my chest in a format that's really only suited to this site so. Below the cut lie extensive spoilers for BG3. All of it. You have been warned. If you read beneath the cut I am not responsible for what you may get spoiled on. (This is gonna be a multi-post series, I just. I need to scream so much.)

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I'm gonna start at the end, rather than the beginning. Ashtoret chose to undergo ceremorphosis in order to better use the Netherstones to control and destroy the Elder Brain. Why did they choose to do this, rather than let someone else take the fall or take control?

Simply put, it's all about trust. They had, out of necessity at first, then over time out of actual faith, placed their trust in the Dream Visitor, the Guardian. The Emperor. Despite how suspiciously he acted, when it came down to important matters (like preventing the ceremorphosis from taking hold too soon and letting them fall to the Elder Brain), The Emperor proved more an ally and asset than a hindrance or something/someone to be cast aside. Although Ashtoret always held a slight reserve of suspicion towards him- they'd be a damned fool not to- they were willing to extend kindness and the hand of friendship and compassion. They'd done much the same for every single other person in their merry band, after all. What was one more?

When they discovered that the Emperor was once Balduran, the hero whose tales inspired their own journey outside the city (they had the Folk Hero background), despite the obvious deception that implied and their upset with him for concealing the fact, they trusted him almost unequivocally from that point forward. How could they not? His tales were the lodestar by which they navigated their life. It'd be like a Cleric having a direct, face-to-face meeting with their god.

Note that I say, "Almost unequivocally". Because even as much as Ashtoret held Balduran in reverence, even as much as they trusted the Emperor to use the power judiciously, simply handing over the keys to godlike power to another being whose intentions could shift at a moment's notice felt foolish beyond belief. They trusted their hero... but not enough.

Not enough to fully hand the mind flayer The Emperor the reins. But, because of that same trust in The Emperor, all he was, and all he had become, they believed that it was possible to retain a sense of their 'self' and continue to help the city even after completing their ceremorphosis. After all, they had a living example right in front of them! If Balduran could do it, why couldn't they follow in his footsteps?

They would step into his shoes. Be his successor, as they'd always dreamed they could one day. Better yet, be his confidant. His equal.

Of course, we all know how this will inevitably end. Anyone who's watched Karlach transform into an illithid will note that she is not the same as she was before. Something was irrevocably lost in the process of becoming a mind flayer, and the same holds true for Ashtoret.

They, like the hero they trusted and believed and followed unto their 'doom', see their current state as a clear upgrade over what they were before. A higher state. An enlightened state. And though they, like their hero, will not necessarily force anyone else to 'evolve themselves' (though even that matter is somewhat up for debate in the fandom wrt The Emperor), they will ever seek to cajole and convince those once in their circle to join them as they are. And while they can understand from a 'read it on a sheet of paper' POV their former allies' horror at this thought, they, like what Balduran became, believe that it's ultimately short-sighted.

And unfortunately, their comrades will never again be able to trust their intentions because they laid their faith onto an already-rotten-to-the-core pedestal.

Zoey is a Rob Zombie and Ghost type of metalhead

Val is a Sleep Token, Slipknot and Metallica type of metalhead

Basically what I’m saying is: they’re hot metalhead girlies

So I was thinking about my Proxy!Alex AU where basically Tim, Brian, Toby, and Alex (oc) all just live in this abandoned trailer park house in the middle of the woods and work for the noodle in a suit that is Slenderman.

And in the middle of scrolling Tumblr, thinking about this au, my brain said

"What if due to the lack of space that's typical in a trailer park house, Alex just sleeps in a tent on top of the roof?"

And I want to draw or gacha edit it, but I just wasted all my creative motivation for today hhhhhhhh