{outofsteel} - Tumblr Posts

“Hello all, Lily here! It’s springtime at last, and all the kids are starting out on their Pokemon journey. Be sure to sign up if you’re ready to take your egg this year!”

//Those who reblog this post before the first of June, 2018, will receive an egg in their inbox and a Pokemon sometime in June based on their muse. Only applicable for RP blogs, any fandom. Reblog to get an egg. Multimuse blogs, please state which muse! You MUST have your submission open, or you won’t be able to receive your egg!

When someone you remember from before follows you again on your remade blog. @firxga

Your egg hatched!

The egg trembles and begins to crack. Slowly, a little head pushes the cracked shell away and the baby Pokémon emerges. It’s a Honedge!

OutOfSteel: Yes Yes YES that one! I have a heavy need!

*slinks up to you*

Want to pick it back up again? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

When someone you remember from before follows you again on your remade blog. @firxga

Reblog if Tumblr is eating your activity dash notifications more than usual.

OutOfSteel: I feel like poor Buster is being beat to hell lately. Honor Bound has him suffering through being impaled on a spike in a pit trap and Journey To Banora is going to have chipped/cracked and falling apart.

My poor baby is getting so much abuse.

if ur my friend / writing partner you will notice

i’m shit at holding a conversation I’m like the hot potato convo dropper

some weeks I’m practically a ghost like ~oooo woop~ where am I 

responding to threads in a timely manner ??? don’t know her

@argentumexitium

when you’re rping with your partner and things get so out of hand you’re just watching your characters do their own thing and not at all what you intended like

Did somebody say Radar?

Sorry, I'm a big M*A*S*H fan so the first thing that came to mind was Walter "Radar" O'Reilly. 'Tank' as a turk name sounds a bit cooler and doesn't give me the image of our favorite teddy bear touting corporal.

@misericorsmxrtyris

Turk Question

 Quick question: I gave Harmony the Turk name “Radar” for her artificial’s eye capable of aiming and locking on targets to ensure accurate shots. She primarily works with guns, but I wonder if that’s appropriate. She has super strength with her cybernetic enhancement. Harmony can charge and barrel down enemies and break down walls. Would Tank be a better Turk name or should I stick with Radar?

Accurate.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BaeOCymjoac/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=14lwbxd0dtrs2

That's when in casual conversation you bring up the ship off handedly like:

And if they don't bite:

"So... How about that blablablah? “

When you really wanna ship your muse with someone else’s muse because they are actually cute together during your Rps but you’re too shy to ask the Mun to ship because you think they would think you’re weird or would see it awkwardly

@argentumexitium

“Roleplayers who know you’re busy or having any sort of issues in real life and continue to talk to you, while waiting weeks or months for a reply to a thread, are a blessing.“

{Out of Steel} Please! Though keep in mind I am very slow and lazy with my replies. >, <

Like for a Rapier AU Starter

Basics? She is a Sentient Version of Genesis’ Rapier.

{Totally the hot sexy girl in a suit type!}

Should I draw a formal/ball dress for Rapier?

Or does she seem more like the, Fuck dresses. I’m wearing a fucking suit type girl?

{I find it useful to carry like 3 dollars in cash in case of an emergency. Funny thing for me is that tend to spend less money with cash than with card. But I agree that you shouldn't carry a large amount of cash if that is how you spend it faster. Just having a few bucks incase you need it is good but that is just in my personal experience. A lots of places in my town don't take cards or charge you extra to use your card.}

My dad is pissed I don’t carry cash on me. Which I don’t for reasons.

Reason 1: I’m fucking in debt. So don’t really have a choice.

Reason 2: I spend it faster. With a card, it takes me THREE DAYS to spend $20. If I had cash? That $20 wouldbe gone in a day.

Reason 3: I get mugged. Granted that is highly Impossible in my town. But still a reason.

My wallet gets stolen and I have $50 cash? Gone forever. Now no cash and just my two cards from the same bank? Call up the bank and cancel the card and get replacements. Still have all my money.

So yeah, I have reasons for not wanting to carry cash. His reason I should carry cash when going to like the Library or taking the dogs for a walk?

What if you pass a gargae sale and want to buy something now you have no cash and can’t get anything. THATS THE FUCKING POINT! SO I DON’T SPEND IT!

