On Trauma. - Tumblr Posts
I want to talk about what happened without mentioning how much it hurt. There has to be a way. To care for the wounds without reopening them. To name the pain without inviting it back into me.
Lora Mathis, If There’s A Way Out I’ll Take It
listening to 'who we are' for the first time was a religious experience.
to hold me like water or, Christ, hold me like a knife
we're born at night so much of our lives is just carving through the dark to get so far and the hardest part is who are it's who we are
you only feel it when it's lost getting through still has its cost quietly, it slips through your fingers, love falling from you drop by drop
like dude. that's going to take 10-15 business days to process
okay okay but if you look at what he's done....
to hold me like water / or, Christ, hold me like a knife water is something we need to live, and a knife takes life away. It draws blood. perhaps he's speaking to his lover... hold me like a life source or, christ, hold me like a sacrifice/like i have a purpose.
and the hardest part / is who are / it's who we are personally, i see this as our dark or unhealthy parts. drawing on the line is just carving through the dark, you could see this as our traumas. they're often ugly and hidden, but they are still who we are. thus, these traumas will show their face in certain situations, like the relationship being sung about.
You only feel it when it's lost / getting through still has its cost / quietly, it slips through your fingers, love / falling from you drop by drop now this part oh my goodness... you only feel it when its lost, he could be speaking on how love is felt most in it's absence. this line however also very cleverly ties back to the water/knife reference... you don't feel the water or blood your body needs until it's gone. until you're dehydrated or bleeding out. then quietly, it slips through your fingers, love / falling from you drop by drop DUDE this ending omg. love can slip through your fingers, you don't notice a leak until you've lost water. hence, the dripping. but we don't know... is it water dripping? or was the knife used, and blood is falling drop by drop.
Seriously. what.
listening to 'who we are' for the first time was a religious experience.
to hold me like water or, Christ, hold me like a knife
we're born at night so much of our lives is just carving through the dark to get so far and the hardest part is who are it's who we are
you only feel it when it's lost getting through still has its cost quietly, it slips through your fingers, love falling from you drop by drop
like dude. that's going to take 10-15 business days to process