On Sacrifice - Tumblr Posts

Obsessed with the idea of sacrifice in a book being a selfish act rather than a selfless one. Their lover screaming at them: “How dare you leave me in this barren world? How dare you take away my choice to die for you and leave me with this grief?”. They are dead, and their lover is left - a gaping wound - bleeding into the ground. Do they love them so much that they would die for them, or do they love them so much that they forced the other to live without them? Sacrifice as a bitter act. Sacrifice as something wildly violent; something tormentingly cruel — but always, always built on love. Perhaps, they are both martyrs in the end.

i'm literally the priest's favorite sacrificial lamb because i am so docile and sweet and i hold very still when they put the rope around my neck and i trot along so happily while they lead me to the altar and they do not even have to tie me down because i lie so very still and only bleat once or twice in my lovely lamb voice and when the knife comes down it cuts through me like butter and i offer no resistance and i bleed so prettily all over my new white wool and my guts all unspool like the most beautiful shining yarn and my eyes are animal and dumb and hold no accusation and every time i die i come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much and he always chooses me for the sacrifice every time and he always places one hand on my small and twitching nose to calm me while he lifts the knife and he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because i'm his favorite

okay okay but if you look at what he's done....

to hold me like water / or, Christ, hold me like a knife water is something we need to live, and a knife takes life away. It draws blood. perhaps he's speaking to his lover... hold me like a life source or, christ, hold me like a sacrifice/like i have a purpose.

and the hardest part / is who are / it's who we are personally, i see this as our dark or unhealthy parts. drawing on the line is just carving through the dark, you could see this as our traumas. they're often ugly and hidden, but they are still who we are. thus, these traumas will show their face in certain situations, like the relationship being sung about.

You only feel it when it's lost / getting through still has its cost / quietly, it slips through your fingers, love / falling from you drop by drop now this part oh my goodness... you only feel it when its lost, he could be speaking on how love is felt most in it's absence. this line however also very cleverly ties back to the water/knife reference... you don't feel the water or blood your body needs until it's gone. until you're dehydrated or bleeding out. then quietly, it slips through your fingers, love / falling from you drop by drop DUDE this ending omg. love can slip through your fingers, you don't notice a leak until you've lost water. hence, the dripping. but we don't know... is it water dripping? or was the knife used, and blood is falling drop by drop.

Seriously. what.

listening to 'who we are' for the first time was a religious experience.

to hold me like water or, Christ, hold me like a knife

we're born at night so much of our lives is just carving through the dark to get so far and the hardest part is who are it's who we are

you only feel it when it's lost getting through still has its cost quietly, it slips through your fingers, love falling from you drop by drop

like dude. that's going to take 10-15 business days to process

Baie | she/they | unlabled | 18

– currently listening to: 'david melrose theme' by hauschka, smokey eyes by lincoln, along with elias hix, hozier, noah kahan, gang of youths – currently reading: all the light we cannot see by anthony doerr and phosphorecence by julia baird

welcome

hello :> it's general chaos around here. possibly some web weaving of my own floating about. but there's not much else to it

about me: australian!! 2006. lover of love and life. infj 4w5. very in love ᰔᩚ chaotic good! rediscovering and building my faith :) lqbtqia+

academia: graduated '23!! starting my double degree in ‘24! slowly self-teaching japanese ᰔᩚ. chaotic academia by blood

the goal: bachelor criminology and criminal justice + psychological science (and maybe cybercrime in the future?)

master list

(links are broken atm, but the tags are correct)

#poems and quotes

#ineptias loqour (my posts)

#study log

#media

#artwork

#music

#musings (a fav of mine)

#meme

#not a meme but that same category of posts

#on christianity

#letters to myself

#that one type of green

#web weaving

#anderson don’t talk out loud. you lower the iqueue of the whole street. (queue tag)

added this section with the tags i use most often so i can find posts later, everything else is just #on *thing* and frankly i can't be bothered with that.

will possibly add links to fandoms and reads... not sure yet. it would be good to have an active list of all the books i read and enjoyed enough to keep a list of…. here’s a short list of fandomesque things tho: sherlock, rwby, bts/kpop, d20, sk8 the infinity, good omens, epic the musical, lore olympus webtoon, loki series, fnaf,

books would include: archives of despair by caleb finn, hamlet, good omens, throne of glass series, embassy row series, the song of achilles by madeline miller, they both die at the end duology, the inheritance games series, shadow and bone+six of crows, everything by alice oseman

music as well perhaps? hozier, bts, ericdoa, noah kahan, glaive, cage the elephant, lizzy mcalpine, cave town, mccafferty, chase atlantic, brakence, eden, the front bottoms, (it’s all over the place… just not much country music tbh)

here’s the old intro post, haven't decided what to do with it yet

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ik this is a new account, but i’ve been here since july 2020 <3

for what i have done and failed to do i am sorry.