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Day 3: Minecraft

Sorry for the late upload and the shorter length,, today was the last day of finals so I was focusing on turning everything in :,)

Pushing all my stress and need to cry out of frustration on BingBing

I was practicing a line less art style and drew @brightgoat 's victor!!! I'm sorry it's not that good yet, I'm still working on it

Lisa ☆ Dazed Korea

*thinks up an idea for a silly quick piece* okay haha let's whip something up real quick

*idea gets more complicated*

*idea gets more complicated*

*idea gets more complicated*

*idea gets more complicated*

oh no

Scholar

Apple juice and orange juice don’t have to be enemies. They are in love. Orple juice.

I put a spell on you… // Hozier and some very deliberate strumming, by request

These are....umm yeah 👀🥵

Some times my best friend (who the character Derek in American Mate is based on) just makes me realize how “Derp” I can be… see photo for proof. I am the Blue and he is the black. You may laugh at my expense… I laughed too. 💜💜💜

I hear the secrets that you keep. When you're talking in your sleep.

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Big fan of the movie. If you can't tell

minghao is for the girlies who never forgive themselves, who were never cared enough, whose desires or dreams are always taken for granted, who always think of running somewhere far, who have nightmares often, who never feel safe around anyone with their secrets, whose father don't know their favourite colour, whose little habits were always made fun of, who doesn't love their nose, who never had anyone for suggestions, who hates themselves because of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder, often referred to as BPD, is a personality disorder that has a multitude of causes. These causes include genetics, brain abnormalities, hereditary predisposition, and more commonly, childhood trauma. 

As someone who was professionally diagnosed with BPD I feel the need to explain the process of diagnosing BPD, including all its symptoms, common and not so common.

BPD can be a difficult diagnosis because of its similarities to other conditions, particularly mood disorders. 1.6% of the population is estimated to have BPD, with 75% of that estimation being women. As many as 80% of people with BPD have suicidal behaviors and 10% successfully commit suicide. 

Symptoms include: 

An intense fear of abandonment or going to extreme measures to avoid real or perceived abandonment,. This does not include self-harm or suicidal behaviors covered later in this list

 A frequent pattern of unstable relationships with peers or family members, including the infamous models of idealization and devaluation. One minute you love someone, the next minute you go through an intense wave of hatred towards them because of a minor disagreement or a perceived, but not real, disagreement.

Rapid changes in one’s self-image. This may cause shifting goals and values which may lead to an unstable career or school life. 

Severe dissociation which may come in many different forms, including any kind of disconnect from reality, or feeling as though one isn’t real, or feeling numb

Impulsive behavior. This includes spending money, having unsafe sex, binge eating, or binge drinking. Often times, you can’t make your mind up about simple decisions.

Mood swings that last anywhere from minutes to hours. These mood swings may be so severe one might resort to suicidal ideation. Switching moods is often compared to being like a light switch, constantly turning on and off

A chronic feeling of emptiness that makes you feel dead inside. It’s constantly there and victims will often use drugs or alcohol to fill that void.

 Inappropriate anger that results in emotional or physical symptoms, including crying, isolating oneself, punching holes in walls or hitting things, or having spontaneous verbal outbursts 

 Periods of feeling severe paranoia or a disconnect from reality that may be considered acute psychosis

 Being told you can’t be told no, that the other person feels they must say yes to not inconvenience you, in fear of resulting in an inappropriate outburst of anger or fear

Restlessness, an inability to sleep

An inability to relate to peers, finding comfort in shows and movies and fictional characters

Not knowing who “you” are. You find yourself in everyone and everything, without a clear image of yourself, which often leads to confusion and frustration, as well as stunts in growth

Diagnosing BPD can take months or years, as it’s often confused for PTSD, depression, or Bipolar Disorder. Many people with BPD often go through a phase of denial when diagnosed, or alternatively, they go through an obsessive phase where their identity becomes their disorder. 

the thing that vexes me most about writing is, you think it’s done but it usually never is

WHAT WE DO IN THE SHADOWS (2014) | dir. Jemaine Clement & Taika Waititi

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