@vxidsxmmxned

Out of Steel: I feel like Buster is pretty good with directions but not if they are explained to him in the normal way. Like, you can't give him street names and tell him to go a block and take the first right because it just won't stick. But if you say something like "Turn right at that fountain, go down that path by the taco cart until you reach that tall street light next to that bar and then go left until you feel like you have been walking a long time and you see that big tree and go around and take that path to the side and you are there" and then it will make perfect sense to him.

📂

Mun: I guess the useless headcanon I have for Masa is that…..he’s shitty with directions honestly.

Poor boy get’s lost easily and tries to play it off that he meant to be in the location he’s in. 90% of the reason why he stays by someone’s side so that he can navigate the world much easier.

Hope everyone had a Happy Halloween. Please enjoy this Friday Mun Pic.

(I'm not dead I swear. I'm just settling into the new year.)

Personal Update (read me)

Hello Friends,

I know I haven’t been active on Tumblr in about a year and even then, my activity has been sporadic at best. I guess I’ve been going through some things. Not all of it has been mad mind you, just has taken some mental energy is all.

I guess it all kind of sprouted in 2016, my family and I were working on getting out of a shitty town which we did in the first part of 2017. I then started a new job in a new place and had to focus on that and then as life started rolling along, I guess I kind of started loosing pieces of myself along the way. Just little bits at first so it wasn’t noticeable. But that is just something that happens as an adult. Well, then of course more shit happens. The first half of 2018 came with all kinds of fun itself (again not all bad) but some of which included having to move because our landlord wanted her house back. Then at the first part of 2019, I got promoted out of a stressful position into a very nice position but needed to give a lot of brain power for that for about six months while in training. Of course then at the same time I was battling some depression and having sleep issues (as in the lack of sleeping sort).

Things started looking up last June when our new landlord in or new place approved for us to have a second cat so my family surprised me with a kitten. Axel has been a massive improvement for me emotionally and physically. I also took a meditation course through my work which was helping out a bit too.

But I still had some depression issues. Not quite as bad as before but the root of the issue was still there.

Cutting to the chase, one day in October, I had a stark realization: I don’t want to get married and I don’t want to have children.

Now this might sound simple to some people but I have just turned 30 this last November, but starting a family was something that I thought I wanted. But my romantic prospects were zero and none of them panned out and I honestly cannot see myself getting married or having children in a reasonable amount of time. And when I nice guy tells me that is what he wants, I go into emotional panic.

Coming to that conclusion was a big thing for me. Especially when I realized that I do not need any validation from a romantic partner about my worth. If someone doesn’t want me as I am, then they can go f-themselves.  It was my life, and I could do whatever the hell I want. I have a good job, I have a house to live in, I have a car. I don’t need anything else but to have fun the way I see fit.

That is when that big lump of depression went away and I could actually say that I didn’t hate myself anymore. That is a big deal.

So...now what?

Now I need to find those pieces I lost along the way and that has been a struggle in its own right.

I’ve then had a bit of an emotional quarter life crisis. I have nothing to strive for, I have no real goals. Nothing to do but go to work, come home, rinse and repeat. I had no drive for anything. I was not happy.

My mom asked me what would make me happy and I told her I didn’t know.

So I’ve been trying to figure that out. I’ve been picking up some old pieces of things that use to make me happy and some of them have been fitting back in place like they never left (like cosplay and conventions) and some of them haven’t fit back at all (like theater and blog writing). But, I’ve also found some new pieces that fit in nicely with old ones (I am a furry; I will love getting ears and tails and pairing those with cute anime cosplays).

I almost deleted my tumblr completely the other day because I have been frustrated with no knowing what to do with myself and feeling like I cannot live up to expectations. But then @ancientblxde said how she looked forward to writing with me again and I didn’t want to give up quite yet. I guess I also had a golden moment yesterday, when I finished my ‘Fursona’ as my avatar for the furry fandom community. My Fursona is how I picture myself on the inside. She is the person that I want to be. The moment that I clicked save on the file, I felt a new vigor. I didn’t like the person that I have  become so I want to be better. I want to find little things to add to my day so they are not so black and white, rinse and repeat. I want to find those little things that make me happy a little bit each day. And the things I kept putting off because I had no motivation for them even though they were important, I am going to try and do one thing each day, no matter how small it is.

So I am back. I want to find my love for the my muse again and for all the wonderful people I have interacted with and who have been keeping up with me for all these years even though I haven’t been around because you are all important to me. It is because of this...that I hesitated when I wanted to delete everything.

Thank You. <3